New cycle started today.
I decided to give Inner Circle a shot, and see what kind of inner circle a CWON + IC stack manifests. Just for the hell of it I only did 5 mins of each today.
It’s a strange thing to me. I can build friendships easily when I want to. I can be very charming when I want to. I’ve had fiercely loyal circles of friends in the past, but lost them when I moved countries. I still keep in touch, but it isn’t the same without the physical contact. I also had a close circle of friends when I lived in New York city, but I don’t see them very often now that I moved upstate. I genuinely enjoyed and really miss that contact, especially those lazy evenings at some river-side bar that we used to have.
But I’ve also changed. I value my solitude a lot more now. I feel content with the company of my cats and my wildlife. I prefer the trees to the concrete and crowds of people. I treasure the quiet.
So any new circle of friends would need to be consistent with that. They would need to be local. They would need to value nature over nightlife. Individuality over herd mentality. Resourcefulness over dependence. Peace over profit.
I’ve mostly kept to myself since I moved out here 5 years ago, by necessity really since I was exploring a more primal and masculine version of myself and didn’t feel I could do that with all the superficial garbage in our modern society.
But there’s a feeling that needs to change. This feeling isn’t new, but the time didn’t feel right before. It does now.