I feel like I am in a big reconciliation processā¦ which is coming to its end finally
After the exam, my world view got questioned. I always thought if you put enough effort, work hard and smart, you will succeed. But as @Simon said:
Khan is forcing me to grow up.
How was your stack when studying for this exam?
I was listening to Khan ST4 24/7. No other sub because I did not want to split up my listening time.
But donāt be fooled Khan St4 was the most potent learning sub I ever used. Never was I able to have such long study session, with sheer energy and motivation.
Congrats, @friday. Real inspiring journal by the way. Man, you are so young too. You got a whole life to live with these subs. Itās motivating me to not waste any time. Just started my own Khan journey too
Hey, I am Friday.
Back from the dead 
I might need to introduce myself again.
I started listening to Khan ST1 on June the third. After around 25 days of listening, I had to make a crucial career decision that had the potential of changing my life forever. I switched to ST4; and against all odds, I decided not to go the EASY route but to study for an exam many people thought is IMPOSSIBLE to pass in the given time frame. I knew by doing so, I would risk a safe place in an attractive university (but not the best, and not the one I desired), potentially even for years, but I decided to follow my gut feeling and work my balls off to achieve my DREAM.
And yeah, I passed.
I am now pursuing my dream by studying medicine at my desired university after passing the hardest exam of my life (with the help of hard fucking work and Khan ST4). After the completion of the exam, I travelled through Asia for more than a month to explore the culture, meet girls, and enjoooy life.
On this journey, I had some valuable insights, CRUSHED my comfort zone and grew up from a boy to a maybe less matured man. My goals changed, hence the changed thread title.
I want to excel at my studies, surpassing my colleagues, without trying hard but by working far more efficiently and thus having more time for my social and love life. Since listening to Khan, I fell in love with the beauty of the female. Not one girl in particular but the woman per se. If you know the Alabaster Girl by X, then you know what I mean
I donāt want to live a normal 0815 life, I want to date the HOTTEST girls around, have meaningful relationships, and just enjoy the ecstasy life brings. But the balance between my studies and my social life is essential.
I am currently COMPLETELY breaking my self-image down, putting it piece by piece together to become a new man. A man, who is comfortable with his sexuality to his deepest core. A man, who is cocky, dominant, free and unstifled. A man, woman dream about and man desire to be.
Even, if am currently living a lifestyle 80% of man would probably kill for, having different girls falling in love with me at the same time, I am working to improve myself.
As a wise man said: "The enemy of the best is the good"
The point is, I LIKE how I feel about myself. I LIKE how others think about me. But I realized that this is blocking me from a shot at being the BEST I can be. The process of changing who I am, at such a deep level, is not easy for me. My subconscious often still canāt grasp what is happing, as I used to be a shy nerd only 4 years ago, who "doesnāt deserve any hot girls which are out of my league". I am still sometimes limited by such beliefs as they are rooted deep. But I am working on that. And besides, all the hunger for more, I am just fucking grateful for life. Grateful, for being born and having all those possibilities.
In terms of Subliminals, I am still running only Khan St4 (since 6 months now). I just bought Quantum Limitless and will integrate it into my stack soon. I will keep you updated.
Maybe as I am back to this forum, @AMASH will reappear too
Glad to see you journaling again. I always enjoy your posts
Do you feel like that man who is, thinks and does whatever he wants? Are you the real man women dream about now? The man that other men respect?
I hear you on the shy guy turned stud. The advantage you have is youāre still young, you have at least 30 years to develop the life you want with this incredible technology at your disposal.
Congrats on passing your exam and making your desired progress 
Thatās outstanding news!
I promised to keep you guys updated but so far I did not really hold up to that 
So a lot of things have changed: On 01.12.19 I first added QL ST1 to my Khan St4 stack. I soon saw some early results, like enhanced creativity, higher work MOTIVATION and joy, creating better notes and fighting my PROCASTINATION, which I posted in detail in the Early Quantum Limitless Thread. Also, I noticed that thoughts come quicker and I just have a feeling for what is the right answer to a question. However, we have holidays right now so I didnāt see any new results in the last days. I am planning to run Q1 till New Year and then switch to St2.
But also my Khan stack CHANGED: On 15.12.19 I switched from Khan ST4 to St1. I talked to Fire about my feeling to have another breakdown. I changed so much since the last time running ST1 that I felt I would just need another time going through some traumas, and breaking down the thoughts holding me to achieve even more. I have some wild plans for the future where I will really āconquerā the world. I donāt really want to talk about because I first need to execute. I am sure some of you will get to know me āin the real worldā in the next 10 years. But there is definitely another breakdown needed for that. Khan is really giving me the mindset that I can achieve EVERYTHING. I am planning to run St1 till 01.02.20
All multi-stagers are a toolkit. Itās not like the first 3 audios become irrelevant after 3 months. 
Looking forward to discovering you in the real world. 
I am now only listening during the day and not playing them at all during the night.
I cannot say that I feel the effects more pronounced. When I first listened to St1 Khan I had some bad reconcilation in the first days while listening overnight
I donāt have that kind of reaction now but this could either be a result of the listening pattern but more likely because I listened to it before for 25 days.
