Day 29 of 60 - 1 loop ( Tuesday- 14th June 2022) - 2nd Cycle started - day 3
Cant recall if there was anything to mention. Ah yes there was some drama at home and my sis was offloading about it on me so then when it came to the moment that my bro brought it up I just logically laid it out to him. My sister gave me full credit and praise in how I handled it. Something they all at home dont see me do usually when im leading people and situations but nice to get some credit for it from home.
Day 30 of 60 - no loop ( Wednesday- 15th June 2022 - part 1) - 2nd Cycle started - day 4
Its 4.56am, its my birthday and im feeling childish and immature - due to a situation im about to explain and describe. So my family have given me well wishes which is cool.
I have an online team that I lead that work on a voluntary endeavour. So 2hours into the day (ie 2am) one member of this voluntary team woke up as she lives on the other side of the planet from me and wished me happy birthday causing the others that saw that to wish me happy birthday.
The girl im kinda seeing from the previous post upon seeing this then wished me happy bithday.
It all just seemed fake, that the others are wishing it due to the first one remembering and she, the first one to wish it me, only remembered cos I wished her it on her birthday, literally 3 days ago.
I felt annoyed and dejected. Am being way too childish but i know the rest of you will say this is probably recon so whatever it is im mentioning it here.
if anything else to report during my day ill add to this post.
Part 2
I fell asleep and woke and my feelings from above continued. At first I seemed ok but yeah it got worse and during the whole day I felt kinda apathetic and dead inside. Not shit but just didnt wanna talk to anyone or communicate with anyone yet when I had to I spoke normally.
I feel like I just want to get away and kinda fed up of people and life.