Normal but Good Day
Not much thatās interesting to note of today 
. I had another 
EOG ST1 + 
R.I.C.H manifestation today when I met someone who I could recruit. Also a potential client. We had a really nice talk, which I find to be interesting. I donāt tend to talk really well with people like him due to my past internalized bad experiences 
. Today was different and I enjoyed that. 
True Sell would be really useful in a situation like this, in addition to the Way of Understanding module. Canāt wait to have it in my stack next cycle. Also, my ability to emotionally connect with others on a deep level was noticeable in the conversation. I donāt attribute this to the subliminals I ran since I was always like this but 
Ascension definitely reduced the fear factor a bit, which Iām grateful for.
Social
Co-worker sought my help today and seemed respectful 
. Actually Iām a lot more sociable as compared to yesterday, in a better mood. Not sure why. Perplexes me 
. Respect seems to be increasing slightly, Iām not 100% sure. I feel like respect is earned in a lot of ways. Iām not exactly competent at my job here, so the lack of respect is honestly understandable 
This brings something to mind. Iām reminded of Warmth + Competence as a trait for good leaders. (By the way, itās interesting no one has pointed out that 
Chosen fits this to a tee). Made me find this article which talked about it. Oddly enough, I donāt see it get talked about a lot at all.
The matrix of warmth and competence has 4 combinations or possible judgements that determine both assumptions and the behaviour or attitude we take with people. Cuddyās research suggests 4 distinct attitudes arise and with then stereotypical assumptions:
High warmth and high competence results in admiration. This is the charismatic CEO or client lead
High competence but low warmth creates envy. This is the highly technical IT guy who is essential to the project but not someone you invite for an after-work drink.
High warmth but low competence results in pity. This is typically thought of as the working mother or older person struggling to understand a changed workplace.
Low warmth and low competence generates feelings of contempt. These people arenāt typically employed, indeed the unemployed are often categorised in this way.
This makes a lot of sense when I think about it. Really good article, everybody should read it. Thereās a domino effect as a result of my avoidant and fearful tendencies. It results in me procrastinating, which leads me to not being disciplined enough to do things, which leads to me being incompetent. My incompetency either makes people pity or have contempt for me. It also explains why Iām considered a leader/charismatic in some circles and in others Iām disrespected/ignored. The good news is Iām considered quite warm a lot of the time (still need work though), so the only thing that really needs serious work on is my competence. Which means, I have to work on the first domino in the chain. Basically these three things:-
- Eliminate and dissolve any internal sense (of) fear, procrastination, doubt.
Things to Improve
Avoidance of responsibilities are still ongoing 
. It manifests as a sort of nagging anxiety at the back of my head until I do it. My bad habit of the years of avoiding doing anything that causes me discomfort is still in inertia and affecting me at the moment. Breaking that static sludge holding me back will need to be done soon.
Saw a marketing video from a competitor and I had thoughts of, "I wish I had the drive to actually do something like that. If only I wasnāt so lazy 
". I feel like I have such high potential, if I just take action everything will fall into my lap 
Very annoying, I donāt want to be all talk no action.
Lots of work to do. Sleep habits are abysmal, cleanliness needs work, responsibilities need to be done. Small steps need to be made the next day. 
Forum Conversations
Had a nice chat with someone on the forum. Actually in the past few days, Iāve talked to several. Always good to mix around with new people, they seemed cool. Personally, I think most people here at least have good intentions - which I like 
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Things Iām Proud of
Iām still consistently journaling every day before I go to bed 
. Iām happy about this. It might seem like a small thing but I find sticking to something more than a few days to be a major accomplishment for me. Now thereās no denying Iām partially using it as a way to avoid my tasks but still, Iāll take this as a win. Digital journaling is a lot easier than writing it down physically, so itās a good idea that I wasnāt too fixated to do it physically.
FOUR other friends to buy from me. Thatās the most Iāve ever gotten from one person. If I could close all five of them, Iām in for a windfall of 
money. I set tomorrow as the day when Iāll contact them as Iām a little nervous and need to prepare for it (or really Iām avoiding doing it today).
. A family member felt being generous today so I didnāt foot the bill so thatās more delicious, free food for me 
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. Granted, it was not all of it but I did manage to do some of it. I am grateful for my small steps 
. Also, I made a CRM system for myself in Notion to help track my clients properly since that has always been something poorly managed 
. And itās going to nag at me until I do it.
. Unfortunately because of the way things turned out I am a bit mad at her for something she did. I suspect this is recon, since whenever I run alpha subs a sure sign my recon is getting high is if I get mad at somebody 
. Thankfully, Iām near the end of my cycle so a washout should chill things out 
. Thankfully, we both made up and we went to bed happy 
. I was way too harsh, need to tone myself down. You can notice you have recon and STILL get mad. Need to watch myself.
but I have no issues doing so since Iām grateful for the guidance and opportunities they have given me. I did somehow get a financial opportunity for my lover in return 
so it all works out. Respect seems to be higher, spoke more as mutuals. I was also more confident than usual 
. Iāve also realized casual ribbing is not something Iām used to doing when Iām dealing with someone much older than me. In my culture, Iām not sure how to navigate this since they do it towards me 
. My lack of knowledge is obvious, at least to myself. My company has training but lacks cohesion in teaching everything there is to know for my job. I plan to create a guide for myself that will allow me to stay up to date with everything I need to know so I can prepare well when dealing with clients 
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. I helped her out with advertising and she helped me out by giving me a good way to create more sales 
. Oh and more free food 
. Honestly, itās ridiculously obvious how 
. At least Iām taking action instead of reflexively avoiding this entirely as Iāve done in the past, so I count this as a WIN. Strengthens my resolve to finally get 
or the very act of journaling has increased my trust in my subconscious 
. I honestly think itās mostly the latter at this point.
