Subliminal Changes

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#141

Day 33

I haven’t been having regular feel-good experiences a lot this week. And from what I see consistently is that Phoenix is working on something much more important and much more lasting. I know I’ve been walking around it, trying to sidestep it constantly, but Phoenix is relentless. I think it’s good. But it’s just uncomfortable.

I can say this since in the last few days I’ve gone to old retreats, whatever they may be, and I can’t simply enjoy my hiding. Can’t feel unaffected by life while hiding. If I’ve experienced anything recently emotionally, it’s been grief. Since I’m losing old safe spaces for myself.

I’d even like to b******* myself and say that I’m going to do this and I’m going to do that, but I refuse. I’ve done that my entire life and absolutely nothing has come of it. I may have some wins today, but I’m not going to pull myself in to fantasy land to achieve it. That is why I’ve been where I’ve been, because I kept hiding.

So yeah, like I said before, most of what I’ve been feeling is grief when I look at my life. That fear has been a safe wall for a long time but it’s also been a very solid wall. Something I’ve never stepped past. I don’t know where it’s going. But I’m where I am right now, and I don’t want to go back into that.

Phoenix is addressing the fears as I keep looking back, wondering if I could feel safe back there.

I’m tired of missing out everyday on regular life. I need help. I need love. So I’m accepting what Phoenix is doing since I’ve not been going a good direction. No pity party. This is real life

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#142

Day 34

I heard something twice today, and I shouldn’t forget it. This might not come out how I heard it, but the idea has stuck with me.

“Those who are friends with everybody are enemies of themselves”

I do that here on the forum. I’ve been doing that all day on the job. And knowing something is off.

Who the f*** am i?
What do I stand for?
What do I believe?
What would I die for?
Why do I live like everybody else is more important than myself?
What the f*** am I supposed to do now?
What can I do?
What am I afraid to do?

The last question I’m zoning in on. Because I know that’s where the root is.

Answer: Abandonment. Loss. Feeling completely unimportant. Unwanted.

Is it possible that I’m missing something by avoiding subs like Wanted? Dream Boy?

I asked since I’ve seen others use them and be ridiculously surprised by the inner perspective change.

Self-esteem is something I never associated with seduction subs.

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#143

@qOS

I’m a single male and not dating anybody. I haven’t for over a dozen years. My subliminal aim in recent months has been using Phoenix to clear old beliefs, the relational beliefs being the most important to me.

What subs might support this aim of highly loving myself and also learning to love a woman? I put love bomb core in with the Phoenix core for my custom, but love bomb has been very quiet in recent months.

And to be honest, I’m reeling from a realization moments ago that nobody wants me. And more specifically, that I don’t want myself. That has been my greatest fear.

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#144

You sure Phoenix/Love Bomb is quiet here?

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#145

I can’t find the post now, but I read a post comment from Saint about why someone was getting wealth results from BDLM and I was shocked that Romance titles (not that BDLM is romance, it’s about increasing the size of the male appendage) often has an positive effect on finances and other aspects, such as confidence, because it’s calming the root problems of confidence and other areas that can often have a positive effect on wealth.

I haven’t run a stack like that but I started messing around with Stack Explorer
https://labs.subliminalclub.com/

What you end up finding is that many of those romance customs are working on the self esteem, the worthiness, moving past emotional blockages about dating, etc.

BDLM, interestingly is a SOCIAL title. When you’re confident in the male appendage area than your confidence overall increases and therefore become more Social. So Romance titles work on those confidence areas also. A good romance title can also help you work through blockages about your childhood and your mother also, but it’s going to get to some incredibly charged areas. Recon will probably go off the charts too because of it.

Ask Support for guidance.

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#146

Something hit me when I read that. Because I noticed something I had not seen before.

First off, Phoenix has not been quiet at all. Love bomb has been quieter, though not mute.

And here’s what I saw. I have equated feeling loved with feeling safe. And the surefire way I’m able to feel safe is to isolate myself. So, essentially I’m seeing that I’ve been angry at myself since I seek others out thinking I’ll be loved if people love me. And that’s where the tension starts. I want to be loved, but I want to feel safe. I want to feel loved, but I seek to isolate myself first and foremost.

The tension is that women are around me, but that old voice is pulling me away from them. The end result is that I feel lonely when around others because I try to isolate myself even in the midst of people. Like I’m guarding my heart.

I’ve also equated love with courageousness. I felt that a few times while on the original DR, but that was mixed with Chosen. I started seeing myself in a different light while doing that DR custom.

