Longest KB2 loop ever yesterday and I woke up today and felt much better than normaly
Since I started with KB2, it always felt like I was hit by a truck again as in stage 1.
Today, I still felt tired, but all the bodily ailments are gone.
Might also be a factor that I listened in the afternoon instead of the late evening.
Forgot to link it. But it’s important so I’ll link it now. LB caused some serious recon with 11:30 minutes.
17 April
Listening Day 10
5:30 LB 25sec RotNW 3:33 Phoenix
I wanted to play LB a bit longer somewhere in between 9 which was good and 11:30 with recon. But at 5:30 O suddenly knew it’s enough.
Yesterday was one of the most challenging days this year so far.
In the morning I drove to the airport to fetch my aunt. On the way, I took my mom to an outlet for shopping and myself to an asia market to get some basics to make Ramen.
The traffic was terrible. Aggressive drivers, heavy rain, and 20 minutes off standstill because a trucker had a heartattack and his truck blocked the whole road.
When we came home, I was tired from 4.5 hours driving. Then made some Ramen (which was delicious). When I left the kitchen for a moment, it suddenly clashed between my fiancee and mom again. It was brewing for a few days now, but I hoped I could defuse the situation, but no.
The tricky part about this was, that I had to leave immediately after their clash for work.
My shift went rather well besides two vapes I sold that didn’t work (according to the customer), and my boss was pissed that that’s 60 or her bucks going down the drain.
And my colleague that should check in with me at the end of my shift didn’t show up (she has the key to the gassation).
So until I reached her finally, It was way past 10pm and I left way later than I hoped for.
Coming home late and exhausted, I talked to my fiancee for another 2 hours to clear the situation at least on her end as good as possible.
And I think we made some good progress.
Went to bed at 1:30 woke up at 9. Tired but not exhausted or ailing.
No work until Saturday, so a lot of time to do other important things.
BTW, I had one really strange dream yesterday.
I dreamt that my loose tooth came out.
At first it was a normal tooth, than it looked like one of these jelly vampire set of teeth. And than it grew until it had the size of a flounder.
And I was just asking myself, how should it get this huge thing back in my mouth. It was hilarious 
19 April
Listening Day 11
KB2 15 min LB 15 min
Going with a boom again into my rest days.
Now I’m officially one week free from gaming. Considering that I spent over 100 hours in the first six weeks with Assassin’s Creed Valhalla that’s astonishing.
I didn’t even need will power.
It was rather that I was doing tasks like household chores, reading the book I bought on shamanic healing etc.
I’m guessing this is LB. The increased self worth now makes me do things that are actually good for me and my loved ones instead of numbing my senses with gaming.
Also LB, I introduced a dental care routine. I had cavities my hole life, a few teeth that just crumbled away etc. Now I’m doing what I know is best. Earlier this year, I almost lost one tooth when it got stuck on a gummy bear and was pulled out. Since then I have really sensitive gums. A bit swollen and easily bleeding.
So I started brushing them with CDS once or twice a day and the bleeding got much better already. I try to drink a banana milk with powdered eggshells everyday for recalcification. And to strengthen my jaw, gums and teeth in general I do a knitbown mouthwash at least once a day.
Let’s see how it works out.
Tomorrow starts my rest period.
After that, I’m pondering if I run another cycle of KB2 or if I should switch to stage 3 already after just one cycle.
Rest day 1
One day since I listened to the full loops of KB2 and LB. No recon so far.
I was pretty productive compared to the weeks before. Nothing about money, but cleaning the house so that now almost everything is clean and tidy but my office. That’s gonna be my goal today if I can fit it in with my work.
Often when I listen to a dense stack, I notice that I need to pee a lot more, especially at night.
This night, I went to the toilet after I finished my work at 10pm, right before I went to bed around midnight and 4 times during the night.
Normaly I only need to go somewhere around 6am.
One of the supplements I take is methylene blue.
It’s powering up the mitochondria, cleaning the brain from residue and much more.
The most significant side effect is that it turnes your piss blue (that’s why it was developed further into Hydroxychloroquine which doesn’t do that) or emerald.
But on days with dense subs, I notice that the color is often white, despite the amount of methylene blue I take.
It’s important to understand, that the kidneys aren’t waste removers (like the liver) in the typical way, but rather they remove everything that is to much in your blood. They are a regulating organ. They try to keep steady levels of everything: minerals, sugar, and much more.
So if I pee white, it means there’s either to much water that thinned everything down, or the body used up everything that could be discarded.
Especially with the methylene blue. The residue in the glass is enough to give a deep blue color to the water when I rinse it out.
But there’s often not the slightest blue tone in my pee.
I didn’t notice anything like it before I started with subs.
