A Stark Black Phoenix Rising 🔥

Journals - Major Programs
#11

Day 4 ~ rest

Woke up to more subscribers and views on YouTube.
Lots of comments on one of my videos. I’m talking paragraphs. :rofl:
Experienced my first troll on YouTube.
More messages from friends and clients on Facebook.
I’m feeling a surge of energy at the base of my spine .
I’m not ruminating as much with my current matters at hand.
I had a bit of an anger release yesterday in my kitchen. I screamed “stop it” like a wild animal.
I had the strangest dream about me with a baby and I was waiting for my ex fiancé. My son’s dad was using the toilet in front of me too.
I woke before the alarm.
Had a really good session with a new Reiki client today.

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#12

Day 5 ~ full loops of SB & Phoenix

I realize that I have been leaving room in my day for frustration and anger. Straight up intending annoying and anger inducing experiences. Holy heck!
It clicked while doing reiki on a client earlier.

The feeling is the secret eh Neville! :rofl:

I felt annoyed and angry so I attracted situations relating as such.

Love the awareness and noticing but also doing some changes.

I find myself communicating much more boldly with people.

A client showed up early and I was very direct with her. Before I probably would have just pretended I wasn’t bothered by it.

My one client is gonna be coming weekly now.
Another client paid for and booked a “one off” session with me today! Yay :grinning:

Someone asked about 2 of my yin yoga videos I sell.

I’ve been coming up with so many ideas :bulb:

Thank you amazing subs for kicking my ass!

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#13

I had a couple people trolling a Facebook reel of mine so I decided to get inspired and make a post instead of arguing with them.

#14

Day 6 ~ rest day

Weird crazy processing dreams. That is all! :rofl:

Up before my alarm.

Felt like dancing to Whitney Houston before my coffee. :coffee:

Lounging around with youngest right now.

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#15

Day 7 ~ full loops of both titles.

Only 9am and already made 2 videos and uploaded them to YouTube.

Did some free flow yoga and put my bare feet on the frozen grass as the sun was rising.

Had a bunch of weird processing dreams again.

Had a big realization while listening to Phoenix and cried a little.

Did an oracle reading followed by a little journalling in my notebook.

Be curious and open to what presents itself in the wake of the falling away.

#16

Day 8 ~ rest day

Weird processing dreams with minimal recall. Didn’t want to get out of bed when I woke up. Enjoyed the relaxation.

I had to sit through over 4 hours on an annual phone call today. That was HELL! I handled it well though.

edit: I keep coming up with the best ideas.

I’m enjoying the way I am using my Mind on this stack.

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#17

Day 9 ~ full loops of both

A baby was staring at me from across the cafe when I arrived. I swear she became very jolly like in my presence.

While I was talking at my table the girls behind the counter were staring at me and smiling.

I feel very powerful right now. It’s a bit intense but manageable.

I’m noticing myself daydreaming about high profile powerful masculine men. I dreamed of one last night.

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#18

Day 10 ~ rest day

Holy effing dreams guys! Playing out traumas fears and all that jazz.

Facing a lot but feeling that everything is gonna be okay. :white_check_mark:

I was laying in bed thinking that I’ll probably benefit from keeping Phoenix in my stack long term.

While my kettle was warming up I made 3 shorts for YouTube and already uploaded them on my platform.

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#19

Having a lot of Dejavu moments while watching things. It’s like I’ve already heard what they’re saying before but I haven’t in the 3D.

Some form of timeline shifting maybe

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#20

traumas fears and all that metal*

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#21

That’s more accurate! Nice one. :rofl:

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#22

thank you thank you, I’m personally on a WB/PN stack, it helped me tremendously (along with using lexapro which made huge steps too)

opened up to people, all ages from children to elderly, I enjoy making people smile.

Seems my ability to read people got heightened to 100, and I realize I can read the room and aid people better than my 2 group psychologists, so I’m thinking of studying psychology and becoming one that actually helps people.

I don’t see myself using phoenix because I love myself, but I wonder, after you’re done with it, what sub are you looking to experiment with? will it be a singular or a stack? or returning to an old one?

#23

Seductress for sure :+1: or Seductress Dark.
Stark or Stark Black
Not sure on a third title atm.

I am enjoying Phoenix.

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#24

Oo la la!
You’ve definitely got the face to pull off seductress. I’d say go for the dark variation!

I went for WB/PN because they’re very recent and updated to the latest tech and unlike the things I’ve tried like two years ago, I actually feel a very noticable change.

Stark black seems to have a lot of good talk on it but I’m way less familiar with this one.

Overall I like to keep it simple with two subs, just for the ease of mind you know, 1 loop of each every other day, no need to worry or care too much :slight_smile: plus these subs cover a huuuuge spectrum so you’re probably not missing much.

Good luck

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#25

I’ve been listening to Seductress for over a year and Stark almost the same.

Took a pause to allow that bloom.

I like to keep it simple. Enjoying the 2 sub stack lately as well.

It’s nice to leave the third slot open just in case… :smiley:

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#26

that’s awesome, now you gotta join the dark side and step into your shadow eh?

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#27

After reading about Jessica Dark and the upcoming Seductress Dark title, I began diving into my dark shadowy side. I read Existential Kink and a book about dark feminine energy.

I have done shadow work before but nothing like this. :smiling_imp:

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#28

damn! you go girl!
Wish my female psychologist was similar to you in that regard. been trying to crack her facade for a while now, don’t have much time left with her :stuck_out_tongue:

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#29

If you’re looking for someone new to work with, I know someone. Hahaha

I’m kidding, sort of.

I’m not a psychologist. I have a psychology background though.

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#30

I won’t survive online psychology sessions, plus I kinda realized I’m not fit to be treated, I’m not sick, I am however a great leader and a mentor with loads of charisma (enfj-a, if you’ve heard about mbti), so it’s a natural direction for me to take.

Seems hard to pursuade a working woman to overstep ethical boundries, but I gotta give it my 120%, if not I’ll regret it.

I really wish the universe wouldn’t put such a gorgeous woman in need of rescue behind a glass wall :stuck_out_tongue:

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