Finding My Own Joy

[Michel]

Continuation of previous journal featuring:

DreamBoi
Summertime

Taking a break:
Chosen

Aim:
To honour my natural self as powerfully as possible, to stop being a tryhard “alpha” and to release early conditioning (creepy, weird, misunderstood etc)

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Natural self as described by my Human Design chart (4/6, Sacral Generator, Split definition etc)

[Michel]

@Michel

Finding My Own Joy

Stack is now:
Chosen + Summertime + DreamBoi

Chosen: The MVP. Gentle but powerful radiant leader. Very useful for work

Summertime: unwind a lifetime of bracing, friendship betrayal and failure, return joy to system.

DreamBoi: to replace Wanted - results mostly physical shifting, bodily aches and pains, clashing with Chosen

Happy with the selection, it fits much better with my own system - Wanted/Chosen was the warm leader clashing with trying to be the mystery alpha and it showed in my body when stuff started to hurt in my feet and torso. It’s time to swap it out for the gentler, energy compatible version and play that for a cycle or two.

Grateful for the 5 cycles for what it showed me - that I was genuinely becoming more and more attractive, leaner and more able to free myself for approaching women. Summertime will handle the nervous system relaxation better and it will get me to understand that past childhood friendship failures doesn’t mean to shut yourself off totally from expressing oneself spontaneously.

Also being a bit more selfish in that I will measure others by what they give me.

Love, positive vibes = my best.

Ignoring, superior, judgemental, deliberate misunderstanding = fuck all. The servant days are over.