Creating a solid core with Dragon Regen + EOG 1 + GLM

[Forexpreneur]

In this 1st journal entry I’ll actually introduce myself, not sure why I didn’t earlier. I’ll also give a quick background on why I’m running this stack. BTW I ran Dragon Regen + GLM for almost a month and I ran Dragon Regen + Genesis Mogul for a month before that.

I was born in the early 70’s in Los Angeles. My father’s goal in life since his early 20’s was to be an outlaw biker. He was from Arkansas and honestly, he was a badass with a heavy emphasis on being an ass.

Summary

We moved to San Bernardino and his dreams came true after about a year and a half. I was along for the ride by force and I can say it didn’t fit my soul, however I did like the motorcycles a lot. My dad had an Indian since I was born and then when he became and outlaw biker it was Harleys, which was fine with me because I liked them too.

Younger people think this is bullshit but I promise you it’s not, I was riding in front of him on the gas tank with no helmet on Los Angeles freeways in the early 70’s when I was three years old on. Helmet laws didn’t get passed until the mid 70’s and my dad wasn’t happy about it either.

All I ever wanted to be was a Veterinarian literally before I started talking (about 3 years old). I wanted to heal animals not beat the shit out of people or get it beat out of me, which my father did often with both myself and my Mom.

Luckily we were able to kick my father out of our lives when I was 6, but the damage was already done, and a hell of a lot more damage would come over the years. My stepfather from the age of 8 wasn’t physically violent but he would raise his hand from time to time and would shove me against walls, but believe it or not, the worst was the constant mental and emotional abuse.

I grew up and was eventually diagnosed with Complex PTSD. The statistics say I had a 100% chance of getting PTSD by the age of 25. I had it earlier but no one knew what it was and the beliefs back then (70’s and 80’s) was that the child would grow out of it. LOL. Dumbasses back then.

Anway, I’ve actually had success in my life including in Forex trading. But the rub is that I would eventually self-sabotage. Sometimes it would take a few years, but it always happened. l

I’ve been through a few years of therapy (DBT and CBT) and it helped for sure, but it was all about managing the problems NOT get to the root of the problems.

I became certified in hypnosis by HMI in Los Angeles so I could create my own subliminals. They never worked and I couldn’t figure out why. I was allegedly making some great recordings but they wouldn’t work. I genuinely started using hypnosis recordings off and on since the late 80’s but never with any positive effect. Now I understand why since I was turned on to Sub Club.

So this mini-biography is almost finished, LOL. The very first SubClub subliminal I used was Genesis The Art of Happiness and Joy (free on the website). Not going to lie, I was convinced it wasn’t going to work but I read a shit ton of positive reviews, not just on the website but on the web in various sources. I thought “what the hell” free is good so I’ll see if it works at all. Hot damn! I started to notice something the first time but wanted to give it time.

I loved what I saw and felt and when a couple of people close to me noticed I knew I found something. I read and studied comments on this board and after a couple of weeks I opened an account and lurked and studied a while longer.

I purchased a couple other Subs and experimented around a little than decided to work on my core with Dragon Reborn + GLM. l was going to stick with just those two for at least a couple of rounds but decided to get EOG and add EOG1 to my stack because I needed to work on the scarcity mindset big time. BTW that scarcity mindset hits intimate relationships but someday I’ll explain that one.

So that’s it for this 1st post. I will add a couple more, much shorter posts on what Dragon Reborn and GLM has already changed in my life. It is quite significant for me and I want to start documenting because even I have forgotten some of the changes that happened early on because positive changes keep occurring and it’s easy to focus on the new shiny things. LOL.

Then after that I’ll add entries in this journal as things come up in this journey with this stack.

Anyway, Hello.

[Forexpreneur]

I wanted to share a couple of generic things I notice quite often when I listen to subs from SubClub.

