Subconscious Virtuoso - Stumbling into the Light 🔥

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In the last 18 days, a whole lot has happened. All of it seems to be benefitting my growth, even if at the moment it didn’t seem like it.

If I had to boil it down to a theme, it’d be about: Death and Relearning Lessons.

So many good-feeling and interesting experiences were intermingled with a few not-so-good-feeling ones (visiting family definitely fueled some of the higher temp experiences)…

What’s most fascinating to me is at the end of it all, I feel sort of neutral but positive that it was all for the best.

It might have something to do with running Dragon Reborn Gold St1 for a couple loops before washing out for 5 days at the end of my trip…

But, I’m home now and today is the beginning of a new cycle with DRG St1 in the stack (only 3 minutes this time). I’m curious to see what I can do with it running alongside Nouveau RICH.

Forging internal refinement, leadership, and wisdom while innovating on and disrupting a market? Sounds like some challenging fun. Game on.

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Videos (inspiring, motivation, perspective)

[Something WEIRD Is Happening In Martial Arts...] this is an interesting perspective. if you guys are into martial arts, what do you think?

Brought this to the journal so as not to derail the videos thread @Viktor …

So, what do I think?

Light sparring is 100% the way to go for ongoing practice. It reduces the chance for major injuries and is basically “the 80/20” of hard sparring. It’s a different kind of fun too, a more relaxed and playful fun.

The video made a few good points, and a few I felt meh about…

What did you find interesting about it?

I think I remember you saying you started practicing with the sword when you started Hero. Do you have experience with other types martial arts or fighting?

[Viktor]

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What did you find interesting about it?

I thought people who practise martial arts professionally always duke it out routinely every workout. I was curious how people here approach it.

Yeah, 80/20 sounds more reasonable

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Do you have experience with other types martial arts or fighting?

Nope, i was never interested before.
I tried some movements that i saw from youtube, but i didn’t stick with them. Swinging a sword feels more fun to me. I guess that’s HeO’s influence there, rofl.

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@Viktor

Swinging a sword feels more fun to me. I guess that’s HeO’s influence there

100%

Hero made training with swords feel almost mystical when I ran it. Super fun.

Have you found someone to swing your sword at?

I mean, someone willing and who’ll swing a sword back at you

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Have you found someone to swing your sword at?

Surprisingly i haven’t.

To be fair, the sub did manifest some opportunities for me to have sparring partners, everything was laid out so perfectly that all i needed to do was to say “yes”.

But i didn’t, i chose to focus on my other goals instead. This is what happened when i used RM:UWX & WB too. I had to say no to keep my focus

One day i’ll accept the opportunity

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Finally posted some results from Dragon Reborn Gold in the discussion thread yesterday…

Main Disc. Thread - Dragon Reborn GOLD

I’m at the end of my first cycle with DRG St1 and it’s been a fun ride so far. And by fun, I mean eventful. A couple of those “events” weren’t awesome, yet the way that I navigated them was a clear sign of a deep internal change since I handled them in the best way possible, even when the other person did their best to antagonize me. But the lion’s dragon’s share of experiences on this sub have been really good and made me want to keep going. There’s been no hard recon at all. And the couple ti…

I did a lot of offline journaling throughout the process due to not wanting to share many personal things here on a public forum while in a state of flux.

(Also, I wondered what the point of keeping this public journal was…)

There was a sense of vulnerability in the first couple weeks with stage 1 that has since changed somewhat. Not that my sensitivity has decreased or I’ve “hardened” up, but that I have a better grasp on how to navigate the greater sense of “openness” I feel.

Anyway, I think I’m going to start making more “micro” posts here to track relevant changes entering my awareness now that I’ve got a good sense of how DRG drives results for me.

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I have a better grasp on how to navigate the greater sense of “openness” I feel

I might’ve jumped the gun there, lol…

I thought I’d feel more like Saitama in the face of future adversity:

But something came up today and my initial internal response felt more like:

It took longer to subside than I expected as I noticed the little hurricane inside whipping thoughts around. What helped was being honest about feeling “off” without going into details and not trying to act like everything was super cool. I kept my composure and professionalism though, and actually felt better after expressing that little bit of truth.

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In the middle of the break between cycles today, and it feels like I’m on the precipice of some kind of change…

There’s a sense of exposure like walking a narrow path on a mountain side with a solid wall of rock on one side, and a wide open 5000 foot drop on the other.

The only thing to do is focus on taking the next step and breathing through it.

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Interesting things happened yesterday where during a time set aside to study and explore spiritual teachings, all sorts of distractions and internet glitches started happening. One of the distractions got to me emotionally which made concentration and focus feel super tough afterward.

And today, during an hour set aside for spiritual practice and learning, a similar thing happened where something external triggered the emotions to stir, and made focus for the rest of the time a challenge. It wasn’t anywhere near as bad as yesterday tho.

We’ll see how tomorrow’s scheduled time goes.

