Finding My Foundation

[Michel]

the right people make it easy

Chosen attracted the friends I’d made in the last, brought then to the present and made things easy. They are artistic and also have been rejected by the wider ecosystem. So an opportunity to take part in their group exhibition that came to me (on Chosen) ended up being the best response to having my work torn apart, criticised and projected on with some of the wildest accusations ever from my other group -

I’ve rekindled good friendships and made new ones. Chosen’s self worth scripting made it happen.

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CFW has been peeling back some of the deeper ideas and false expectations I’ve made about life - that I should expect struggle, to be sidelined, to be observed and on guard in public. To not belong. Yet I do belong - I’m a creative in a very creative city.
In fact in a lot of the gentrified areas I belong. So why am I carrying beliefs from decades past? Society has changed.

CFW also made me think about my late father, how he coped in a new country, raising a family and navigating his own shadow - through me. And yet he tried to make a little effort to get to know me. It doesn’t excuse his violence towards me, but it’s learning to have a more balance view of him, which helps in understanding my own traits within relationships.

Anyway, you know Chosen works when family sees its beautifying effect and want to marry me off

[Michel]

The Wanted flip

Conspiracy theory.

I think Wanted is still active…

Chosen is giving me a ton of self confidence, that’s allowing Wanted to execute. And is it executing like a motherfucker.

Case in point:

• I got severely eye fucked on the street by a very intense gym girl when I wasn’t expecting to be.
• Then a ton of charm unexpectedly came out for a redhead gallery assistant who then decided to “seek” me out when I was at the other end of the venue.

This is Wanted territory, not Chosen.

It’s making me question again whether Wanted’s 4 cycles are only now starting to shine properly with the settled confidence of Chosen.

It’s also throwing me off a little - how that scripting is still in the background months after such a difficult run. Here’s me thinking that long run was incompatible with my energy…

When it comes to purchasing a future custom, I think A Chosen/Wanted NE custom would be killer.

[ABC333]

That’s what I did. I forgot I ran Wanted before switching to Chosen. But I think the hot,sexy professional lady attraction was influenced by Chosen for sure, just boosted by the previous Wanted run.

[Michel]

The results that have been showing up since June:

• Spontaneous weight loss through the middle

• Attracted a place in an exhibition

• Several women giving out strong IOIs when out and about

• Entitlement to free stuff. Yes it’s mine to take.

• Chatting up the receptionist in a gallery, on a whim and having her follow me

• Relationship with family is more harmonious

• Enjoyment of life is now stable

• Gifted money from friends out of the blue

• Spending reduced time in places that I don’t gel with, without guilt.

The most important result is that a sub called Chosen is my go to that allowed the above to cleanly manifest. Which includes the Wanted run.

What if I stack both titles and run Wanted for another cycle?

[hyperbeam]

If you like both Wanted and CHOSEN, it could be worth a try to stack them.

Thinking long term, if you like the duo, a name embedded major could be an option.

[ABC333]

I think that was my potential dream stack before trying new primal & ps.

[Michel]

Wanted picking up pace

Upgraded my look - still with a backpack, but with polo shirt buttons undone. Not so hungry for that validation, I’m owning the archetype a bit more in my own way (Chosen helps massively).

Feeling that kind of understated poised confidence from both sub titles. Fuck do I look good, damn.

Now here’s the strange part:
A female friend I met from a healing event texted me wanting to know where I’m going on holiday… We’ve been strictly friends, even though she invited me over to her place one time. This was after I posted a “hot” selfie.

Also another female friend that “dumped” me also posted a selfie and reached out again.

These women have friendzoned me in the distant past, but there’s something about New Wanted that has prompted them to reach out… Coincidence? So what’s going on? Has she changed her mind about me?

[Michel]

Think I’ve unlocked a new skill on Wanted.

The burgeoning coquette.

Sometimes the “I’m going to kiss my bf to show you” irritates me, this time when it happened again in front of me, Wanted instinct took over - I decided to play her game. When she did the protective thing, I tilted my head closer to the woman next to me (who seemed at ease with me anyway) heavily implying that she was my gf, to say to her that I was also taken and she was silly to think I was even interested.

