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#156

I had an experience today I did not expect. Since I was at home doing absolutely nothing, I chose to listen to Phoenix early and allow it to settle.

What happened is that I grew tired within 30 minutes of listening and I took a long nap.

I did settle. Deeply. My body was physically relaxing, unlike I’ve done in a long time. I actually had memories of a girl I dated in college. She was in her early twenties, but she could still sleep for 12 hours straight and have no issue with it at all. Her grandma thought she was lazy. And I never understood it. Considering I’d already been in the workforce for a number of years, sleeping in late like that wasn’t an option. And she’d gone straight from high School to college, never having to work a job.

Today I completely understood it. My brain was shut down, quietly healing, and allowing the rest to do its work. I wanted to hold on to that while I was awake, and it reminded me of LB. When LB was reintroduced a few years back, I had a unique experience where suddenly I was involuntarily avoiding someone who was very very demanding of me and my attention. I said involuntarily because I had never stood up to this person. I soon read that LB was scripted to have me avoid people who drained me of love. This was Earth shattering to me.

And today I felt like LB was fighting for me by having me stay in bed and soak up the change that was happening in me. It felt similarly like it did years back in my gut.

I feel kind of dumb saying this, but it’s been a while since I read the objectives for LB

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#157

I just read the objectives for Love Bomb. I saw some things that I’ve been overlooking. And I saw what may have influenced me today.

It’s actually the same objective I saw years back affecting me.

“Ensure protection from misuse of one’s loving energy and from exploitation by others, fostering an environment of mutual respect and understanding.”

I feel vulnerable because the abuser years back was someone else. I could point the finger at him. The only abuser today was myself. I was not protecting myself. I’ve been ignoring my own signals. I’ve not been kind or really caring to myself.

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#158

Day 37

I woke up feeling nicer to myself. More specifically, I felt forgiveness at work. I’m struggling with it now. Don’t know why.

Love bomb is active.

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#159

I had gotten up early this morning, which has not been my norm. So I had wiggle room concerning time.

My last post I said that I was struggling. Right after I posted it, I turn off my lights and set my phone timer for 10 minutes. I laid down in my bed.

What strikes me is that as soon as I turned out my lights, a pained cry came from my lips. Enough for me to know that I was letting something go.

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#160

Day 38

Something is constantly moving in me. I took off work 2 days ago, listened to Phoenix midday, and had an unusually long nap right after. Something shifted in me.

I’m excited and scared because I’m imagining and welcoming things I’ve wanted which I didn’t allow before. I’m imagining being with a woman. I’m imagining sharing my mind. I’m actually imagining saying and doing things I’ve wanted to do–and that is so unusual for me. It’s also incredibly exciting.

A raw perspective: I usually feel like I’m wrapped up by a large snake. I sense something I want, and the physical compression either never loosens, or it squeezes tighter. Even recently, I’ve cried and whined trying to hold on to a sense of freedom, but the restriction got uncomfortably tighter. During those times, I realize forcing my way leads to more shame, pain, and regret. It leads to believing I’m powerless.

This change is a shock because I’m used to fighting, not accepting. But oh… this is a GOOD shock!

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#161

@qOS,

I’ve been considering long-term goals, and I’m highly likely to do a third cycle with Phoenix.

Post-Phoenix, I’ve seen the suggestions for stacking Peace with Heartsong, and I’m drawn to it since I desire a good relational foundations.

On my next cycle I’m considering replacing Ascension with Peace, and I’m wondering how Peace would mix with Phoenix. What might I expect?

Additionally, the one module I’ve considered but have not followed through with is adding Aphrodite to my Phoenix custom. This one may hit deep, plus it’s for a fear of missing out. Would including this in the third cycle be wise? One benefit I see is that Phoenix has been working on other issues continually, so the sexual side may not be as stressful since it won’t be competing as much.

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#162

Strange coincidence.

My biggest fear I’ve had about switching to Peace is that I’ve thought I’d be ditching LB.

Seriously, LB has been kicking in, and I’m desiring it more and more.

The reality check for me is… it’s in my Phoenix custom already. So my concern was non-founded.

Good to know. Since I’m craving it.

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#163

I just scanned through Heartsong’s sales page, and some of the modules caught my attention. I think I know why I like this, so I’m writing it out.

About 3 years back I ordered a subliminal from a company which has been around many years. This subliminal contained all the main issues needing to be addressed in a relationships. I used the sub for about 2 months.

One issue was stating my needs clearly. Initially, since I always kept my thoughts to myself, I’d get irritated when somebody was doing something that I wished them to stop or change. This probably sounds really strange to people who normally speak up for themselves, but…, I rarely spoke up for myself. And even less than that, I rarely clearly stated what I liked and disliked.

