I am an og member here, i have been away understanding life, emotions and purpose with Emperor… been at it for 2 years now with few subs in between. Me and my dad own a buissness and i work as a teacher part time.
I got Libertine Ultima two days ago… and used it with Sex mastery on repeat when i go to bed. It wasn’t until earlier today that i read that i may need to start with few loops.
Day 1: I woke up heavy eyed and i had a weird vivid dream about going to a motel in a different town. I keep ending up in that motel without a reason and i even woke up there without knowing how i ended up there.
Later i went to my gf’s place to celebrate her birthday, nothing unusual from her. Went to bed, played LU and SM on repeat.
Day 2 ( today ): I woke up heavy eyed again, i kept sleeping and waking up all night. I have definitly should have listned to fewer loops. Later today, i had a conference with my boss to teach new teachers at our organisation on how we operate and how it works etc…
80% of the audience were women. Most were not my type and few were good looking. I felt eyes on me from both the attractive and the unattractive in a random manner. 2 in particular were unable to stop staring at me, during my part of the conference and when i was sitting.
At the break, one of the participants took me to a nearby cafeteria and introduced me to 3 pretty chinece girls who were intrested in taking my class. They were overly formal yet over reactive… i felt like an extremly important figure…
I go back with the girl who took me to meet her friends. She was cute but not my type. I sat down unable to focus on whats being said having eyes on me all the time. Yet i had a new type of confidence and charisma. I normally need some warm up before public speaking but today it felt as easy as drinking water.
Something very weird happened today… while my boss was speaking i was drifting in my thoughts. Focusing on my breath and visualising some sort of energy emitting from me… seconds later my boss stops talking… she turns around smiling and says ” why are you laughing at me ”. I shrug my shoulders dissmissivly and she keeps going. It was almost like she could feel me somewho between 40 other people and felt like she had to say something.
I dont know what to make of this. It wasnt sexual or anything… i just stood out somehow.
I also did something unusual. I just asked the girl who introduced my to her friends if they party every week where she lives ( in campus ) she said yes and i asked her to invite me sometime…
As for her she didnt seem intrested or maybe i didnt pick up on it but once we finished we thanked everyone for coming. Said goodbye and she left. When i got out of the room she was waiting for me and approached me, then hugged me for an awkward 4 seconds and left.
Libertine Ultima is very intresting. I have never seen such obvious yet intresting reaults from any sub i have used in the past. Well see how it stacks with Primal Seduction