Today I woke up and felt bulldozed again. Like at the beginning of stage 1 and 2 of KB.
After half an hour I still was barely able to keep my eyes open. I needed another hour, coffee, a few cigarettes, black tea and a shower to become fully awake.
But I think this is only a testament to the power that awaits me.
While I was still trying to open my eyes properly, I opened Facebook and directly saw an explanation/ interpretation of Queens Bohemian Rhapsody. It was an interesting read. When I listened to the song afterwards, I started to cry.
It was so moving that I decided to put it here, if anybody else is interested in understanding this great song better.
Explanationof the Bohemian Rhapsody
WHY IS THE SONG CALLED BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY?..
WHY IS IT EXACTLY 5 MINUTES 55 SECONDS?..WHAT IS THIS SONG REALLY ABOUT?..WHY WAS THE QUEEN MOVIE RELEASED ON OCTOBER 31?
The film was released on October 31 because the single was heard for the first time on October 31, 1975. It is titled like this because a “Rhapsody” is a free piece of music composed in different parts and themes where it seems that no part has any relation to the other. The word “rhapsody” comes from Greek and means “assembled parts of a song.” The word “bohemian” refers to a region of the Czech Republic called Bohemia, the place where Faust, the protagonist of the play that bears his name written by the playwright and novelist Goethe, was born. In Goethe’s work, Faust was a very intelligent old man who knew everything except the mystery of life. Not understanding it, he decides to poison himself.Just at that moment the church bells ring and he goes out into the street. Back in his room, he finds there is a dog. The animal transforms into a kind of man. It is about the devil Mephistopheles. He promises Fausto to live a full life and not be miserable in exchange for his soul. Fausto agrees, rejuvenates and becomes arrogant. He meets Gretchen and they have a son. His wife and son die. Fausto travels through time and space and feels powerful. As he grows old again he feels miserable again. Since he did not break the pact with the devil, the angels dispute his soul. This work is essential to understanding Bohemian Rhapsody.
The song talks about Freddie Mercury himself. Being a rhapsody we find 7 different parts:
1st and 2nd act A Capella
3rd act Ballad
4th act guitar solo
5th act opera
6th act rock
7th act “coda” or final act
The song talks about a poor boy who questions if this life is real or if it is his distorted imagination that lives another reality. He says that even if he stops living, the wind will continue to blow without his existence. So he makes a deal with the devil and sells his soul.
Upon making this decision, he runs to tell his mother and tells her…
“Mom, I just killed a man, I put a gun to his head and now he’s dead. I have thrown my life away. If I’m not back tomorrow, move on as if nothing matters…" That man who kills is himself, Freddie Mercury himself.
If he does not fulfill the pact with the devil, he will die immediately. He says goodbye to his loved ones and his mother bursts into tears, tears and desperate crying that come from Brian May’s guitar notes. Freddie, scared, shouts “mom, I don’t want to die” and the operatic part begins. Freddie is in an astral plane where he sees himself: “I see a little silhoutte of a man.” “scaramouche, are you going to start a dispute/fight?”
Scaramouche is “skirmish” a dispute between armies with horse riders (4 horsemen of the evil Apocalypse fight against the forces of good for Freddie’s soul) and it goes on to say “Thunderbolt and lightning very very frightening me” too much). This phrase appears in the Bible, exactly in Job 37 when it says… “the thunder and lightning frighten me: my heart pounds in my chest.” His mother, seeing him so scared by the decision her son has made, begs to save him from the pact with Mephistopheles. “He’s just a poor boy…” He forgives his life for this monstrosity. What comes easy, goes easy. Will you let him go? " Their supplications are heard and the angels descend to fight the forces of evil." Bismillah (Arabic word meaning “In the name of God”) is the first word that appears in the Muslim holy book, the Quran. So God himself appears and shouts “we will not abandon you, let him go.”
Faced with such a confrontation between the forces of good and evil, Freddie fears for the life of his mother and tells her “Mama mia, mama mia let me go” (mother, let me go). They shout again from the sky that they are not going to abandon him and Freddie shouts “no, no, no, no, no” and says “Beelzebub (the Lord of Darkness) may have put a devil in you mother.” Freddie here pays tribute to Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart and Johann Sebastian Bach when he sings… “Figaro, Magnifico” referencing Mozart’s “The Marriage of Figaro”, considered the best opera in history, and Bach’s “Magnificat” . He finishes the operatic part and the more rock part breaks in. The devil, angry and betrayed by Freddie by not fulfilling the pact, tells him “Do you think you can insult me like this? Do you think you can come to me and then abandon me? “Do you think you can love me and let me die?”
