My sexual relationships are developing to the point where soon it’ll be authentic to start having sex with them.
Didn’t rush into anything. Didn’t push anything away unless it was bad for me,
Just waited for good timing and the timing has come.
On a washout right now (that will definitely get cut short)
But at the moment, considering adding DivD or PN to the stack.
Going all out on wealth for a while. Pausing this journal, to keep it true to its roots of social, personal, and sexual mastery through Khan.
New journal who dis?
Just EOG 1& 2 for a while. Wealth focus 100%. Maybe TWTP as a support.
I’m not manifesting anything related to women so Khan doesn’t totally fit my goals rn.
EOG is a stack buster haha.
I was leaning towards EOG 1+2 as well, but not sure how they stack together. Also curious what is optimal for just improving sales performance as I may have to come back to EOG 1 at a time where I’m not full grind mode.
Upon first glance, I would say that EOG 2 is the best for sales, would you agree?
I should point out that I have two “casual girlfriends” at the moment so, I don’t feel the need to keep maximizing my social/seduction game on Khan right now compared to fully focusing on EOG/wealth and then coming back to Khan later.
Both psuedo-relationships are very fulfilling and not demanding at all. If one falls off, other girls will replace them. I’m the one giving or not giving attention to women in my life based on how much time I have for them, not the other way around. it’s nice.
The biggest thing stopping me from Khan’s objectives is wealth, and, I want to solve that as fast as possible.
Will keep posting relationship stuff even tho I’m not actively running Khan atm. Khan permanently changed me. And I’ll return to Khan soon.
Ended one “casual girlfriend” dynamic because she was actually just love-bombing me (in a bad way) as part of her anxious-avoidant dance. Once I saw it for what it was, I cut it off. It was nice while it lasted, and I’m glad I cut it off exactly when I did, no sooner or later.
Learning a lot about my attachment styles. Mark Groves and others have great resources on YT.
I’m starting to think that all personal development (socially/relationally) can be summed up as earning a secure attachment style. It’s the best “personal development goal” for self-work, as it’s very specific and well defined, while also being widely focused on almost all areas of life.
I’m pretty secure already in a lot of ways, but even being secure, it’s still been extremely valuable to question myself, checking into my body at all times while interacting to ask myself “am I being secure with myself, am I meeting my own needs before asking her to meet mine, am I speaking while grounded, am I comfortable with her wanting more/less space, am I comfortable in my desire for connection, am I comfortable not getting it, how do I feel right now, etc.”
And in some ways i have those insecure attachments patterns show up and they’re great to work through
Damn… This explains why my five year relationship ended. I spent four years, never asking for anything, and then I spent a year, asking for things frustrated that I never got them. Because I needed to start asking for things for the first year, to see if she was willing to give things, Not wait until the last year and then have an expectation that she would just because I did first.
Saving this for no particular reason
So I ran primal nights a day or two before a date.
Sub worked perfectly, but, I used it on the wrong girl. She needed the DivD experience, not Primal Nights.
With great power comes great responsibility.
Do you think your experience with stage 3 was mainly due to not running stage 1 in forever?
That’s a huge factor,
But also, I just didn’t really WANT to take action.
I was post-break up, being extremely restrained in sex and connection, still lost and not working/employed.
I wanted to develop myself, I wanted to feel like I was fashionable, and hot, and attractive, and powerful.
That’s the domain of ST2, not 3.
I think if I REALLY needed to run stage 1, then ST2 would have been hard, but it was an easy run for me. Only 3 was hard.
Sometimes the action you need to take is waiting for external conditions to change and minding your own business and doing some inner work while doing it. Externaly it does not look like you are doing much, but internally you may be doing a lot.
Not sure if that applies here, just sayin
interesting
Physical shifting journal
Currently tracking fitness WITHOUT running a fitness sub.
Will calculate how much weight I can lose and how much muscle I can gain in 1-3 months without any subs.
Then I will run a fitness sub (LoTS likely) for the same amount of time as the baseline test and see how much body recomposition I’m able to accomplish.
The tests won’t be exactly the same as I’ll have “‘newbie gains” when I start. Also, I somehow hit 168lbs… my ideal weight is 155, and I might just fast on/off to lose the weight, while eating protein.
But that’ll be part of the fun. Does LoTS help me break the plateau, if/when it comes?
We’ll find out.
tattoos make men seem healthier and more attractive (I’ve been wanting some for a while anyways)
stubble makes more attractive
red makes more attractive
and of course good health in general we already knew that
Interesting about the tattoos.
Spent a long time on IG - found a guy willing to do this tattoo for 600CAD - now I’m just redesigning or getting inspo for the different components.
Might want to change the specific components but I love this general framework
And of course will make one of the circles an ouroboros, probably make another one a zen circle
Sick tattoo I might steal it for myself