1. I have weird dreams. Not nightmares. Not really great, feel-good dreams either. Most of them are dreams of people who are trying to “control me” or take advantage of me in some way. I absolutely know where it stems from and have had plenty of these similar dreams throughout my life, but most of the time in these dreams now, I’m standing up and not backing down one iota. I thought that was very interesting.

2. I sometimes will get an incredible tingling feeling in my brain right after listening to my stack. I think most people would say their scalp, but I’m pretty in tune with myself because of meditating for a few years and it is actually occuring in the brain. It is electrochemical so it literally feels like energy, because it is.

Anyway, I have a theory on this.

For the record I’m not a psychologist or scientist, but I’m not a dumbass either and am decently read. Oh, and I have an IQ of 164 which isn’t too shabby (it’s actually in genius territory ).

I’m convinced that there is a massive amount of brain activity when this occurs and it’s actually rewiring pre-existing “thought trees” which are called dendrites (it’s where life events are stored and retrieved) and/or completely new dendrites are being created. But if my theory is correct I would add that we feel this because it’s a massive amount of activity at once.

[Forexpreneur]

Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective not the truth. - Marcus Aurelius

I am absolutely taking this to heart lately. I purchased a deck of tarot sized cards (I think 72 of them) called the “Philosophers Deck” on Amazon about two years back. It came with a small wooden stand so you can have the card on your desk. This particular one is really hitting home.

On the surface it would seem obvious that the GLM part of my stack is what’s drawing me to this, but I genuinely feel it’s a combination of GLM and Dragon Regen. I’ve been utilizing Dragon Regen to heal some deep and old wounds, including working through all the derogatory things my fathers would often call me when I was young. I don’t mean literally everything, just the general crap.

Summary

It’s difficult to explain but I tried working on a lot of this stuff over the years, especially during therapy. For some reason I understood it intellectually but it never took hold subconsciously. I never took it to heart even though I tried. Something is clicking with these subliminals.

I’m not saying what happened was ok, it wasn’t one bit, but it was their opinion and frankly came about because of their crappy childhood. But I don’t have to carry it forward. It’s not my monkey. Not my problem. It was their opinion and they were wrong.

Can’t even begin to tell you what a friking relief this is. I’m not carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders any more. I’m carrying me.

[Forexpreneur]

I’ve noticed something very interesting lately. My voice is getting much louder, deeper also but not as significant as it becoming louder. Quite certain this is the GLM part of my stack. I’ve always been kind of soft spoken person my whole life so this is new territory for me.

[Forexpreneur]

Had an unusual dream last night where I was a little boy and I was washing dishes by hand (didn’t happen much in real life) and my Mom kept on saying things like “You missed a spot”, “This isn’t good enough” etc.

Wasn’t a particular event but I’m genuinely thinking it’s my subconscious working through the generalities of my childhood. I was never good enough. Never got good enough grades. Etc etc. I grew up basically being a perfectionist.

With the stack I’m using they work off each other and complement each other so this is most likely a combo of all of them at work. I know some people would think that EOG1 isn’t part of this particular dream because money isn’t involved, but believe it or not, money issues can stem from a general belief of scarcity. If love was scarce, especially unconditional love, then your life will be ruled by a scarcity mindset.

[Forexpreneur]

This has been happening for a little while (I’ve been using GLM for months with other subs) but I have next to ZERO patience or interest in people complaining about politics. I have my beliefs and won’t share them but the bottom line, I used to get pissed off about political happenings.

Summary

I stopped a family member a couple of days ago that I visited and asked them “Do you have a say in this?” and they said “Of course …”. No that’s an opinion, NOT power to change anything. The political stuff will happen the way it will no matter what you think or say. I’ve written Presidents, my Senators, Governor’s and I’ve written my Mayor. All you get is blanket responses and excuses and they do what they do.

I vote in ALL major elections and most smaller elections. I have a firm belief that it’s not just my right but my duty to vote and I have since I turned 18. But at the end of the day what happens in this Country, especially Internationally is out of my control.

So I asked this family member, and I’m getting a reputation very quickly, “Is this improving your life?” “It’s making you angry as hell, so it’s not.”

