I’m at the end of my first cycle with DRG St1 and it’s been a fun ride so far. And by fun, I mean eventful. A couple of those “events” weren’t awesome, yet the way that I navigated them was a clear sign of a deep internal change since I handled them in the best way possible, even when the other person did their best to antagonize me.
But the lion’s dragon’s share of experiences on this sub have been really good and made me want to keep going. There’s been no hard recon at all. And the couple times I did feel some sense of recon taking hold, I expressed/did what I needed to and it disappeared.
To get a little more granular without boring y’all with too many details, I’ll give you the highlights…
- starting on the “not so fun” side, I had a beautiful experience of feeling zero shame (defined as a painful emotion caused by the belief that one is, or is perceived by others to be, inferior or unworthy of affection or respect because of one’s actions, thoughts, circumstances, or experiences) in the face of an elder attempting to lay it on thick – which I handled respectfully and honorably regardless of their judgements and opinions about a situation they didn’t have all the information on. And my diffusing them with a simple question surprised them and me, and allowed them to feel like they had the last word when they walked away
- experienced/felt/practiced humility in a context where my “ego” didn’t want to give an arrogant person the pleasure of my taking accountability for my side of an issue between us, taking accountability for my part anyway, and still forgiving him for his part of the situation even though he took no accountability – lemme say, it wasn’t easy at all but I knew “in my bones” that I had to do it…you know the old cliche, holding onto anger or resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to feel it…well, it feels really good on this side of things without that poison in me and I feel a greater sense of self-mastery because of that situation
And on the more FUN side of things…
- there’s an automatic awareness to adjust my posture that started happening on day 1, and a greater sense of relaxation in my body
- noticed my breathing pattern is more relaxed and deep in most contexts, and operating outside of my comfort zone is easier
- which probably contributes to a sense of greater stillness within, especially noticable while moving through bustling crowds when out and about
- the sense of daily joy and gratitude are on an upward trajectory, but there was an entire DAY where deep joy and gratitude for BEING was just unshakable…it didn’t matter what the context was or who was in a shitty mood, I was locked in to the underlying joy of being IN it
- and it wasn’t like being positive in a syrupy way, but a “nothing can convince me otherwise” kind of way…there was a sense of ultimate acceptance of everything without trying to change anyone or convince others to “be positive”, I just flowed with everything…a whole day like that, it was great
- there’s been an unexpected uptick in the sex drive, which was already pretty healthy
- and many completely uninhibited sexual experiences and expressions that’ve surprised me because I thought I was already uninhibited
- like telling a lover who asked me what I was thinking after not a very romantic conversation that I imagined her sucking my
, which instantly led to some of the best
she’s ever given me
- hearing “why have we never done this before” on another occasion is another good indicator that some hidden sexual limitation got purified
- there’s also been increased focus on studying a spiritual text, and increasing and deepening my practice of prayer and meditation – with an intent for having direct spiritual experiences – which has led to several “did that just happen” situations that I won’t go into
There’ve also been so many situations where I’ve felt more in tune and connected with others, like being able to understand how they “tick”, which is awesome to me but this post is already long enough.
So the TL;DR is: this sub is 
To run St1 for a second cycle or move on to St2, that is the question… 
and there’s no wrong answer 
The only wrong answer is not running Dragon Reborn Gold 