I used to eat as a coping mechanism.
It’s still there. Yesterday I demolished a whole can of Pringles.
But its getting less, just as with gaming.
Today I had breakfast, a small snack at lunch, a cringle at work and only a big meal in the evening. I didn’t have the desire to eat all day. I wasn’t hungry. That’s another great development.
I guess that’s LB as well.
On the other hand, I’m exhausted today. 5 busy hours at the gas station. When I came home, I hit the bed straight. No napping, just lying down, recovering a bit of energy.
I don’t think it’s from work.
My guess is, it’s me being tired from processing the subs.
I’m keeping up my dental routine as good as possible. But no banana milk today. To tired to make it. And I don’t want to drink to much so late. I don’t want to go to the toilet 4 times again tonight.
But it’s working pretty well. My teeth feel clean all day, even after eating they feel smooth and clean, no plaque.
April is like a woman.
Last Sunday 28°C (82°F) today it’s snowing.
What is CDS?
Chlorine Dioxide Solution.
There was much talk about MMS during Corona.
CDS is an activated form of MMS.
Unlike what MSM is telling people, it’s actually quite safe. A 70kg person would need to drink about 6 liters until it’s getting dangerous according to studies done on mice.
It’s the last of my 5 rest days in between cycles.
This morning I woke up and felt like “I’ll build my first custom”.
I was considering running EoG a while to get all these financial blocks resolved. But I didn’t knew when. This morning I suddenly thought, why not augmenting my GM into a custom with EoG stage 1 +NWE and a few synergy modules to have a “Building a solid financial base” custom?
Still reading descriptions of the modules. Opened all that I knew were interesting and all those that I didn’t know and suddenly I had 235 tabs open. 150 are remaining.
Let’s see how it works out.
So this is a first rough sketch of what I want.
I want a custom that builds a foundation, nothing super specific, a custom I can hear endlessly. Even when I make a lot of money.
My first impulse was to augment GM with EoG1and add some enhancers. Then, a bit more specific, something priming me for a sales job.
Genesis: Mogul
for the basics of everything
Ecstasy of Gold Stage 1
to remove any bad believes concerning Money
New Wealth Experience
to boost EoG1 with NWE
Synergy: The Golden One +7
it’s a wealth Custom after all
Synergy: Winner Overdrive +2
for success
Synergy: Carpe Vitam +3
to be able to go “All in”
Synergy: I AM ATMAN +5
mainly because of atman and unlimiter
Synergy: Divine Dominion +6
I want at least one of these result enhancers, but unsure which. Both contain modules I’d want.
Synergy: Tale of the Dragon +4
I wanted True Sell and Dragon tounge for starting in sales
Synergy: Voice Master +2
for sales and in general
Cosmic Navigator
unlimited wealth
Pragya
to process the whole custom better
Dynasty
the only one not wealth related per se, but considering how taxing the situation in my family is atm, this could help tremendously by solving tensions and thereby freeing mental capacities
Job Seeker
speaks for its self
Objectives
In total 3 cores (2.5) that would have filled 36 slots before Synergy modules. I could reduce some by taking only certain modules from Synergy modules, like Dragon tounge and true sell instead of Tale of the Dragon, but that would increase the cost…
After some first (hopefully) comments, I changed my custom plan a bit.
I switched EoG1 for HoM. HoM has many features I wanted from EoG1 plus some I wanted from I AM ATMAN and also supports Dynasty.
Additionally it seems to be the best title for Sales in general.
I kicked I AM ATMAN because @Lion warned it could lead to quite some recon. Not surprising considering that I AM is a part or Khans Total Breakdown.
I kept ARES for now, but I’m pondering tossing it as well.
I’m not sure about the necessity of the NWE core anymore, so I opened a ticket about it.
So my current build plan looks like this.
I don’t know how much time I spent today researching modules and everything. So much I couldn’t understand some descriptions anymore.
Information overload.
Tomorrow I’ll start KB3. Already excited.
Listening Day 1
KB3 3:01 GM 14:08
Do you know this feeling when you’re running a sub and suddenly feel like “That’s enough. I need to turn of thus sub immediately!”
Had this with KB3. First time I’ve listened to it. After 2:40 I felt like turning it of. I saw the time and thought “Oh, only 2:40. I can endure more.” But after 20 seconds ly mind was like “Are you stupid? Turn thus sub immediately off”. So I did.
After spending countless hours in here yesterday, I’ve decided to reduce my time today drastically.
Started cleaning the porch. So much pollen and the “Sahara-Dust” or whatever it is they put up in the air.
Need to do more. Be more active in RL.
The last to sentence came straight from my subconscious. Was pondering about about something and my fingers moved in their own. Is this from a sub?