Petty? Sure.

Unlocked new Wanted level? Definitely.

[Michel]

Two solid approaches:

(I’m beginning to feel out this Wanted sub properly. I look good and feel sexual and it’s reflecting outward. Now I’ve got the evidence in the real life that I am desired sexually)

The first: Barely clocked this one but standing on the train, this chick walked half the corridor towards me looking at the map display of the train, then sat back down. I clocked her then in her seat smiling

The second at the station kept approaching me then withdrawing at the platform to see if I was a real person. So I decided to sit next to her and her head damn near collapsed! She kept looking up at me if I still real and I reciprocated.

On top of this, I receive a message from a female friend of mine who basically said I have attractive facial features and couldn’t understand why I wasn’t more popular with women.

Not sure what unlocked this sub - it has to be the Chosen pairing.

Being approached is one of those life experiences that change you for the better. When you have had very little to no romantic prospects for all of your life, genuine interest feels like the ground thawing out.

[Michel]

@SaintSovereign

I cannot accurately determine your archetype for you, since I only get to see one tiny little facet of you – what you express here. But many of you may have a hard expressing WANTED’s goals alone and should consider adding something that’s very authentic to you in the stack to modify WANTED’s goals.

Found my answer to why Wanted works this cycle. Stacking with my own archetype (Chosen) seems to have made Wanted my own.

[Michel]

I’m hot as fuck

I was the proverbial ugly duckling, in my childhood I was overweight smelly and awkward and assumed other people saw me like this. That was despite having a few admirers. Nowhere would I ever dream of being “that” good looking sexual man.

However I’ve just looked in the mirror and where in the fuck did I develop such an upper body? I’ve done weights in the past and that’s bulked me out - but looks like Wanted has sculpted my chest out. Damn… I now see what women are seeing and… good luck trying to resist me makes me want to go back to the gym…

I can also spot which woman is potentially receptive (there have been tons) and balanced it with a drive for self development and enjoyment. I can enjoy observing a girl constantly fix her bra straps and bra cups, find that extremely seductive as anything and return to watching YouTube on my phone.

Trying to tweak my look for the new semester, a good sturdy sidebag is sexy too. Such a shame summer is ending, but it can always be run for next year.

Wanted is a hard sub to master but Chosen is the Trojan carrier making it easier.

[hyperbeam]

I just want to say that you have new swag. The way you write is different in a good way.

Cause of this journal, I am tempted to revisit WANTED. Previous version WANTED was okay for me while latest version was less attraction but more physical shifting. Currently revisiting Love Bomb Plus wealth subs.

[Michel]

indifference makes the difference

Got an answer from Support regarding the next stage of Wanted and it mirrors what I’m experiencing now with the sub.

I’ve been a little indifferent towards women recently, figured this has to be the next level of Wanted being unlocked. I can trust the outside enough with reliable attraction to deploy new Wanted settings. As arrogant as it seems, I know I’m desired and hot, so there’s no need to constantly monitor responses to me anymore, I get it now. Can’t believe I thirsted for that kinda thing for so long.

I’ve also started lightly clapping back at my family who like to launch “shit tests” the kind I took far too seriously as a kid and let it destroy my self esteem. Surprise, now they can’t handle it - they were used to a person absorbing digs without challenge.

I’m more interested in things that pay off for me - a drive to improve my body, looks and my health in the quickest, most basic way. It sounds cold but the place I put women’s validation was so high I forgot myself.

But why run Wanted? For me.

[Michel]

abundance thinking?

Continuing the theme of indifference I seem to not care much about the numerous hot women giving me the eye and getting flustered anymore - and I’m actively looking less and less. I know this is the Wanted feature of non neediness, but still shocked at how well I’m embodying it.

Then it got me thinking about how not giving a shit seems to be a positive when it comes to dating and such. It’s taken 4 cycles to have the mindset of “never chase it down” now it’s more “it’ll happen when it happens”. From someone who has never ever reached this level of mastery, it feels a little weird and no safety blanket.