HOWEVER, I do not feel so āfatiguedā. When I listened during the night, I had to sleep at least 8 hours to be fully rested. When I didnāt do so, I was a wrack. Now I am fine with less sleep
Total Breakdown is hitting hard againā¦
In the last two days, I have had dreams where I was fighting. I have studied some dream interpretation and found out that it is likely that in fighting dreams we are likely to fight against some part of us. So the interesting question is, what part of me I am fighting against? The dreams have been pretty similar. Yesterday, I dreamt that I was flying in the air and shooting at a bad āsuperwomanā to hit her before she could do harm. The dream resulted in us than fighting like Iron Man in the air with a kind of plasma cannon but without such a cool suit. Today, I then had a real Iron Man dream where I was Iron Man and somebody built another suit and we were fighting. In both cases, it was pretty close but I think I won in both in the end.
Old wounds breaking out again:
The last dream was really emotional for me. I dreamt that āmy girlā was laughing her ass off with another guy but in a way where you know there is a sexual connection between the two. I could literally feel what she felt, and that they will make out in a second. She reacted like that and was so open to that guy because she did not see me for some time. It felt very real as I indeed did not see her for some time due to holidays. Total Breakdown is working hereā¦ I always had a problem with other guys who are good at āgameā because of some traumas in my childhood.
But it was also so painful because it hit another trauma I had. I lost one of my first girls who I had a sexual connection with because I stopped seeing her - but not because of external circumstances but because I feared to have sex with her and to embarrass my self again (like the first time). I then stopped seeing her and made some excuses. After a while, she then broke up with me because she did not want to wait anymore until I finally want to see herā¦ This happened actually at around the same time, after New Yearā¦ After that encounter, I did not have had anything with any other girl for more than a year (expect ones). I then switched to Khan and everything changed since thenā¦ But with going back to Khan St1 this wound now opened againā¦
Back to daily journaling haha
I am amazingly astonished by the synchronicity again. I first had it with @Amash while we were both running Khan ST1 and now I have with @subliminalguy. After feeling so emotional yesterday, I felt the need to run ST1 solo myself to go over the threshold and break the traumas and limiting ideasā¦ I first only wanted to run ST1 till 01-02-20 but when I went to bed yesterday I thought about running it for around 6 months. So this is interesting hehe
Feeling better today, and made some plans to finally get out of my comfort zone and break those pitiful sexual limiting beliefs. I canāt live my whole life with them so I can also just go out and get some reference experiences. Even if I fail, get shamed, get some new traumas, whateverā¦ What I need to do right now is to just do it.
My dreams are getting weirder and weirder. I was again only looping Khan St1 over the day, and the fighting themes in my dreams continue.
I was dreaming that I was moving to my college where I would live at the campus. Quick side note: I dreamt of the guy who I talked about here (my last quote of my last post), who stole my chicks back then, told the class that I fancied one girl which I made him promise to never tell somebody, who is a weird asshole to me in real life nowadays. I dreamt I owed him some money. I did remember in the dream that HE owns me 9 bucks, which I told him, but he was relentless in asking for the money. So in the end, I gave it to him because I did not want trouble.
Fast-forwarding to my actual major happening in my dream: I ended up playing a game with my colleges (not sure if it was real or not in the dream) where we were on a mission together. We would break into houses on the campus and solve some missions. While doing this, we would get attacked by some NPC (non-playing-character). You can picture this like in the movie Inception where you dream characters would attack the intruder but only that mine would also ME.
)Omg what dreams bro, u could make this into a movie
My 6 months review of Khan:
2019 was amazing, letās make 2020 even better!
The combination of Khan and Ql is far more powerful than I imagined.
āTotal Breakdown will crumble every single trauma and concept that is holding you back into dust with extreme forceā
I always thought that this āhealing based subliminalā only works towards helping you heal your traumas or past experiences. Wrong!
Not sure if it is the combination of QL + Khan 1 or just the extended period of running Khan ST1 alone, but my subconscious is currently breaking down literally EVERYTHING that is holding me back.
This includes HABITS.
The biggest thing that is now holding me back from pure excellence and manifesting my dreams, is me WASTING TIME. We all tend to procrastinate, especially in the digital era we live in with our smartphones in hand-reach. New YT uploads every minute, text messages, Instagram you name it. We all know it. But Khan / Ql is currently beating me down showing me how much time I really waste. This doesnāt restrict itself to the obvious things like āspending too much time using our phonesā. We all know we should change that. It includes making me aware of the ālittle thingsā like how much time I was every morning, first looking at my smartphone reading through some messages then going to the bathroom where I shower with hot water still half-asleep for far to much time, then looking at myself in the mirror, at my skin, thinking about what to wear. Later sitting in the subway listening to music āto get a good feelingā, taking a break, waitingā¦ Most of the time of the day, we do NOT work on our goals or spend the time enjoying meaningful experiences (like quality time going out, seducing girls etc.) Most of the day we live in this semi-hypnotic state where we are in our ānothing boxā. Or even worse: We just waste time because there is nobody making us accountable. There is no urgency, no plan we follow. Looking back at my school time, I always procrastinated to the last point. I procrastinated until there was just enough time left to finish the project or study for my exam. And suddenly when there was this PRESSURE, the finish date which could not be changed to a later day, I could leave all behind and just work on my tasks. I am not saying that one should work 24/7 without pauses but Khan is beating me time when I just waste time - no pleasure or work. Especially since I have these high fucking goals which I gained over the last 6 months - if I want to achieve that I better stop wasting time and start doing everything that gets me closer to my goals.
~ Friday
What leads to wasting time?
It comes down to ONE very simple equation:
Lack of knowing what one should be doing + lack of energy (feeling of tiredness)
So the only question that needs to be answered is how to prevent both of these things? ALWAYS