. Iāve had a major shift internally in the way I think about money 
, fancy cars 
and even a private jet 
. Thinking about earning tens of millions and spending it on all kinds of luxurious items (watches 
, gifts 
and clothes 
. My brain 
. Iāll just go for the 9 days, itās not like Iāll lose my results.
. I fear being shown a fool for not being able to sell to my clients, I fear being seen as incompetent, I fear being scolded at by my superiors, etc. It makes me procrastinate and avoid what needs to actually be done. I need to tackle this head on by just doing it. 
per day. Thatās my goal. No point working longer if youāre inefficient. I NEED to do a proper workflow for myself.
Golden Heart Custom and it does have 
LBFH in it. I wonder how thatād change me.
. Not entirely sure whatās the best way to go about it. Complete abstinence? I think thatās Monk Mode. Also, Iām a little bit on the annoyed side today, so my recon is still subsiding. Donāt stress out, Beowulf 
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and workflows 
that will ease my confusion.
. Iām also glad to read otherās viewpoints coming directly from the horseās mouth 
, so I donāt get a misrepresentation of what they believe.
. I consume hours upon hours of social media (Youtube, Twitter, Reddit, etc) every single day for 
time-sink. If I had taken the time that I wasted on social media and used that on a useful skill instead, Iād honestly be an expert by now. I find social interaction of any kind to be so much more emotionally fulfilling than mindlessly browsing 
social media.
. Itās interesting, it must be because thereās a backlog of subliminal input that needed to be processed 
with one stone and Iām able to hit two habits at once.
go? Not terrible, thankfully. Iāve noticed something. I will ALWAYS open my phone 
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chain of habits.
Jogging ā 
Stretching ā 
Meditation ā 
Weightlifting ā 
Diet ā 
Piano
focused results. And this isnāt an exaggeration but I have tried implementing multiple major habits at the same and it always fails. So Iām not going to be stupid and do that again. I could add 
No PMO somewhere here too just for fun, though the P part of PMO is no longer an issue to me.
energy. I havenāt properly 
advance in every area of my life through the synergistic, self-compounding effects of every single habit I am doing every single day.
Absolutely beautiful.
Emperor Black + 
. Itās something that Iāve just accepted out of defeatism but dealing with it will give me dividends in all areas of my life. The energy and motivation it will give me WILL 
transform me radically.
ignition and 
fuel necessary to pursue and internalize all of my other habits. Reading other peopleās testimonials on the benefits theyāve gained from running is wide-ranging and inspiring - some that are pretty unexpected. I hope to gain plenty of benefits from this 
Silver Tongue custom in my 4th Cycle.
boy to a 
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Spidey-Senseā in which I have a tingling or anxious feeling that I should do something at that moment. If I donāt (based on my past experiences), I will regret it.
bull. Iām calm 95% of the time, very unaffected by what happens outside of me. But if you somehow manage to make me angry, I will let loose and let my anger all out on you. Thatās a major flaw I have that I need to work on.
upbringing and 
environment, since I constantly see this sort of thing around me and my lack of capability towards fixing it. It has trained me to constantly see the contradictions and find the truth in any situation so that I donāt fall into it - leading to me have a 
marginalized communities, to help others and to radically change systems are all a result of my childhood. So there is an upside to this.
On the Bright Side
ruin me. Now with this incident happening, I can safely say that this 
trajectory now. There was a silver lining here. It was a lesson that actually worked out in my favour. I had a 
. I honestly think this woman is just perfect for me and itās hard for me to just not appreciate having her everyday. This is probably like my 4th post talking about how much I love her haha. Also, it seems that Iām no longer really jealous of men flirting with her all the time. I just focus on other things and it no longer bothers me anymore, which is great! 
journal so far to know that stuff happens. Itās probably relatable too to a lot of people here who may feel the progress of people with crazy results on the forum seems out of reach for now. And itās good to look back at this 1 year from now and see this being a rather amusing thing in hindsight 
skills necessary in the first place.
wealth limits, exceptional 
persuasive abilities and charm alongside 
endless self-love spreading to those around me? The downsides can be tackled with by taking relentless action until I can build my initial capital. Then itās 
smooth-sailing from there.
A Fatherās Advice
father those same questions. He gave me some insightful answers. He said he felt accomplished and content at his age (60s). He decided to segue this into a 
Told me his regrets and to follow your intuition, not logic. And he then said in hindsight, his 
Godās plan.
physical state today, Iād wager itās closer to 16 weeks because of how bad my cardio is 
. Man, I love it though. That was a really good run even if it was only for 15 minutes. My abdomen and chest muscles were hurting, I was out of 
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. Slept a lot too today, must be my body readjusting to the input.
muse but itās always good to make some new friends