EmpERROR - Every great Khan was once an Emperor

Journals - Major Programs
#1

“All great Khans were once great Emperors. Those who know, know.” - Unknown

Massive action. Massive responsibility. Massive personal power. Massive ambition and drive.

I must take more responsibility and cultivate higher standards for myself, and I need to take massive action towards clear goals.

Current #1 priority: Get a job in tech and rise the ranks of software engineering. I don’t ever want to experience the stress and desperation I have after having been laid off. Basically I want to be so good, I can’t be ignored and probably never have to apply again, but instead grow my career through reputation and my network.

Other things, level up other areas of my life as well. For example I’ve gained some weight. My sleep is bad, I’m constantly tired. Eat better. Just general higher standards across the board and making improvements. I think Emperor is great and touches a huge area of improvement which is nice. Plus, I feel it’s a great prerequisite for Khan, which is something I’ll switch back to when I’m ready.

I need to squeeze the juice (value) of Emperor. Action is paramount. Experience points and reference points from life to level up. Like an RPG. Journaling is paramount. Goals is paramount. Any goal is better than no goal, but I want to get better at setting goals and getting it done.

#1 Priority right now is career as a software engineer.

Grow up. Man up.
Action bias. Cut the bs.

Stack:

  • Emperor
  • Index Gate: Ultimate Programmer X

I’ll start with 3 minutes of each every other day and adjust the parameters accordingly depending on how I take it. Also I’ll most likely journal extensively offline.

Day 1 - Take 1 - ACTION!
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Edits:

  • Added Limitless in the second cycle to aid my career and learning in Software Engineering.
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#2

The first listen went great, as always.

I wrote some stuff down in my offline journal and then when I had time during the day I checked the copy and could already cross off some objectives.

This is normal in my subliminal experience. The first day I always get like a preview of what’s to come, like a RPG reward list, and then the real work begins. The real quest. If you accept.

Calm. You got this thoughts. Hyper aware of what I’m thinking and what kind of things that come at me and whether they are worth my energy or time. Engaging with the hard tasks or tasks I’m resistant to.

I’m excited.

Also at the end of the day anger. I love anger, the catalyst of change. The mover of world’s. Do I grow bitter or better?

Let me tell you a story about learned helplessness. So I’ve had struggle with sleep and blame this for my inaction. Two weeks ago I got a fitbit to track my sleep. Lo and behold, I had 90 sleep score. I was shocked. I realised in that moment that I’m delusional and engaged in what’s called learned helplessness.

Yesterday I had 70 sleep score, my lowest. But I smashed the day. I was resilient. Another proof that my sleep was only used as an excuse.

Sleep is important. Healing is important. Self-care is important. But I must be hyper aware of who’s requesting the downtime, the helpless Esh or the Emperor Esh.

#3

I think I might have gotten an offer now :slight_smile: haven’t signed anything yet.

Finally, after like 20 processes and 40-60 interviews. :partying_face:

Tonight we celebrate somehow, or save it for the weekend.

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#4

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#5

Are you from somewhere in the former Soviet Union republic?

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#6

Nope, just an image I found online.

#7

New job offer is signed :slight_smile:
But no time to chill, I want to level up to the next level now.

Going through some sleep deprivation. Need to work on that. Also some recon, I think it’s connected to the sleep deprivation as well.

I don’t know, I’m taking action and I thought that would be enough, but I might need to do more journaling and reflection.

A new job, a new journey. This time, a big consulting company and not a small product company, so bigger opportunities for career and competence development on the job.

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#8

Congratulations and good luck on your journey!

It seems to me that you know what you want to accomplish and the sub choice is really solid for this.

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#9

Thanks brother. :slight_smile:

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#10

Congratulations!

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#11

Thanks brother 🫡

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#12

Going through some hardware defragmentation. I’m thinking also an upgrade of the underlying software is in order too.

I’m working on making my goals more actionable and dividing them into smaller subgoals. Right now some are good and clear, some not.

A big fear I’m feeling right now is the fear of not taking enough action.

Moar!

:construction: :construction: :construction:

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#13

“Stand for something, or die in the morning” - Kendrick Lamar

Recruiters keep spamming my LinkedIn. The market is not dead, as Reddit likes to make you think. :grinning:

I’ve had some interesting NSE moments and thoughts in relation to “giving away your power” and nice-guy tendencies.

The question is, how do I ensure these lessons are ingrained as fast and deep as possible?

A lot pent up anger coming up. A sort of cleanse.

Machine learning is so interesting and I believe the market demands will grow more insane! I want in on it. I’m talking engineering here.

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#14

I had this feeling on Emperor. It pushed me to take a lot of action, and when I am not taking action or wasting time, I felt pretty agitated and restless.

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#15

That’s good to know, it means it’s doing its job. :mechanical_arm:

The agitation is annoying though.

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#16

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The path isn’t easy, but it isn’t complicated either.

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#17

Just one foot in front of the other until you reach the shore, right?

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#18

:joy: yes, perhaps shed some tears once in a while as well.

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#19

It’s interesting how I’m becoming even more certain that people that trigger me through judgement or shaming/guilting are usually the ones that fit the requirements for each label the most. Basically they are projecting.

Second, it’s important that I also notice why it triggers me and use the opportunity to understand myself more.

  • Is it kinda true, and there is a part of me I’m resisting or suppressing?
  • Is it connected to a childhood trauma and connected negative/false beliefs that are running me under the hood?
  • Where is my belief system false, weak and fragile?

I want to understand myself, and for that to happen I need to accept myself fully and allow these things to come up.

Afterwards I can decide to do something about it. Otherwise things will just run me and I have no idea why.

Understanding others it’s also a nice benefit, leveling up social/emotional intelligence.

Accepting doesn’t necessarily mean liking, it’s more about accepting reality and being courageous enough to face it. It’s time to grow up.

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#20

▓▓▓▓░░░░░░ 48% done of the first cycle. I like it so far.
I am going to add Limitless. I miss it already. I have big cognitive and learning goals.

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