I have on and off the last week been dealing with a core issue around jealousy, not trusting
and not being ‘the one’ to have what I want in life.
This conflux of insecurities/emotions has been dormant most of this year and I thought it was gone.
And while it is not gone-it has a very ‘lite’ flavor compared to the past.
From my chosen worldview-there is still something for me to heal/learn/grow from here which is why it may be arising again.
Did a loop of DRQV2- SOOO much easier to listen to and run -feeling profoundly relaxed and cacoony - no ear pressure like previous Q- and feel my breathing is getting better-like on my paragon custom and in paragon Ultima. I’m tempted to go back to stage 1 with QV2 or run stage 2 significantly longer but I think I’ll just do a week or so more on QV2. Then switch to stage 3 Q for a week and then stage 3 QV2.
I went rock climbing by myself today. This is the first year in years I’ve been able to be really physically active and I forgot how much I love physical sport/skills. Training and performing in sports might be my favorite thing, next to really good sex, and perhaps an excellent conversation.