I still get angry but I’m asking myself this question and other people around me all the time. “Is this in your control?” “Does this improve your life?”

If so great. If not, LET IT GO. Move on.

I guess it helps that one of my favorite movies is “The International” with Clive Owens and Naomi Watts. First time I saw it, I hated the ending (won’t give it away if you haven’t seen it). After stewing about the ending after the first time I actually fell in love with the ending and got it.

I’m not a pushover. Quite the opposite. But only when necessary.

Is it improving your life? Is it in your control. If not, let it go. Don’t worry, be happy.

[Forexpreneur]

I should add, I don’t have this with just politics. I have this same attitude with everything. If something pisses me off, angers me, whatever I always ask “Do you have a real say in this? Is this improving your life?”

I find that as I do this more (it is genuinely becoming automatic) the less angry I get about life.

[Forexpreneur]

Your life does not get better by chance. It gets better by change.

• Jim Rohn

That quote is really resonating with me.

Speaking of change, I live in a city and a part of the city that I’m better off financially without a car. Most of my shopping is close by but I do have to take the bus a couple times a month for various reasons. I would always get triggered because of my PTSD. I’m just not getting triggered that much any more.

I’m still hyperaware (hyper vigilant) I don’t think that will ever change and it’s actually a good thing living in the city to a certain extent. But I’m not angry or hyped for hours on end afterwards like I used to get. I didn’t really notice before because that was my baseline for years. Not anymore and I really notice it now.

This is certainly Dragon Reborn Regen at work but I would bet there are things from GLM kicking in also. Today is my 14th listening day with this current stack, so almost a month with one listening day and one rest day.

I did have to add an additional rest day in there about a week and a half ago and dropped my listening times down a bit. I’m currently at 1 and a half minutes for each of the 3 titles. So 4 and a half minutes listening to the stack all at once. I’m doing fine at this length and don’t seem to have any recon but I’m going to stick to this time for another 2 listening sessions and then increase to 2 minutes each and see.

[Forexpreneur]

Today was interesting. I was carrying something fairly heavy and when I finished I noticed that I immediately and subconsciously started tensing and untensing my shoulder blade muscles and moving around to loosen them up.

I’ve had very tight shoulder and shoulder blade muscles for as long as I remember. I saw a chiropractor for a few sessions and I would go to a masseuse every once in a while and everyone would comment how tense my upper muscles were. That was my baseline.

However now, my upper muscles are very relaxed, along with all my other back muscles. It has become my new baseline and it’s quite an awesome change.

[Forexpreneur]

You know how you sometimes have to go through all kinds of hoops these days to login to various personal accounts, sometimes even your bank account? It gets frustrating.

I went to log into a personal account today, and sometimes it’s offline for a few minutes for updates or something, anyway, I went to log in and I usually default to it being a frustrating event, well today I automatically took a breath, accepted that I may not be able to log in, and that it was out of my hands on what happened.

Why let all these little modern day frustrations chip away at my happiness? Easier said than done a lot of times, even though I’ve been reading Stoic stuff for a few years now trying to implement practices into my life. Now some of these Stoic philosophies are becoming automatic and I LOVE it.

[Forexpreneur]

Took awhile but yesterday I had my first full 15 minute session (15 minutes for each of the 3 titles). I did 7 minutes last time with zero issues. I was a little hesitant but I’m in a good position right now to experiment and lose some sleep.

After listening I did have some pressure in my head. It’s difficult to explain. It’s sort of a dull headache but that isn’t really it. I’ve had this a couple times before when increasing session times and for me it’s been a sign that I’ll have a difficult time sleeping. Not nightmares or anything like that, it’s almost like I’m wired, but that’s not it either. I really don’t have words for it.

Anyway,

Summary

I was tired so went to be early. I woke up about an hour and a half into my sleep. What was interesting to me is that I had this dream that my Mom was very elderly and we were shopping at a store in an expensive high rise condo I bought for her (in my dream, not real life) and she complained about the price increase of something small she wanted.