It was a brand new experience saying I like this, or I don’t like that. I did not grow up like that, and I’m rarely around people who are so direct. Suddenly I was speaking up for myself. I regularly wondered if I was being offensive. But I learned that it was okay. That people were perfectly okay accommodating me when I was direct.

In short, it was freeing and personally empowering. Before this, I would normally be irritated, feeling powerless over other people’s actions. And suddenly… I had a voice. That felt like the strangest new thing in my life. And I loved it.

Heartsong addresses this too. How can I ever be in an honest relationship if I’m not sharing my thoughts clearly and directly? I want some of that.

#164

Question from @subliminalguy (original post):

@qOS , I’ve been considering long-term goals, and I’m highly likely to do a third cycle with Phoenix. Post-Phoenix, I’ve seen the suggestions for stacking Peace with Heartsong, and I’m drawn to it since I desire a good relational foundations. On my next cycle I’m considering replacing Ascension with Peace, and I’m wondering how Peace would mix with Phoenix. What might I expect? Additionally, the one module I’ve considered but have not followed through with is adding Aphrodite to my Phoenix custom. This one may hit deep, plus it’s for a fear of missing out. Would including this in the third cycle be wise? One benefit I see is that Phoenix has been working on other issues continually, so the sexual side may not be as stressful since it won’t be competing as much.
Summary

@subliminalguy — yes, PEACE mixes well with Phoenix, and the swap fits where you are heading. Phoenix is a heavy clearing title that brings a lot of material up by design, and PEACE is a settling title. Pairing one heavy clearing title with a settling one is the pattern we recommend. PEACE also pairs naturally with the original Love Bomb already in your Phoenix custom, because it gives that love a whole, unhurried self to grow from.

What you might expect

In the first weeks, the change may show up in how the Phoenix burn feels. Material still surfaces, because that is Phoenix’s work, but your body is less braced when it arrives. As your nervous system relaxes, PEACE tends to let old tension release on its own, and the emotion may run its course instead of being held for weeks. The tight, squeezed feeling you have written about is the kind of grip it works on. Sleep often comes more easily.

A few months in, the scenes may get ordinary in a good way. Your pulse may stay level in a conversation that used to tighten you. You may be in the room with the person in front of you instead of composing your next sentence. Phoenix’s new view of yourself may land on steadier ground, so it has less to fight. Your drive stays. PEACE changes where it comes from, so motivation may run on clarity rather than pressure. People around you may also become calmer and more open, which is co-regulation rather than an aura.

By the end of the cycle you are likely to have the ground Heartsong builds on. Heartsong recommends Attuned with PEACE as a foundation pairing, with PEACE returning you to the unforced self and Attuned carrying that into love.

One thing changes when Ascension leaves. Your Ascension custom carried outward confidence and presence, along with ESSENCE: Human Connection, Wholeness in Connection, Speaking Without Armor and Finding Your Voice. PEACE has no aura or attraction scripting, so that outward side will not come from it. Synergy: Beyond Connection and Love Bomb stay with you in the Phoenix custom.

Aphrodite

Yes, it is a sound addition, and for more than a fear of missing out. Aphrodite is a healing module for sexual trauma and negative sexual beliefs of every kind, including shame and repression, and it helps you embrace who you are sexually. The inadequacy around women you have written about, and locking up in a sexually charged moment, sit squarely in its territory.

Your reasoning holds in part. Phoenix has already cleared a lot of ground, so Aphrodite has less to compete with. Like any healing module, though, it brings reconciliation, and inside a Phoenix custom that arrives alongside Phoenix’s own fire. Running PEACE in the same cycle gives it good support. Your Phoenix custom has room for it under the 20-module cap.

A note on the hard days: PEACE makes it safe to face what Phoenix and Aphrodite bring up, so reconciliation may still come in waves, usually on a more even baseline than before. If it ever becomes overwhelming, ease back and consider professional support alongside.

My recommendation is to make the swap and add Aphrodite for the third cycle, then move to Heartsong: Attuned with PEACE once Phoenix is done. Listening guidance is in the official instructions: https://instructions.subliminalclub.com

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#165

That sounds like an excellent stack. I love the in depth qOS responses. It truly helps to understand how titles interact, especially customs.

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#166

I agree. It’s a huge confidence booster when I think back not too long ago. I’d be loaded with fear trying to make decisions about future subs. It was often all or nothing thinking. I feared making mistakes, as I saw even small mistakes as reflections of low value.

I feel like I’m losing some of that shame stronghold. Asking the system for help is a small proof that something is missing–old beliefs that I’m only worthy of punishment. Old roots are being eliminated.

