Day 24 of 60 - NO loop ( Thursday- 9th June 2022) - DAY 3 of 5 of Washout -
Today nothing different to share than before except that I felt fear towards aspects of me leaving my comfort zone and going out into the big world.
That fear is there so that hasnt been touched as yet it seems and this fear, this inner hesitation as well as the procrastination are the areas im more eager to see change to know the sub truly is or has worked on me and for me.
I like others wonder what subs ill move on to next but I know there is no point me spending money until this one proves its worked on me and for me.
Its seems to be showing signs but those signs may also be how I have felt in the past as its nothing new - however new for me would be regular consistent action in the face of fear or procrastination.
That aside im nearing to my half way point of the 60days.
It seems to me and this is a thought I have had all day long, that if I feel the same at day 60 as I do now then I may simply stick on this sub for another 30 days cycle and perhaps another and another until I am certain this is working before adding another sub on top.
Today the fear of stepping out of my comfort zone wasnt nice.
Extra:
So this im unsure if I should add but ill add it I guess. So normally when a family friend comes over im overly chatty, friendly, joking etc. Kinda hyper and jovial. The soul of the party you could say and this person comes over pretty much every weekend as weâre the closest family he has.
Anyway today i wasnt this way. I dont know I noticed I was more poised and calm and just not eager to well joke or please unnecessarily. Not sure if it was my mood that was off or this sub but I noticed it.