Got really great feedback on our yearly feedback review. I also know an area in tech I’m weaker in: security.
Luckily I know a guy who runs a closed community for security and he just invited me into their group and I’m planning to not only learn, but master cyber security. 
Lately I’ve been getting dreams again, or at least remember dreaming, and I think it’s because of me taking more action and forcing myself to be present and face the recon instead of escaping. I really think it’s important. Because even though we say we want change, we might subconsciously resist it because of fear and discomfort. Gotta stay present and face it, but most importantly take action in spite of recon.
Recon is a complex subject, but what if it’s also a way for the fearful you, complacent you, to hold you back? Like, if you don’t take action while in recon then how will you grow and move forward?
For example it’s like being afraid of being awkward while socialising, but to stop being awkward you need to get the experience. Which you get by socialising.
Will you just accept to be stuck or take direct action? Will you try to find workarounds and tricks and cheap hacks or actually go through with it and get real deep growth?
”Oh I’m just going to heal first, then take action…”
How about doing both?
Deep identity level change.
You gotta do it anyway….
Accept it. Be present. Embrace the suck. 😮💨
Do it anyway.