- Internalize the concept of “Honor,” transforming your actions and essence.
The past few weeks, I’ve been immersed in learning about Commerce and thinking a lot about offers, agreements, contracts, and maintaining honor in all my dealings. It seems like these concepts permeate deeply throughout our everyday lives and have a profound effect on reality once you begin to notice them in action all around. Our words do become law.
Decided to swap DR: Limit Destroyer mid-cycle for EOG: Nouveau RICH when it drops, so I didn’t run it today like it was scheduled. Swapping mid-cycle isn’t a normal thing for me, but I want to ride the peak of the hype wave with everyone and see if that vibe enhances results somehow…(that’s a great excuse imo…feel free to steal it, reader…lol)
Looking at the spreadsheet, I’ll have 7 days between the last run of DRLD and the first loop of NRICH in a few days…I think that and only running 3-5 minute loops of Emperor and HERO (which is what I’ve been doing the last few loops) will be enough buffer for my brain and I avoid any harsh recon.
Incredible training session this morning…
I’m lucky to have found a mentor on this path who continues to evolve in his training and his understanding to this day…the process truly never ends, until it does. The entire experience was a microcosm for the rest of my life.
Whatever magic is in HERO helped with my speed of perception and really “getting it” today…because the whole experience upgraded my Mind.
Ran first full loop of Nouveau RICH last night after it dropped – had run ~5 min of Hero in the morning – and the sensations I got in my head and body were noticeably different from when I ran the first full loop of Hero…
I’m not knowledgeable enough (or aware enough?) to know what the differences mean exactly, but I did get obviously strong, persistent sensations in the back of my head and in the center of my brow during the entire loop so I believe there’s significant, new mind’s eye magic in this one for sure…
…because how would you innovate on a disruptive level without powerful IN-sight?
Noticed a strong sense of processing and load throughout the day yesterday, and even a bit today after running a full loop of NRICH almost two days ago now. Still ran a short loop of Emperor midday today anyway and didn’t feel like it was too much, but I’m getting a sense to take some extra days for processing though, so I’ll cut this cycle short.
No direct wealth manifestations to speak of yet, but I have written a LOT in my offline journal about money that produced a deep insight and led to me setting a stronger intention about it, so I know the NWE is working its magic.
Also – and I don’t know if it has anything to do with the whole “learning the not-secret-secret tax code” scripting – but reading further into contract law today felt good…which is not something I imagined myself capable of saying, ever 
I had a “rethink” about what I said about my carrying extra fat on my frame here:
It hit me hard today – maybe Hero influence? – when I thought something to the effect of, “You think carrying this extra fat around is decent? …well, that’s why you keep carrying it around.”
Maybe the boldness scripting from NRICH firing up the honesty in my self-assessment, lol
I think there has to be some next-level boss mode scripting in Nouvea RICH that’s triggering my productivity muscle too…I’m making lists of tasks with assumed time-to-completion and getting joy out of crossing them off and seeing if I can do them faster than expected. Gamification for the win – oh shit, maybe this is some scripting related to the new dopamine module? 
If it is, it’s working great after only two loops…
Anyway, wanted to jot this down before I get in a workout and a run because I’ve decided to surpass “decent” in terms of my fitness and physique.
For the record, I don’t “hate” my body now or anything, but I accept that I’ve been weak af in the discipline department in terms of physical training compared to how I used to be…that’s over.
This Emperor + Hero + NRICH combo is shaping up to be a beast if this is the type of early synergy I’m feeling…LFG 
Today’s day 2 of my 4-5 day break between cycles. I started this cycle with DR: Limit Destroyer then dropped it a week ahead of the Nouveau RICH drop, and finished off this cycle with 2 loops of NRICH in the brain queue…
…all in all, I’d say it’s playing out a lot smoother than I expected. Minimal recon, and my daily behaviors / routines are subtly changing for the better. Discipline, my sense of responsibility (also, my ability to respond to anything), and my honesty in self-assessment and, therefore, in communication with others is more powerful every day.
Dreams were wild last night…
Ignorance of the law is no excuse
There’s a sense of a daily battle between remembering and forgetting…
…like a lilting lullaby always in play to whisk one away.