It is shocking how the lord of evil feels powerless before a human being, before repentance and love. Once the battle is lost, the devil leaves and we reach the last act or “coda” where Freddie is free and that feeling comforts him. He sounds the gong that closes the song. The gong is an instrument used in China and Far East Asia to heal people who are under the effects of evil spirits.
5:55 minutes last. Freddie was into astrology and 555 in numerology is associated with death, not physical, but spiritual, the end of something where angels will safeguard you. 555 is related to God and the divine, an ending that will begin a new stage.
And the song plays on All Saints’ Eve for the first time. A holiday called “Samhain” by the Celts to celebrate the transition and opening to the other world.
The Celts believed that the world of the living and the dead were almost united, and on the day of the dead both worlds were united, allowing the spirits to transit to the other side. Nothing in Bohemian Rhapsody is coincidental.
Everything is very measured, worked and has a meaning that transcends beyond being a simple song. It has been voted worldwide as the best song of all time.
This song represented a radical change in Queen as if she had really made a pact with the devil, she changed their lives forever and made them immortal.
[Written by Jorge Palazón, Madrid, Spain]
The comments mentioned that Freddy Mercury took part in a ritual at Bohemian Grove. Might also be a reason and hint from/for the title.
Yesterday I had an enlightening conversation with @TheGreenMan. Recently I felt a pull from Primal. So it started with me reading the whole thread. Afterwards the conversation affirmed my impression. This wild, Primal side is missing in me.
At first I was discounting it as mere shiny object syndrome. But I know, that one of the effects of the subs is guiding me towards the subs I need. I also know that I won’t start listening to Primal right now. I just started KB3. Next cycle I want to rotate GM for my GM custom. So it’s still about 50 days until I can start with Primal.
It really feels like LB is pushing towards it. So I will first change GM for a GM custom, than LB for Primal (I’m guessing for 2-3 cycyles), then I’ll introduce KB4 and then I might come back for LB.
Dreams
I remember two Dreams from tonight. One interesting, fun one. The other one was of the strange fucked up kind.
In the first I was on a quest to find a key of some kind. We ventured down a secret passage and I entered a huge cave. It was a big lake with a kind of temple. The isle with the temple was completely build of white marble. The center of the temple was a fountain whose water fes the entire Lake. I instinctively knew that I was here before in prior dreams, even though it looked different back then. I understood that this is the fountain of Wisdom.
We got the item we needed, solved a few more riddles and that’s it. This was the interesting and fun dream.
The second one is probably a result from KB cleansing all the pornabuse, excessive masturbation and friendzone experiences.
I was visiting one close friend that friendzoned me. She was in the porn industry in this dream. We were talking about her experiences. Then her pimp/producer showed up with a few of his goons. All in dark and gloomy, almost mob-like aura. They started to watch their newest clips. And some old-school TV adds for their product. Another performer I recognized was another love interest that friendzoned me. In the past she was this innocent, unconfident girl with braids and turtleneck, walking stiff as a stick. In the pornclip she still had this qualities. They laughed about her and how this made the video even better.
My friend said, she hopes she doesn’t get to many bruises from the high humidity (doesn’t make sense at all).
Then I woke up, felt like a truck hit me and I got up.
Met an old "Friend"
I attended church this morning. Two rows before me sat another “friend” from the past. I didnt see her in the ladt 15 years. We were pretty close in Kindergarten, but grew apart. Later in school (she was one year junior to me) it always felt like she despised me and was felt like something better. Never knew why.
Today she was there with the whole family. Parents, uncle and aunt, her husband plus 2 kids.
In the past that would have kinda felt awkward. But today I just said hello afterwards and smiled. She did the same.
Interesting development. I guess it’s because I’m much more congruent. Especially in my youth, I had next to zero confidence and and what I believed to be right and what I lived where completely different (eg Pornaddiction). I’m much more in peace with me and my shadow now. Might be this.