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Dreams were wild last night. In one of them, I was on a secret mission but my luggage got lost so then that became my mission, lol. There was another part where I was driving and could willfully control the speed like I was partially lucid, that hasn’t happened in awhile.

my luggage got lost so then that became my mission

wut…rereading that triggered something…what if I’m not dragging “luggage” around anymore and more than able to “complete the mission”, but there’s a part of me that doesn’t “feel right” without it or thinks there’s some “importance” to having it, so I go in search of luggage to have??? (figuratively, in case that wasn’t clear)

I don’t know what the “dream interpreters” will say luggage is supposed to mean, and it doesn’t matter, lol…

I intended to make an entry about building a new identity (or mask) and practicing it today because it feels like it’s not too far beyond my reach now, and the part noting how my dreams were wild was a “random” thought that came up when I opened the journal.

The lighting flash of insight into that exact part of my dream and how it correlates to what I intend to do today, with who I intend to be today, WHILE writing this entry is fkn awesome, lol.

Dragon Reborn Gold is

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Today’s scheduled time for spiritual learning and practice didn’t bring along any weird glitches or distractions like the other days. But some outside construction-type noise started happening like 10 minutes before – and continued for another 30-40 minutes or so into it – so I just closed the windows and was able to focus really well regardless of some of the sound leaking through.

Afterward I felt uplifted and light. More than I had the previous couple days.

A thought that popped up now that I’m thinking about this is: it seems like “the interference” is moving further away and becoming less effective.

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Today was a good day…

• got frustrated with a friend, regained my composure and acknowledged it, then moved the conversation along to having more fun – I guided myself to the experience I preferred and it shifted the entire vibe so my friend willingly went along with it
• got to experience glimpses of some genius hidden in my subconscious
• was told I reminded someone of one of the main dude’s playing a viking on TV, which I took to mean that I was giving off a “viking vibe” or something…never seen the show tho
• picked up a weapon that I haven’t touched in over 6 months probably, and pulled off the sickest counter while looking at and talking to our instructor – seems like tapping into flow state is easier since negative, limiting beliefs are breaking down with DRG st1
• experienced the nerdiest dirty talk I’ve ever heard today, so I amplified it and we had a good laugh and a very good time
• spent about 4 hours in my kitchen today purging, cleaning, and reorganizing – something I’ve wanted to happen for awhile but put off because that stuff is not my jam, so I enlisted the help of that nerdy girl – and it feels and looks mfkn awesome now
  • this is where a shaming thought asks, “Why did you wait so long, bro???” To which I respond, “Why you bringing up old shit, bruh?” I’m a new man, I don’t defend that other dude

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It was day 5 of the break between cycles today, so I start up again tomorrow for a second cycle with DRG St1. The results after a single cycle are pretty good. Looking forward to a second one.

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First day of the second cycle with DRG st1 yesterday, and ran an 11 minute loop without any issue. No sense of it being “too much” or an issue.

So far, I’ve increased loop runtime by a minute each listening day if I don’t feel or experience too much recon. I’m not trying to avoid recon, but I do prefer a smoother experience and starting at a 3 minute runtime and increasing by a minute each listening day seemed to work really well.

Sure, I’ve had some recon symptoms, but I work to process those things that come up in my private journal and taking a small action towards creating the identity/reality I prefer. That usually clears up any recon.

I think the key is to not have any fear of bad feelings or negative thoughts that might come up because that’s going to happen with or without a sub, especially when you’re pushing past comfort zones.

Expect them to arise when you least expect, and especially when you do expect.

Thank them for showing you where to focus your attention / take action to dissolve any negative belief / identity you have around that experience.

Then let them go on their way. Don’t give them energy. Reclaim the energy that it’s been siphoning from you.

Direct your energy towards something you prefer. Let that deep inner wisdom lead you, even if you don’t understand why yet.

If you ask then listen, you’ll know the way.

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I’m up to running 15 minute loops of DRG1, and it still feels smooth.

When I’m out and about I generally receive more deference and a healthy level of respect from people, even with people close who “poke” at me, they still expect me to make the decisions.

And it seems that due to my nature to want to share knowledge and teach, DRG1 is helping bring that out in a different way…

I’m raising all my standards so that I can properly lead by example instead of lecture.

I’d say these are a direct result of the virtue and regality scripting.

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I’m beat…tired af from not being able to fall asleep last night, which I turned into a couple hours of prayer and meditation that felt great.

Had an early morning training session that dug deep into the subconscious connections I have access to, and was pretty mentally taxing but produced some really cool insights and showed that I have a TON more digging to do.

The only “complaint” I’d have about today is that I was inefficient with my time and energy.

Probably a factor of only getting 4 hours or so of sleep, but still, I’d prefer to do better regardless of how tired I feel. Which I’m thinking means that I need to add back in a little more structure to my daily schedule for a little while.