My subconscious talking actively through my phone keyboard?
Strange things happen.
These direct channels are great! Kinda difficult to keep the right frequence, but do if you can.
Became super tired 30 minutes after listening.
Thank God I didn’t listen longer.
Love that, something I also been getting lately, thoughts of being more active IRL. Like, stop thinking so much and do, you need balance.
420, I see. Things are good in Berlin now. 
Today I woke up and felt bulldozed again. Like at the beginning of stage 1 and 2 of KB.
After half an hour I still was barely able to keep my eyes open. I needed another hour, coffee, a few cigarettes, black tea and a shower to become fully awake.
But I think this is only a testament to the power that awaits me.
While I was still trying to open my eyes properly, I opened Facebook and directly saw an explanation/ interpretation of Queens Bohemian Rhapsody. It was an interesting read. When I listened to the song afterwards, I started to cry.
It was so moving that I decided to put it here, if anybody else is interested in understanding this great song better.
WHY IS THE SONG CALLED BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY?..
WHY IS IT EXACTLY 5 MINUTES 55 SECONDS?..WHAT IS THIS SONG REALLY ABOUT?..WHY WAS THE QUEEN MOVIE RELEASED ON OCTOBER 31?
The film was released on October 31 because the single was heard for the first time on October 31, 1975. It is titled like this because a “Rhapsody” is a free piece of music composed in different parts and themes where it seems that no part has any relation to the other. The word “rhapsody” comes from Greek and means “assembled parts of a song.” The word “bohemian” refers to a region of the Czech Republic called Bohemia, the place where Faust, the protagonist of the play that bears his name written by the playwright and novelist Goethe, was born. In Goethe’s work, Faust was a very intelligent old man who knew everything except the mystery of life. Not understanding it, he decides to poison himself.Just at that moment the church bells ring and he goes out into the street. Back in his room, he finds there is a dog. The animal transforms into a kind of man. It is about the devil Mephistopheles. He promises Fausto to live a full life and not be miserable in exchange for his soul. Fausto agrees, rejuvenates and becomes arrogant. He meets Gretchen and they have a son. His wife and son die. Fausto travels through time and space and feels powerful. As he grows old again he feels miserable again. Since he did not break the pact with the devil, the angels dispute his soul. This work is essential to understanding Bohemian Rhapsody.
The song talks about Freddie Mercury himself. Being a rhapsody we find 7 different parts:
1st and 2nd act A Capella
3rd act Ballad
4th act guitar solo
5th act opera
6th act rock
7th act “coda” or final act
The song talks about a poor boy who questions if this life is real or if it is his distorted imagination that lives another reality. He says that even if he stops living, the wind will continue to blow without his existence. So he makes a deal with the devil and sells his soul.
Upon making this decision, he runs to tell his mother and tells her…
“Mom, I just killed a man, I put a gun to his head and now he’s dead. I have thrown my life away. If I’m not back tomorrow, move on as if nothing matters…" That man who kills is himself, Freddie Mercury himself.
If he does not fulfill the pact with the devil, he will die immediately. He says goodbye to his loved ones and his mother bursts into tears, tears and desperate crying that come from Brian May’s guitar notes. Freddie, scared, shouts “mom, I don’t want to die” and the operatic part begins. Freddie is in an astral plane where he sees himself: “I see a little silhoutte of a man.” “scaramouche, are you going to start a dispute/fight?”
Scaramouche is “skirmish” a dispute between armies with horse riders (4 horsemen of the evil Apocalypse fight against the forces of good for Freddie’s soul) and it goes on to say “Thunderbolt and lightning very very frightening me” too much). This phrase appears in the Bible, exactly in Job 37 when it says… “the thunder and lightning frighten me: my heart pounds in my chest.” His mother, seeing him so scared by the decision her son has made, begs to save him from the pact with Mephistopheles. “He’s just a poor boy…” He forgives his life for this monstrosity. What comes easy, goes easy. Will you let him go? " Their supplications are heard and the angels descend to fight the forces of evil." Bismillah (Arabic word meaning “In the name of God”) is the first word that appears in the Muslim holy book, the Quran. So God himself appears and shouts “we will not abandon you, let him go.”
Faced with such a confrontation between the forces of good and evil, Freddie fears for the life of his mother and tells her “Mama mia, mama mia let me go” (mother, let me go). They shout again from the sky that they are not going to abandon him and Freddie shouts “no, no, no, no, no” and says “Beelzebub (the Lord of Darkness) may have put a devil in you mother.” Freddie here pays tribute to Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart and Johann Sebastian Bach when he sings… “Figaro, Magnifico” referencing Mozart’s “The Marriage of Figaro”, considered the best opera in history, and Bach’s “Magnificat” . He finishes the operatic part and the more rock part breaks in. The devil, angry and betrayed by Freddie by not fulfilling the pact, tells him “Do you think you can insult me like this? Do you think you can come to me and then abandon me? “Do you think you can love me and let me die?”
