Alright I’m switching to Stark. Thanks to @Plutus and @Jouissance I figured that Stark + HOM would be a better suit and third slot will be used for different subs. Seems like I can’t edit first post now, that’s unfortunate
While I’m thinking for some cooler name for my journal, here are some results from HOM:
- Got in contact with a Russian dude on one closed forum which I was fortunate enough to be a member in. Hopefully he will help me with money making endeavors because I know he’s rich and he seems eager to help.
- Improved some existing friendships: old friend with whom I haven’t talked for a few months just messaged out of nowhere and we set up a meeting and another friend of mine started messaging me out of the blue, the conversations have been going very nice, I’m happy
- Realizing the importance of being socially active and also my social battery has increased. I remember at one point I scored 100% on introversion on MBTI test, was very against fame, etc. - all of this has disappeared ever since starting HOM. The opposite is true now: I want to make connections, I want to get more famous (though, not celebrity like famous but just as a known person in smaller “elite” circles so to speak)
- Man it’s like relationships are on the whole new level. Everything was perfect before HOM, everything is way better now. More affection, more love, etc. I’m very lucky in this regard.
Results idk from which sub:
- Sometimes I’m tapping into the state of greatness or I don’t know how else to describe it. It feels like dominion above heaven and earth. “Throughout heaven and earth, I alone am the honored one” - I feel exactly just as Buddha said in this quote. I’m very productive in this state, happy, focused but it’s different from the flow. I can’t keep up this state indefinitely and not sure what triggers it yet but it’s there.
- I feel like I’m on the verge of something big and great.
Now to the bad things: I noticed uni takes away A LOT of my time. Like, I legit do homework most of my free time. It’s probably due to the fact that I’m the first course + we had lots of problems at the beginning with teachers and we have low scores currently (we need to get at least 60 in a semester, we have around 30 now and we have one month or so left), the teachers are giving us loads of homework. But that’s life, I can only do my best here lol
The bad thing is that I can’t drop out from uni, even though I don’t like it at all and am not finding it useful neither from the knowledge standpoint, nor from networking standpoint - the whole program from there can be learnt much faster than in 4 years and my group is mostly interested in getting drunk/high or others aren’t dreaming big, just want to earn average salary and be done with life. I can’t drop out because I will be drafted to military and I don’t want that lol (especially in current times)