Day 4
Rest day
I’m feeling good. Motivated. Even excited. I’m watching myself just following a feeling, but this feels good.
I’ve kept my mind and awareness open to changes happening, and what’s awesome is I’ve been seeking growth avenues lately. I’ve spoken of Stark, NR, and one I have history with is Genesis.
On Genesis, it allowed me to grow joyfully and thrillingly, I might add. I saw and began desiring some things which I’ve had major hindrances to. I’m speaking of relationships with women. Genesis’ adventure scripting woke me up bigtime. I even began running Primal, with thinking and confidence I’ve never known or experienced before. It was a very short run, and I have no regrets.
Why I’m excited is Regeneration seems to be a perfect match for moving forward AND addressing the emotional issues and holding points. I stopped Genesis mainly because I was hung up with my altered views of success I’ve held. A strong trauma actually pulled me back when I began my crypto trading platform again, as success, to me, reacquainted me with that pain quite regularly. I let it go again.
I’ve been held up in life for so long that failing, or pulling out, has been a damn standard. I’ve looped and looped that pattern again and again. Damn, I’m tired of this. It’s known, it’s familiar, and I’m willing to step into something which actually builds me up now.
On Regeneration’s sales page, it suggests pairing it up with something one has issues with. It suggests Sex Mastery if one has sexual issues. I’ll probably add Primal for myself. But adding it with Genesis since it promotes success thinking really excites me. I’ve had such a cap on my success levels. I am dead serious there. 2 different careers I’ve had (and presently have), and on both I’ve stopped before I could be successful financially. Also, my trading platform I’ll put in that sphere too since I own it but don’t use it. Same results. Same outcome. Same hindrances. It’s some trauma related issue linking to success. And my fears have held me back. Me fearing and remembering a trauma has kept me holding on to a belief that if I don’t move, or don’t succeed, I’ll be safe. I’m not looking forward to the pain of growth, but in a way I am. The wisdom scripting has already kicked in, and I know it’s needed. And what will life be like without such major barriers? I look forward to finding out.
I know this is quite contrary to my prior direction with DR, but upon feeling the same sticking points when I began cycle 3 of St.1, I grew impatient. I asked myself “what am I doing?! How long before this clears?” DR is a fantastic program. But I began using it mainly to clear these traumas. And upon hearing from support that Regeneration was the clearest route to clear these traumas, I’ve had it on my mind. I don’t want to keep repeating the same 'ol, same 'ol “I can’t change” mantra. Tools exist, and I’ve begun using Regeneration.
I’m excited about this awareness. I truly am. I’m opening up to the path I truly want, and I am allowing it.