The clerk laughed at her and ridiculed her. Then I woke up. Wasn’t a nightmare, obviously, but just an odd dream.

My theory is this, it’s EOG1 working its magic on inherited wealth stories. I woke up to “decide the ending” or give that dream a conscious resolution. I could be wrong, but it genuinely felt that way. I actually got that feeling so I resolved the dream consciously and then fell back asleep. I had a slightly different dream then woke up (about 2 hours later). I consciously resolved that and fell right back to sleep and slept the rest of the night.

I actually feel quite rested today, but I went to bed considerably earlier than I normally do, so I’m sure I’ll have to take a nap later.

I feel “lighter” today also. Essentially like some emotional weight has been lifted. I like it and I’m looking forward to upcoming results.

After getting some recommendations I’ve decided to finish out this round and do a week washout (beginning of April) and I’m going to switch out EOG1 with the new R.I.C.H. and run Dragon Regen + R.I.C.H. + GLM as my stack.

It’s similar to what I’m running now but the new R.I.C.H. has new tech and is working differently on the wealth trauma healing.

For now I plan to run 2 full rounds of that stack and then I look to replace R.I.C.H. with R.I.C.H. trader so I can hopefully be ready to go back to Forex trading at the end of the year. Lightly though because around Christmas and New Year liquidity and volatility tend to relax quite a bit.

We’ll see how today goes, but so far it looks as though I’ll be able to stick with the full 15 minute loop for all 3 titles.

[Forexpreneur]

I’m quite cranky today. I slept alright last night but did have a dream that I wasn’t too happy about. Not a nightmare or anything. Feel a little tired too as though I didn’t get any deep sleep.

I’m also not happy with my current situation in life and am feeling it today. Personally I think this is a shift subconsciously and is fuel to get me past this situation in life.

I can say this though, there were a couple of incidents today that triggered me but what I’m getting excited about is that I’m not triggered as hard and I “get over” the trigger very quickly. Usually when I’m triggered I’m hyped up for a couple of hours or even more (Complex PTSD will do that to you until you heal traumas). Now I’m triggered for a couple of minutes to around five max. So that is a massive improvement in my quality of life.

[Forexpreneur]

Had to run the last of my major errands for the month today on a bus line I’m not too fond of. The grocery store I shopped at was very busy today and the lines at the checkout were also long. I will often get PTSD symptoms due to all the people, activity and noise, but I was chill as could be today.

Also while I was shopping the whether changed and it actually got quite chilly outside. Chillier than what the weather called for and I wasn’t really dressed for the chilly weather. Wet and cold does not go together very well for me. Had to wait about half an hour for my bus, but again, none of it bothered me. I took it in stride.

When I lived in Southern California the large crowds, long lines for just about everything, the traffic, etc. none of it bothered me. But the weather was incredible most of them time. The seasons were basically spring and summer. LOL. Not saying I didn’t have any PTSD there, but nothing overwhelming like it is here in the Pacific Northwest. I’m not where I’m supposed to be, and I know that. I think that just adds to the overall frustration here.

But I do feel that I’m moving forward now.

[Forexpreneur]

I had a crazy dream last night. I became wealthy and got back into playing the electric guitar. I put a song on Youtube that I wrote and played guitar and had studio musicians play the rest and it went viral.

For fun I put out a couple of other songs and people kept asking when I’ll go on tour. I decided it would be fun so I did and became famous. Funny thing is, I didn’t need the money I was doing it for fun. But I couldn’t do normal person stuff so I started dressing up with a fake long beard and walking like an old man and had an entourage to walk around with me.

It was a very intricate dream with an actual start and finish. Most of my dreams I just kind of plop into the story out of nowhere.

I had other dreams also, and have had dreams lately of still being poor. My subconscious is certainly at work and many of these more negative dreams I seem to wake up and if that happens I try to consciously “correct” the dream so it has an outcome that I desire. Sometimes I’m just too damn tired and fall back asleep but I try to remember the dream and work through it consciously.