So, where I am now is I’m wrestling with feelings and old beliefs of inadequacy.

The subs are working. Maybe they’re just digging up old s*** right now.

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#147

I can actually relate to that. I’ve had heavy use of three different wealth titles over the years from three different vendors, and they all increased my confidence. I felt stronger around women because that little voice, that little insecurity, was not there. I had pride and confidence. That’s honestly why I’ve been adamant about keeping rich in my stack.

Where I sit right now with romance titles… Is I feel like a little boy pretending I’m brave. I think I’ve stayed away from romance titles since I saw them as just a cover for the real roots.

I’m not saying I’m right. I’m saying it’s the fear that’s always come up. Feeling inadequate around women. Feeling inadequate about my own abilities. And even thinking on that, I get angry. I don’t effing want to feel inadequate around women.

And I just realized that that’s Phoenix working on me right now. I did 2 minutes of it half an hour ago, and inadequacy is the root. It’s hitting some core belief.

I will do a 180 here. I’d love to feel adequate around women, able to handle situations, able to speak my mind for good or for bad. I’d love to feel capable. I used Wanted Black for a few weeks maybe 2 years back, and when I was in a sexually tense situation, I locked up. I pulled away. I remember coming home and writing about it. The woman had given me very clear signs, and suddenly, I felt like a little boy.

I have no plans or imaginations about doing a seduction sub. I’m just wondering what it would feel like if I did not feel inadequate.

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#148

This is the rub when it comes to growth, sometimes our subconscious fights against working through something because it gets attached to the old identity and that becomes part of a persons identity.

I ran into this with therapy, and especially group therapy. These subs with SubClub really seem to help work through those attached identities better than any other method I’ve tried.

Keep wondering what it would feel like if you didn’t feel inadequate. That just might be the key to moving past not being and feeling that way.

I know this sounds crazy, but try these two exercises out for two weeks and see if any or both help, without changing any subs BTW. To be clear, these are simple and free, but they don’t work on everything, everyone, etc. Sometimes blockages can be quite complicated. But these are easy and often quite effective.

  1. Sit in silence. Just a couple of minutes in the beginning and then work yourself up. Just sit and imagine yourself no longer feeling inadequate. Not questioning it, but seeing and feeling yourself being completely adequate. If the fear pops up, and it will, try to go back to feeling adequate again. Over a week you might feel the inadequacy relinquish its hold.

  2. Write a simple sentence everyday, “How have I easily become someone who feels completely adequate?” Try to do this fairly quickly after waking up and just before bed. Your job is more out and about so you may not be able to find time during the day to write it, but if you could, that would help also.

That sentence seems too simple. But it is a trick on the mind and does work for a lot of people, me included. When you ask the mind a question it HAS to focus on finding an answer. If you assume as though you are the way you want to be it confuses your mind and also essentially forces it to come up with reasons why you are indeed someone who is completely adequate. Many of these subs seem to help your mind come up with answers. Come up with “proof” that it’s so.

Those two exercises are free and take just a couple of minutes a day. Try it for two weeks. If they don’t have any positive affect than don’t use them any longer. They do help to build your imagination “muscles” also. That and both are a form of meditation and focus so they can help just in those aspects.

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#149

I’ve done something like this about 6 or 7 years back. Saint said they tried it as well in subliminals. I made a number of subliminals myself doing different ideas using software I own.

The guy I learned it from called them afformations. I have some issue, and using this model, I phrase it into a positive question where, like you said, it turns it around on the mind. In this context, I’d ask something like this:

Why am I so incredibly adequate?
Why am I so incredibly lovable and appreciated?
Why do I feel so incredibly valued and loved?
Why do I fully believe that I’m completely adequate and able to handle any problems with ease?

The mind is forced to seek an answer, and from experience, it feels very very good.

And after taking a minute to think about possibilities, I see this working in a similar manner to Phoenix because it rewrites your understanding. Your mind has to find a new way to deal with life when it’s asked positive questions consistently. I’d make and use silent subliminals, running them consistently at home and even at work.

This will be on my mind today. Thank you for bringing this up

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#150

Additional questions.

Why am I so incredibly hopeful about life?
Why is there so much love around me?
Why do I feel so incredibly safe and loved every moment of the day?
Why do I feel so complete?
Why is life working out for me so well?
Why is life so incredibly beautiful?
Why do I have everything I need, both inside and out?

Those are some damn good questions to seek answers for :+1:

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#151

That is very cool and interesting. You’re welcome BTW.

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#152

Those are some awesome questions. I like how you worded those.

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#153

Qos reply:

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