Creating a solid core with Dragon Regen + EOG 1 + GLM

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3rd washout day: WOW! Today, out of nowhere, was some deep core healing/release. I was eating an early dinner at home. It’s Monday but oddly quiet in my neighborhood today. I wasn’t watching anything (Youtube, movies, etc) NOR listening to anything.

Just sitting, eating. An internal voice gently told me to eat slower and enjoy my food. Which is actually funny because I’m a notoriously slow eater. But I did. Then I started to feel this tremendous release from deep within. It’s difficult to explain what “it” is. Frankly I know it comes from my early childhood, and even had gentle memories (me being removed from the traumatic incidents and watching from a distance but NOT engaged) and the same voice said “let it go”.

There started to be the beginnings of emotional overload and I felt myself clinch, almost holding onto the energy, which is very typical of me (male children in my generation were told to “shut up”, “Stop crying”, etc) but then the gentle voice told me to breath through it. “It’s alright to let it go. Just breath, relax”.

So I did and I felt a bunch of this energy just release.

Summary

I do want to make it clear, I’ve had years of therapy. I’ve been meditating for years. I do literally stop and smell the roses (and other flowers IF they are out and it’s public space). So none of this is new. But I must say I don’t think I’ve been FULLY engaged with it. I’m convinced that I wasn’t really releasing all this negative energy.

Did I release all the negative energy today? I highly doubt it. But it was an excellent start. And I “survived” letting some of this go. Not sure what I’ve been afraid of, so I will meditate on this because I do believe it is a major key to my healing.

I think this is why some of the emotional healing is difficult if you went through a lot of trauma and abuse as a child. We come to healing as adults. But the trauma happened while we were children.

I’m convinced we must surrender to our childlike mind to heal. Come to healing with the mind of the child. Then just let it go. I was able to do that today. Again, I’m not saying “I’ve healed my childhood trauma”. But today was one hell of a positive breakthrough. ’

This is getting fun.

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4th washout day. I decided to walk up to a convenience store to get a couple of things. It was 54°F out. Not cold but not warm either. That somewhat annoying in between temp. I took a thin jacket just in case.

I didn’t even get a block and it started to rain. Then rained harder. Normally I would automatically default to “What the crap?! Hasn’t rained all day until I step out the door …” and I started to but immediately laughed and shrugged it off. I’ve never liked being wet and cold so my mind told me to grab my jacket out of my backpack but I chose not to. I didn’t have goosebumps so in reality I couldn’t have been that cold. I survived just fine, but knew my thin jacket was there if it did get too cold.

I passed a couple of people along the way and I just smiled and they were all nice. Funny thing is, it’s very natural for me to smile at people, but usually people where I live are grumpy most of the time, but I’ve been getting friendlier responses lately.

Something else that’s interesting is that I usually have to stop a little halfway up the street (it’s a decent incline) and take a short rest because my legs get tired. I didn’t even feel the need today so I didn’t. There are a lot of flowers out because we’ve had some abnormally early warm weather and it was very pleasant.

Long story short, this little walk is usually more of a chore than anything but it was actually quite enjoyable today, even though my little parade was rained on. Like anything in life, it’s how you frame something. I’ve been trying to reframe things to be more pleasant, and even have tried the NLP 6 Stage Reframing System but to no avail for whatever reason. DRR and or GLM really seems to be doing it for me though. I love it.

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6th washout day. I realized today that I’m breathing very differently than I normally do. I’m automatically breathing through my diaphragm. Sure that’s normal, but not for me. I would have to remember to consciously breathe through my diaphragm and it always felt forced and awkward.

Breathing through your diaphragm naturally disarms the amygdala as does breathing through the nose, which most the time I can’t because I have a seriously deviated septum from child abuse.

I am also breathing deeply, automatically. Again that is something I’d have to remember and then consciously do it (usually due to mediation, same with the diaphragm breathing). Again, that always had an awkward feel to it also.

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7th washout day. This was the third day in a row that was sunny (uncommon this time of year in the Pacific Northwest) but for some reason this one really hit me in a positive way. I’m even more relaxed today and feel incredibly greatful.

I took a walk and enjoyed the sun on my skin. I went out yesterday and I thought I fully enjoyed it, but today was 10X better. No clue why but I’ll take it, and enjoy it.

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I’m starting a new journal for my new stack which will be Summertime (Name Embedded with Pragya for the optional slot) + Sanguine + Dragon Reborn Regen

Here is the link to the new journal

An Engineered Foundation by Forexpreneur with Name Embedded Summertime