The answer is meditation. 
Helps the focus and scattered mind. I feel focus, calm and powerful.
I feel much more focused and that a lock to this stack just got unlocked. 
During this cycle I also delved deep into my sexual validation seeking behavior. It all stems from my first two romances. Hilarious… but I was so blind to it. 
Imagine having a romance as a kid, with another kid, and letting that control your behavior as adult? It’s funny. Lol because kids are kids, that bad experience or heartbreak is meaningless, what do kids know? How can you let a judgement on you from another kid, when you were a kid, have such power over you now, in the present as an adult? At first it pissed me off, but now I find it funny.
I feel so much more relaxed, confident and not giving a f around ladies. More so than before. 
Which is natural, because I’m in a relationship. But I was a bit confused before.
Because two kids were mean to me lol
Every time that needy, giving-away-my-power stuff comes up I remember it’s based on bs from the past. It’s based on judgements from kids, when I was a kid. I realise it’s phantom pain, it’s false and then I get back to business crushing it.
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Running 
Meditating 
Coding 
Studying 
Winning 