2nd DRST2 Cycle Finished
- Q(LBFH,LD) + Q(GLM)
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- DRST2.2
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- Q(LBFH,LD) + Q(GLM)
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- DRST2.2
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- Q(LBFH,LD) + Q(GLM)
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- DRST2.2
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- Q(LBFH,LD) + Q(GLM)
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- DRST2.2
What happened?
Almost everyday I wanted to run a new sub. I analyzed so much info but never switched or added anything. Now I’m thinking I should slow down despite getting so much results. Ppl are telling me I’m doing too much. I have 3 cores + DR and it might be better to take LD and GLM out and just do a LBFH custom and DR.
I kept having moments where I realized I have be acting way different than I would have before, despite feeling like not much was happening some days. I am more social and I forgot or didn’t realize how much I interacted with my friends. Normally I isolate myself from ppl and ignore them. I respond more often. and it feels normal. Feels like my guard is down because theres less to guard. So I am more comfortable interacting with ppl and actually enjoy their company without feeling burdened.
The subs have been working on an issue I have been dealing with throughout my whole life. It could be the biggest source of pain in my life. I’m afraid to change the stack because I want to have this worked on deeper. I don’t want to risk my subconscious shifting focus.
I’m more resilient. If I go down, the low doesn’t pull me down as much, the negativity doesn’t linger as much or as long and I get back up much quicker.
I am feeling less influenced by brainwashing. I see how the content I am watching and the ppl around me are influencing me and I go into a spectator view of my mind more often.
I have been exercising more. Not hard but I am. Still missing many days but theres definitely an improvement in my activity levels.
I wasted a lot of my time this cycle. Very unproductive. Binging on movies and tv shows. Read tons of stuff for subclub forum.
Didn’t work much but I didn’t need to. Manifested a couple opportunities to make more money. On one I have been slacking once I stopped working on it for a day. The other is still being sorted out.
My drive has always been a come and go thing. It was low when it came to finances. I just wanted entertainment and postponed things this cycle. Most of my drive was spent on being intense on shifting my mindset.
My diet has been good. Not great(my standard for health is very high so ‘not great’ is really healthy to most ppl on the SAD). The food I ate is healthy nothing processed. But I ate a lot sporadically. I would be restless and go eat. I’m not worried about this tho. I don’t have any weight issues. I just am thinking of my health long term. For long term I should eat the best I can so I can be as healthy as I can. And I have made major improvements towards that direction.
I keep repeating the same patterns and stay in the same place in my life. There are huge changes I want in my life and that hasn’t happened yet. Years go by and I’m still where I’m at. But I am removing some blocks preventing that. Brick by brick. I wonder if I am going about it the right way. Why not change things now? I don’t want to wait. But changing now has never worked. Why do I stay where I am and why don’t I change? Am I thinking about life all wrong? Am I delusional or realistic? If i’m expecting life to be a certain way that it can’t be, then thats a problem.
Whenever I try to challenge these loops directly it always comes back around someway or another. History repeats itself. Everyday is just a time loop with different variations but the same themes.
This confusion has been in the back of my head for years. What can I do that I haven’t done before. because what I have done before never works.