But either way I’m good with it, I look even better this month and I know the difference between good people and misaligned people and to stop constantly trying to prove who I am to people who misunderstand and mischaracterise me.

[Michel]

wanted, by who?

Something is working though toxic guilt and teenage trauma that had me ashamed and guilty at home and in front of my school peers - I was too nerdy, not “Black” enough, not masculine enough, accused of being gay if I didn’t have 3 baby mums (which is hand down the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard).

Ever since a lot more self comfort with Wanted, I dress how I want. And I’m still hot as fuck. Hot as in women cannot directly look at me anymore. As in I can use my voice to charm and talk to women without any kind of expectation of anything.

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I feel great but the hunger for a home that is fully mine still scratches me. I thought I found it with my ex but that turned into a prison. As painful as this is to admit, I can’t get my family to like me. It doesn’t stop me trying though… There are things I like to do around the house like washing and cleaning up, basic DIY and kitchen cleanup but the appreciation and recognition is zero. Same pattern with my ex (who I know is regretting that now…)

[mmmcheckplease]

They have made a decision. Let people who don’t like you be. I know that pull very well myself. Sometimes we need to take reality as is instead of what we wish it was…

[Michel]

Guilt and shame usually keep me in the game longer than it should. But I’m slowly releasing it now. It sucks that the closest to me don’t really care is the situation, but whatever… That what these subs are for.

I just said to myself “find your voice, dammit” and guess what’s in the Q Store…

Finding Your Voice - Quintessence by Subliminal Club

[Michel]

Speaking of which:

Main Disc. Thread - The NEW Wanted! (Free Upgrade! Now Available! Custom Core Available)

Wanted relies on coherence. That moment where preforming, needing or doing anything becomes too exhausting and you let go briefly. That’s when out this world synchronicity’s occur the most. That’s when the sub makes " it’s " full power known. Another example of brief cohesion is getting a big win, feeling lucky or something works in your favour in ways you didn’t expect. Your baseline is elevated and cohesion is increased. Mental and unconscious noise reduced = higher quality cohesiveness whi…

I feel like I’ve gotten to know Wanted and feel it out over a long enough timeline that I could start experimenting with my comfort zone - unforced conversation with a woman, teasing and gazing (well of which happened this week)

This is why I feel “f*ck an IOI” or “don’t be a passive, wimp” type advice is well meaning but unhelpful. It’s great to be at that glorious abundance stage already with women, but right now I’m not. Even on cycle no. 5. I’m getting used to looking hot, a world away from my teens looking fat and ugly. So criticising someone for not being further along the journey is the anthesis of growth. Let a brother grow for fuck sake.

[Michel]

relaxing into being hot

On Wanted and Chosen I’ve released into a very comfortable, embodied self. I know I’m hot - conceited! -

It’s safe to say that I don’t even register or question the “Wanted” attraction signs anymore, because they are very obvious. I’m more interested in how to get comfortable with both subs and let my natural self out - the self I was conditioned to believing it was shameful.

(Although “natural self” is heavily influenced by Wanted, my new dress code is jeans and jacket, leaning back in my seat, with the attitude and life wisdom of "I don’t care a fuck)

As a bonus, I don’t have the voice of my narcissistic parents yelling in my ear about how flawed I am and how “perfect” I should appear to be to others. No one is perfect, so why should I be grinding to their “high standards”, when frankly, I’ve achieved more academically than they ever have?

Yeah I’m a complete monster for saying that, they fed, clothed and housed me, how dare I?

It pisses me off that I achieved this level of mind autonomy later in my life.

This type of confidence is a little elusive because anyone can act confident but the inner “shoulds” come forward to belittle me. But self acceptance and authority that is coming from the self is now taking root, finally learning to do that. Maybe it’s maturity and getting older… I’ll just be myself and the results will speak for myself. Others can project their shit all they like.

[ABC333]

The most enjoyable part for me on my journey is just being able to be myself again. It’s like the subs bring out the right conditions where that’s okay. Just that aspect alone is worth its weight in gold. Huge bonus that we get to pick and choose the flavors we want to add in, with whatever titles we choose.