Back to my roots - an Invictus journal

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#122

On Khan, I had a similar issue — not necessarily because I can not be that overtly dominant, leading Khan archetype but deep within it did not resonate and I was absolutely not congruent with it.

It gave me lots of conflicting reconciliation, almost torture like.

In the end — I believe, through Alchemy we can choose our personality, who we are, but it’s best to decide on a paradigm and associated programs that are already resonant with our inner qualities and being.

For me, I’m just like you… my power lies in my social abilities, charm, wittyness, humour, kindness, and scripts related to these qualities I execute immediately, instantly, and without much reconciliation.

It makes me wonder whether Primal is really for me…

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#123

Nah, it was just a self reflective post.

Khan + WANTED is beautiful, and it has opened up a new pathway for WANTED, as I’m not feeling like WANTED is just in a “maintenance mode” anymore.

Here’s the thing, that’s not how Khan is expressing itself as, the only reason for the post is because khan is actually making my realize what I really am, to focus my growth there.

You might see Khan as overtly dominant, but that’s how I felt on Emperor, while as Khan is much smoother, and in my custom, this custom just feels like a superior version of Sauvage ZPT (my favorite Stark + WANTED custom).

So all is good, was just reflecting and sharing.

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#124

You are very much lucky to be born in a rich AND sensible family AND AND know subclub.

#125

Rich family?

90% of the stuff you read on here comes as results of the subs, or with my own money.

Most people who know me from here, know that before I started work, I was only taking a small pocket money from my dad per week, which compared to my current monthly pay, is less than 1% of what I earn per month.
So before assuming that I have a rich family, understand that whether they are rich or not, it doesn’t actually matter, because I have been fully independent for the last 5-6 months, and even took the responsibility of my siblings’ monthly allowances, as well as handling 30% of the house bills (I offered).

So yeah, it’s not the family, it’s just the life that I breathed into existence.

P.S. I do understand your envy at times, but trust me man, it’s pointless, because if you haven’t read before, I mentioned in one of my journals about the healing with love bomb and my dad.
I never had that good of a relationship with him up until the end of last year, and even then, it only really started slowly getting better only around February (he didn’t even attend my graduation because he just wasn’t bothered).

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#126

Well
I think I misjudged your relationship with your father, and I think we both can have good things. It’s more of “GHEBTAH” feeling than “HASAD”. You know what I mean as a Muslim.
About love bomb, anyways let’s leave it there.
If I was to edit my last post, I would replace family with society. MY father is VERY VERY toxic and ENVIOUS person and he does not know english in his 60’s.

#127

then stop trying to use subs for “Power”, and focus on your relationship.

instead of complaining to life, own it, cause no one is gonna help you until you learn to help yourself, and while you might have this belief that using such high status/power related subs will help you, they won’t, because all you’re doing is making it worse for yourself by chasing power out of envy.

Go heal yourself.

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#128

Blah blah blah :expressionless:
I don’t see the need.

#129

I mean I’m sorry to disappoint but @Invictus is right on this. No one can change your future except yourself. Blaming your dad for whats happening is not going to change your life if anything it would make it worse. If you want to change your life, you have to do it yourself no one else can do it for you:)

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#130

I don’t remember blaming anyone
I need to get away from him

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#131

@Alphamale
I think you should post your comments, concerns, and questions in Questions and Comments. Try to respect Invictus’ journey and support him in it. Perhaps, you could create your own journal to share it all with us or go back to the old one, mate. :blush:

Invictus I’m glad that you shifted from trying to achieve some external goals to becoming the hero to whom getting what you desire is something “natural and effortless”. That’s a great shift to defining the one you want to become and striving to become “him”.

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#132

When you call someone lucky, it’s an act of positivity.
Me and Invictus had some quarrel and it does not stop me from posting my comments on his journal sometimes, however he had been rude towards me multiple times after that, but it is what it is.

#133

I highly doubt most people would feel the same thing… Most people say that others got lucky out of envy or jealousy.

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#134

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#135

I mean no income tax so not gonna lie that’s pretty fun

#136

I don’t know if it’s still the richest country in the world having 13 percent of gas reserves.

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#137

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#138

What if you were to throw out these labels, do you think it would help you develop in the ways you truly want to?

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#139
#140

That’s the thing
I hate those terms, which is why I avoid using them to describe myself, hence why I also don’t participate in topics that discuss the so-called “alphamale mindset”, it just sounds to me like people use such words to justify their ignorance regarding the virtues of what makes a man.

In fact, in my humble opinion, talks about “alphas”, “betas”, and “sigmas” seem to me like socially constructed terms to keep the general male population caught up in a cycle of self criticism and doubt, by making them feel inadequate as men, simply because they don’t meet the criteria of either an “alphamale” or a “sigma male”.

But yeah, I was just using the labels to solidify my points that I made from my self reflection, and the one thing I’m sure of now is that my biggest strength, and it’s what I want to continuously develop, is that I’m a people’s person, and I feel much more content knowing that someone had a nice time with me, than feeling my “authority” over someone else.

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#141

Sounds like you’re trying to give evil eye

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