One of those things is going to be a stricter sleep time. Not sleeping enough blows.

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Had a dream where I turned a person’s attempt at disrespecting me into some good jokes that made me smile and other people laugh, which in turn made the guy escalate into wanting to fight, putting his hands up and doing the “monkey dance” – that bullshit where there’s a lot of shit talking and squaring up, but no one actually throws a punch…

I felt calm and ready, even when a second person jumped in the shit talking on the other guy’s side. That got me even more “ready to go”, but after a couple seconds of assessing how easily I could take them I said, “I don’t have time to waste fighting you idiots.”

Sure not the best transition to peace talks, lol…but that’s exactly what happened next. I opened a dialogue and asked what was up with him, he blamed me for the jokes, and when I asked about the disrespectful behavior he came clean.

The dream ended and I woke up when I said, “It’s all good. I’m at the point in my life where I understand that most problems are miscommunications and misunderstandings,” and I walked away feeling good to have resolved things peacefully.

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Dragon Reborn Gold is really helping me work on my empathy and patience, especially towards myself, and it’s boosting my capacity for forgiveness and letting things go. Even if I might add fuel to the issue a little at first, lol – it takes far more skill and awareness to communicate effectively and resolve things than it does to argue and fight, imo.

Situations have come up over the last several weeks that have brought awareness to the roots of some “default” behaviors, so I can DECIDE to change them.

Some people from my past have “popped up” recently, like an ex who reached out on social media a couple days ago, and it’s like it opens up a time capsule in my mind…

They remind me of how I was back then, and offer a good point of contrast to who I am today.

And it’s when I get the pings of stronger emotional responses to certain things that I know I have some digging to do.

The healing journey with the NSE is keeping me on my toes, in a good way.

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Amazing sync with my dream and feeling greater empathy for myself and others… on a group call with a couple of heavy hitters talking about the importance of RELATIONSHIPS over “getting deals done” or making transactions. And not in a woo woo way, these guys care but are no non-sense about business success.

Transactions are going to be a part of it because we all have to eat and pay the rent, but the “gold” lies in sifting for and focusing in on the relational aspects of “doing business”.

When you actually care about more than making money i.e. the results people get, you open up a whole new range of possibilities.

Case in point: this here business, Subliminal Club.

Coming from a childhood well below the poverty line, I’m still digging up “scarcity pockets” and the reminder to LET GO of that subtle grafting of “neediness” in how I’m approaching these bigger deals.

Another Dragon Reborn Gold result for sure, especially since I’ve been guiding it to also address wealth related hang ups.

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No one gets pissed off, defensive, or dismissive if you genuinely seek to understand them better…

And if they do, it seems to be a clear indication that they’re either attempting to manipulate or afraid of something.

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Experiencing a level of clarity and creative inspiration today that I haven’t had in awhile. Like layers of muck that’s been stifling it from rising up have been removed.

Had the idea to add more “structure” to my days the other day, and know how to create a rigid schedule and stick to it, but that’s not what works for me or it would have already. Today a different idea popped up to pay more attention to energy and flow, and create a “structure” around that.

Not exactly pomodoro, and not super rigid “work blocks”, something “in between” I think…something that prioritizes leveraging and replenishing energy over the “just grind it out” mentality, but doesn’t operate on motivation or “feeling like it”. It’s proved to be an inefficient use of my time and energy to do either of those things.

Idk what that looks like exactly, but I’ll be testing things out over the next several weeks and see what results I get.

I think it really comes down to being able to attenuate the noise, direct attention, and notice when it’s time to either narrow or broaden focus. All powered by the discipline of “showing up” to do what needs doing.

Easy peasy

Overall, I’d say this is basically a result of a deeper process going on where I’m deep diving into my values, letting go of old paradigms, trusting myself more deeply and strengthening my innovation/creative muscle.

“Adding structure” to my day is just one way that that’s expressing.

Dragon Reborn Gold St1 man…running it for a second cycle was a good call.

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I’m getting a LOT of practice with patience and skillful communication the last several days…

The patience practice is mostly happening in business contexts. The opportunities to apply skillful communication seems to be happening EVERYWHERE tho…

In a teaching context, I experienced something yesterday that I handled super well, even if I was a little disappointed that the thing happened because I made an error to begin with.

The thing that stood out to me when I reflected back: I was completely unfazed by making an error like that in front of a group…a lot of eyeballs were expecting me to do it right.

I just addressed it, owned it, and moved on.

After explaining what the error was and what not to do (that I’d done), I invited the challenge again and showed how to do it right. It got a very positive response. Almost better than if I’d done it right the first time, I think.

I can tell that DRG1 is helping me tap into a greater sense of humility and composure than I’ve had in the past. My desire to serve is growing, and so is a sense of dignified humility…which I got an awesome opportunity to experience first-hand through that mistake I made.

How can fear of “messing up” enter in when you accept whatever happens and learn from your mistakes?