It’s amazing. Sticking with a sub means something will change.

Sidenote: my 4-5 month run with Emperor a few years back was a first for me. I truly miss the mentality I was put into. Ambition. Vision. Constantly knowing what I wanted and needed to do. And…resilience. The belief that “I’ll get through this s***!”

I pulled off because…, owning this now… because I made an Emperor custom with more than I could handle. I looped in failure thinking. I blamed Emperor and pulled off SC subs for some months.

I’d insisted I was right when the truth is that I absolutely would not go near feeling like a failure. I’d feel too small. Too unwanted. I told noone.

But I did feel small and unimportant. I spent months on another vendor’s subs, never touching that core belief. But…
knowing I’d had genuine experiences here at SC is what drew me back.

I feared failure as I considered returning. Yet I knew healing those roots and beliefs was truly necessary. I didn’t think I’d change. Or… maybe I was so terrified of change because I believed if you saw what I saw and believed about myself, you’d never ever want to be near me. <<<<------ THAT is the truth.

Sad. Crying some, on and off.

No one wants to face this sh**. But seeing it and running away is my constant reality otherwise. So I said “F*** it”. Face pain here, or be on constant lookout for it, where I’m expecting it to show wherever I go.

Truth: Emperor put this persistence in me. And the resilience (in Phoenix too) is what kept me at it. Thank you SubClub.

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#167

That’s the thing about inner work if you had a childhood with tons of abuse and neglect. I get it. DRReg and PEACE did a ton to calm my nervous system and somewhere my confidence has stabilized.

PEACE helped quite a bit with that, but there were other subs also that I’m sure added to it. My neglect was different than yours but the effects I think were very similar. I don’t think I overcompensated too much, but I never felt as though I was enough. I didn’t feel worthy.

It’s interesting that you ran Emperor. I’ve changed my trading custom a little and will have the Emperor Reforged core in it. I genuinely didn’t consider the Emperor series for more than one reason but Reforged is such a good fit for me and what I want to work on. It has a ton of wealth focus also which I wasn’t expecting. I only considered it because very recently the Essence version was released and it caught my attention so I looked into the store title and was sold big time for my current wants and needs.

It sounds like to me you’re headed on the right track. It sounds as though you are thinking about running PEACE, and I genuinely hope you do Brother. I’ll gently nudge you to that because just one full round in (30 listening days) I’m loving it.

I’ll tell you, be sure to journal if you decide to run PEACE. You are already doing an awesome job with the journaling but PEACE is so dang subtle for most of it you most likely won’t realize a bunch of stuff is changing. It just seems to take a little, calms it and then integrates it so naturally and easily you miss quite a bit until either someone notices, or something that normally would trigger you all of a sudden doesn’t and you realize it. It helps tremendously with sleep also.

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#168

Thank you @Forexpreneur. Your words are meaningful.

I do expect PEACE to be subtle, but at the same time, I look forward to relaxing. I’m tense a lot, and I purposely choose a physically demanding job since I can blow it off–and I’m paid to do it. It’s a win for me.

I just know that I can’t do this forever. Being able to stop… and stay still…is a gift to myself.

I’ll put this out there. Is it me, or do the sales pages pull you in to their reality… and keep you there? For days.

The more I think of the next cycle, the more I’m living there…in my head. Taking on a relaxed mindset NOW. Thinking of how I’ll be if I go to town TODAY.

That’s some powerful copyrighting, I’ll say

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#169

You are very welcome and I’m truly glad I’ve been able to help in some meaningful way.

And no, it’s not just you, the sales copies (sales pages) are damn good. The truth is they are written for different types of mindsets also. I do like the story aspect of the copy but I also need the checklist style also and it has all of that.

But for me, it’s not just the copy, it’s what’s in the dang subs. PTSD is absolutely no joke. Therapy didn’t help that much but these subs did. Saint and Fire are a team. I know Saint has written subs also but Fire is the main genius behind most of the subs. But Saint is incredible with the copywriting portion and also in the forum, qOS, etc. They need each other to make this company work the way it does.

As far as being able to stop and stay still, PEACE should do it, but like I said, it is subtle. It’ll take you a little bit to realize it’s working, but it is and it should really help you to calm down and feel much better with yourself.

Use microloops though. I know it sounds crazy but stick to 30 seconds for a few loops then increase to one minute. My first round I never went past 3 minutes but I dropped it back down because of some recon. The reason why I suggest that with you is that, even though our childhoods were seemingly different, the abandonment and neglect seem to be quite identical. My Mother was never an alcoholic or drug addict, she just wasn’t in my life much and I was shoved away all the time.