Had a business-oriented dream last night that was all about providing massive value instead of maximizing immediate profit per transaction…
…it was about how we did deals in the music industry (which I have all of zero experience in) and how goodwill and reputation would be the real fuel to skyrocket us all to success…
…I laid out a strategy that on it’s face would barely make money, but I could see in my mind all the ways it could exponentially blow up our number of future opportunities…
…and it would feel better to do business that way. Everyone would love it: artists, fans, and more importantly, so would I. I just knew it.
Then I woke up.
That Nouveau new wealth experience hits different. 3 loops in.
Woke up this morning feeling a little off. Asked for some guidance and got back a song lyric:
“Don’t lose your grip on the dreams of the past; You must fight just to keep them alive.”
Sometimes, that’s all it is: just keep f#!king going. You’re on the right path. Don’t let the distractions of the world, or the mental masturbations of your mind, take you off track. Remember who you are and what that means. You already know the next step. Do it, even if you don’t fully understand right now.
Show up.
So many times, it happens too fast → instantaneous unconscious shift
You trade your passion for glory → focus turns to external validation and comfort
Don’t lose your grip on the dreams of the past → remember who you are
You must fight just to keep them alive → renew your mind every day
First morning sans morning coffee ritual…
…last time I “quit” coffee I didn’t last much more than a week.
Day 2 without coffee…substituted the morning coffee ritual with making herbal tea with raw honey. It seems to help soothe the part that wants the comfort of the hot bean juice.
Herbal tea doesn’t do shit for helping the physiological withdrawal symptoms though…the headache yesterday was pretty rough and constant. Thankfully today the symptoms are primarily head fog, issues with focus, and only minor head pressure.
Yesterday’s training session was rough at the start, but as we started moving and getting into it my focus sharpened and I was able to perform. There was a noticeable resistance to exerting myself though, like I had to force my body into executing movements dynamically, with intent. And zero parts of me wanted to do randori last night.
Day 3 without coffee… feeling better but still a little bit of head fog or heaviness. I’ve been slacking with workouts the last few days, so I’ll see how going for a run later changes things.
I have some things on my plate that I’ve been putting off…
Decisive action is always the answer.
Yesterday I had a conversation about health, and how being on pills indefinitely is not that…
Today, I found my way down a new rabbit hole regarding self-healing. Interested to see how it might help with my current issue.
Not pleased with my performance overall this week…it was weak.
I know caffeine withdrawals played a huge factor with the major head fog and head aches and low energy state, and running full loops of everything probably ramped up the minor recon I was experiencing, but those are ultimately just excuses.
Excuses for not getting shit done.
Going to look into ways to boost my focus and energy levels without caffeine because I won’t accept another week like this.
Working out helps. And today I spent an hour in the Sun, and that helped.
Maybe I need to give my body more time to adjust. It’s been hooked on the bean juice for years, so four days might not be enough to bounce back to optimal, lol
Dreams have been very vivid lately and combining elements of my life in weird ways. And even though I got woken up in the middle of the night for a bit, I feel decently rested this morning.
Last night I managed to crank out a workout even though I felt low energy and wanted no part of it. It was rough, but I got through it and felt better afterwards.
The temps are lower in the mornings (and at night) now, and for some reason my brain says I should get out there and go running first thing in the cold…wtf, brain?
I didn’t do it this morning because I made excuses, but I’ll get in a good morning of training then workout later.
Yesterday’s training was great: put in some work improving techniques in the clinch, learned a few new entries, tied in some takedowns, and got to crank up the intensity a bit with my partner.
It felt almost too easy stringing combinations together. I started off tired af when I got there and our instructor said, “I guess the coffee kicked in,” to me about 10 minutes or so after we got into it…
…except I hadn’t had any coffee. It was just pure, uncut, love-of-the-craft fueling me.
(Almost made it a full 5 days without any caffeine too 
…I cracked in the afternoon after training all morning and had a chai. I’m back to zero caffeine though, so it’s Day 1, again.)
Kenjutsu training was on another level, too.
It felt like I unlocked a door, cracked it open, and stole a glimpse of the secrets to mastery…the door didn’t stay open though
I have much more practice and meditation to do before I can open that door (and keep it open) on command, but that experience fired me up – and Hero isn’t getting cut from my stack any time soon.
I wanted to experiment with changing everything about my morning routines now that I’m skipping the coffee ritual, but I got woken up after only about 5 hours sleep and all of those new ideas went out the window. I did like 2 of the 6 things I had on the list. 
That’s better than none things, but not good enough.
I slip into unconscious patterns way too easily when I’m sleep deprived.