[Forexpreneur]

I’ve been playing a couple of PC games lately that I love but can also be irritating to me because they are difficult. They both are in the Combat Racing genre. I’ve been purposefully playing certain races that are both very difficult and cause a lot of stress (I’m a very competitive person in certain areas).

What is very interesting is that I still feel some stress but I’m able to still focus. Essentially not allowing the stress to overwhelm me. I’ve been setting lap records lately using the same exact car I’ve been using for years. Absolutely zero difference, except for me.

Summary

The reason why I’ve been playing these games off and on is to increase my stress resilience, something that is very important in Forex trading. I’m not risking any money, or my life but I’m still submitting myself to stress and that allows my stack to work more in my opinion.

Usually after playing any of these two games I’ll feel the effects of prolonged stress but now I just don’t get overwhelmed with stress during play and afterwards I don’t feel the effects of stress virtually at all. It’s new territory for me and I love it.

I’m still a ways from getting back into currency trading again. The goal is to start prepping in a couple of months. Going through my system again and then using a back testing program I have. Then go into live trading around September with very low amounts of money to build back my trading.

The goal is to trade full on in October and November and then slow it down in December since the Forex markets slow down anyway due to all the holidays.

[Forexpreneur]

Focus on how far you’ve come. Not how far you have to go. - Rick Warren

[Forexpreneur]

I’ve already touched upon this but I feel it’s important to make it a point that I am now catching myself unconsciously (I think that’s the correct word to use instead of subconsciously) find myself untenseing my muscles often during the day.

What I find incredible about this is that I wasn’t even consciously aware that my muscles were tensing, but I sure feel the release when I untense them. So ultimately I think what is happening is that unconsciously I have a low tolerance baseline of muscle tenseness and my subconscious automatically makes sure the tenseness doesn’t get past a certain point.

In essence my baseline for muscle tenseness is significantly lower than it’s been my entire life. But I’m noticing this virtually everyday now. All of a sudden, out of nowhere I just start relaxing my muscles. It’s mostly in the center of my shoulder blades, but sometimes it’s the small of my back also.

[Forexpreneur]

Today I’m finished with this round. I’m finishing about a week and a half earlier than originally planned (Listen Day # 24 instead of # 30) because I’m taking an 11 day washout and then will switch my stack up to give a slightly different direction.

I will continue to add to this journal during the washout. I’m not a veteran yet, but this isn’t my first round either and I know washouts are always interesting. So I’ll document what occurs.

The new stack is going to be replacing EOG1 with the new R.I.C.H. and I’m going to switch Dragon Reborn:Regeneration (DRR) with Summertime.

So the new stack is going to be, in this order, R.I.C.H. + GLM (listening day 1) then Summertime (Listening Day 2).

The aim is still working on my core, or foundation, but adding the newest tech and changing the focus just slightly to get a more rounded and happier foundation.

I plan to do two rounds of this and around late August or very early September (I have to figure out the math) I’ll then replace R.I.C.H. with R.I.C.H. Trader. I’ve decided to go with a name embedded version of R.I.C.H. Trader so that will be interesting.

[Forexpreneur]

I’m going to take a little detour after my washout and will take a month to just work DRR + Summertime, then I’ll carry on with the new stack of R.I.C.H. + GLM + Summertime after a washout.

[Forexpreneur]

“Your problem isn’t the problem. Your reaction is the problem” - Unknown

I love this quote and this is EXACTLY what I’m working on in my life and have been for years. Easier said than done. UNTIL I started using SubClub subs. Still a long way to go, but man I’m already a far way from my old self. Frankly, this is getting fun.

Second day of rest. I was really tired today. It’s Sunday so I decided to take a nap. Slept for almost two hours and I feel “light and airy” now. I’ll take it. Since it’s Sunday, my neighborhood is quiet and it helps that it’s slightly sunny today and leaves are starting to bud on trees.