Anyway, thank you for your kind words in turn. I do greatly appreciate it. And I’ll keep reading your journal.

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#170

Day 40

Day off work. I feel like I’m in another changeover for beliefs and goals.

First off, I took another long nap. Like my body’s been seeking to rest. And my mind is visualizing things I’ve not considered in ages.

Specifically, I woke up remembering feeling like this while I was on Emperor. Sure of what I wanted. Physically relaxed because of that. Imagining possibilities without tons of fear and self doubt.

It was a certainty that I held in both good and bad times that I’d get through it, and win.

I love this mentality. It’s resilience activating, and to me, it’s a life saver. Knowing not only that I’m going to get through this, but finding possibilities continually on how to overcome.

It’s a beautiful gift when I compare to my thinking in prior months and years.

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#171

I just remade and purchased my Phoenix rebuild adding Aphrodite. 2 changes.

  1. I changed the masked track to Solace since I only use masked, and Solace is less stressful.
  2. This one will affect me. I put my whole name in the name field. First, middle, and last. I respond when others call me by it, and noone else has it. I’ll just have to lessen my loop time initially since it may shock me at first.

I’d gone to the Qos thread, and @Parsifal asked about full name embeds. I saw his question, and I saw the response. It’ll hit users, and it’s been untested so far. So I’m not alone here.

Days back, I’d read @Michel’s post of how using his full name was definitely stronger. I’ll keep my eyes on his journal in case he posts of new effects.

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#172

Day 41

I usually don’t mess around with my listening time, and 2 minutes has worked well for me.

I decided to do 3 minutes this morning, hoping I’d feel it longer. I’m actually feeling a little more powerless. Like more emotion is backed up. It’s not painful, it’s not terrible, it’s more uncomfortable.

A sad truth I’ll admit to myself: I’ve thought the more pain I feel, the more I’m healing.

And I felt this many many times in years past. I’ve not felt at a ton in last few years since doing microloops.

And this is not something I’d recommend someone else.

Connected here: I paid for a program today which I’ve been looking at for a couple days. It’s aimed at raising your confidence around people by changing the words you use. Eliminating some words. The common immediate verbal reactions.

I did a few exercises an hour ago, and I feel a little more capable and confident. Connecting to Phoenix here, Phoenix pulled me back. So I wouldn’t recommend doing longer loops to other people

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#173

I’m feeling part of the growth.

I worked at the same site that I’ve been in for a few months on Sundays, and I barely did anything. Reason? It was raining the entire day. I was out of the truck maybe 15 minutes all day. Those are small positives I can hang on to.

But driving back from the work site to the site where my car was, I felt very unsafe since nothing has changed in regards to the headlights on this vehicle. Again, I’m in cow country with no overhead lights anywhere, and the paved roads haven’t been striped in 10 years. Pair that with really poor headlights and having to drive in the dark since daylight savings just switched, and I got mad. At myself first. And like weeks ago, I realized the door was open for me to pull out of this position if I needed to.

I thought before I acted. I thought of my approach. I thought of how I did not want to apologize before being firm. I didn’t want to apologize for making my claim.

So I texted the man who I’ve been working under during this whole gig. I told him this was the last weekend I would drive that vehicle. I did not feel safe in it and I was unwilling to risk my life again. I let him know that if I came back next weekend and that was the only vehicle, that I would return home.

It was clear, but I was scared. The truth is that I feared being abandoned. That’s where the root is, and that’s where the fear is.

It was like sitting in adult shoes, remembering the childhood wounds.

He responded maybe 30 minutes later, saying he would down the truck this week to fix it.

I’m crying because I did not expect that. I did not expect kindness. I did not expect action. I expected lots of excuses and dismissals, with blame pointed back at me. I expect to be blamed for making somebody else uncomfortable.

That didn’t happen. And I’m crying in my car now, remembering those old expectations and old norms from back home.

3 minutes did affect me.

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#174

Not necessarily. We work as a team, everything is 50/50 developed. But, we have a lead who makes the final call, but we both contribute. For example, I lead and wrote Wanted: Dream Boy, LBfH, PEACE, Heartsong, Renaissance Man, Genesis: Ascension, Limitless: ZONE, Limitless: Polyglot, REFORGED, HERO: The Light that Blinds, etc. Those are all my brainchild. We just don’t advertise this much, because we see it as a team effort, regardless of the lead.

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#175

@SaintSovereign Thank you very much for clarifying that Saint. I didn’t realize that you were the lead on PEACE. PEACE absolutely is my favorite title hands down and DRReg is a close second. I’ve said before that PEACE should have been named MasterPEACE. :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes: I can’t say enough praises about it.

REFORGED may give them a run for the money soon. :wink:

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