It is shocking how the lord of evil feels powerless before a human being, before repentance and love. Once the battle is lost, the devil leaves and we reach the last act or “coda” where Freddie is free and that feeling comforts him. He sounds the gong that closes the song. The gong is an instrument used in China and Far East Asia to heal people who are under the effects of evil spirits.
5:55 minutes last. Freddie was into astrology and 555 in numerology is associated with death, not physical, but spiritual, the end of something where angels will safeguard you. 555 is related to God and the divine, an ending that will begin a new stage.
And the song plays on All Saints’ Eve for the first time. A holiday called “Samhain” by the Celts to celebrate the transition and opening to the other world.
The Celts believed that the world of the living and the dead were almost united, and on the day of the dead both worlds were united, allowing the spirits to transit to the other side. Nothing in Bohemian Rhapsody is coincidental.
Everything is very measured, worked and has a meaning that transcends beyond being a simple song. It has been voted worldwide as the best song of all time.
This song represented a radical change in Queen as if she had really made a pact with the devil, she changed their lives forever and made them immortal.
[Written by Jorge Palazón, Madrid, Spain]
The comments mentioned that Freddy Mercury took part in a ritual at Bohemian Grove. Might also be a reason and hint from/for the title.
Yesterday I had an enlightening conversation with @TheGreenMan. Recently I felt a pull from Primal. So it started with me reading the whole thread. Afterwards the conversation affirmed my impression. This wild, Primal side is missing in me.
At first I was discounting it as mere shiny object syndrome. But I know, that one of the effects of the subs is guiding me towards the subs I need. I also know that I won’t start listening to Primal right now. I just started KB3. Next cycle I want to rotate GM for my GM custom. So it’s still about 50 days until I can start with Primal.
It really feels like LB is pushing towards it. So I will first change GM for a GM custom, than LB for Primal (I’m guessing for 2-3 cycyles), then I’ll introduce KB4 and then I might come back for LB.
I remember two Dreams from tonight. One interesting, fun one. The other one was of the strange fucked up kind.
In the first I was on a quest to find a key of some kind. We ventured down a secret passage and I entered a huge cave. It was a big lake with a kind of temple. The isle with the temple was completely build of white marble. The center of the temple was a fountain whose water fes the entire Lake. I instinctively knew that I was here before in prior dreams, even though it looked different back then. I understood that this is the fountain of Wisdom.
We got the item we needed, solved a few more riddles and that’s it. This was the interesting and fun dream.
The second one is probably a result from KB cleansing all the pornabuse, excessive masturbation and friendzone experiences.
I was visiting one close friend that friendzoned me. She was in the porn industry in this dream. We were talking about her experiences. Then her pimp/producer showed up with a few of his goons. All in dark and gloomy, almost mob-like aura. They started to watch their newest clips. And some old-school TV adds for their product. Another performer I recognized was another love interest that friendzoned me. In the past she was this innocent, unconfident girl with braids and turtleneck, walking stiff as a stick. In the pornclip she still had this qualities. They laughed about her and how this made the video even better.
My friend said, she hopes she doesn’t get to many bruises from the high humidity (doesn’t make sense at all).
Then I woke up, felt like a truck hit me and I got up.
I attended church this morning. Two rows before me sat another “friend” from the past. I didnt see her in the ladt 15 years. We were pretty close in Kindergarten, but grew apart. Later in school (she was one year junior to me) it always felt like she despised me and was felt like something better. Never knew why.
Today she was there with the whole family. Parents, uncle and aunt, her husband plus 2 kids.
In the past that would have kinda felt awkward. But today I just said hello afterwards and smiled. She did the same.
Interesting development. I guess it’s because I’m much more congruent. Especially in my youth, I had next to zero confidence and and what I believed to be right and what I lived where completely different (eg Pornaddiction). I’m much more in peace with me and my shadow now. Might be this.
Things aren’t that easy yet.
It’s legal to possess but not to obtain.
Paradox.
If you started to grow a few months ago, it would have been illegal. Now you are allowed to grow, but can’t have anything you’ve grown.
And with the system they’ve created, the legal way will be more expensive than the illegal way, if you’re not growing it yourself.
I’m planning to visit Amsterdam in a few months and get a proper consultation. I need some strain with zero effect on the psyche (no hallucinogenic effects) but strong pain killing for my grandma.
Perhaps something uplifting for the gf. Also without getting high. We’ll see
