Alright. So after reviewing the manual and then running two back-to-back loops of the masked RICH ZP, here is what I have to report. This may be a long post but again, my primary reason for this journal is basically data entry for the SC team. I’ll explain what I experienced in phases.
Instant brain and mind shift. What I mean is that it felt as if RZP instantly took all the mental resources I had ready available and gathered them into formation like soldiers standing at attention, ready to receive commands and execute. My body even shook a bit from the jolt this produced. This happened within just the first 20 seconds. I also got a bit weirded out because my Mother was having a phone conversation in the next room, and through my headphones, she sounded like a damn man, one who’s voice was even deeper than mine. I became so disturbed by the sound that I shut my room door to prevent the sound from distracting me any further. Initially felt a bit energized as well.
Phase 2:
I began feeling a grand amount of negativity, and started mentally and emotionally cycling through one of my biggest motivations for making “F**k you money”. Basically, becoming so wealthy that I wouldn’t have to tolerate people’s bullshit for any reason and being completely financially self sufficient no matter what. I fell out with an innumerable number of people since the pandemic started. Some were jealous of what I had and the fact that I’ve been able to at least stay afloat if nothing else during the pandemic. Others for various reasons. This has pushed me to become a borderline hermit; and coupled with subs like emperor and my customs related to strengthening the alpha within me, has influenced me to become the darkest and coldest I’ve been since I was a teenager. It also had me face the fact that I just wasn’t socially selective enough in the past, and while I was never overly friendly, I realized how much how much of my time I allowed to be wasted by low quality people. I began having thoughts of how money in general has done more for me than most people ever have or even could in my life. This epiphany also revealed to me that my motivation for wealth building and sustainment has morphed from wanting to experience freedom and see what the world as a whole has to offer, to being negative and wanting to help me avoid unpleasant situations. How if I had enough wealth, I’d no longer need anyone for anything in the material sense, for business purposes or otherwise, (I’ve already had to rely solely on myself mentally and emotionally since I was 14). This is where I began realizing that @SaintSovereign or whoever wrote the ZP manual was right, ZP really does act as a conversational tool with your mind.
Phase 3:
The negativity within subsided and I began remembering who I was before I became embittered and quite frankly, mildly traumatized by constant betrayal and abandonment by so-called friends and family. I remember how happy and hopeful I actually used to be. I was filled with an intense bliss. Although there are times I thought of my former self as weak and naive; in that moment, I became thankful for my old self for at least trying to stay positive and utilizing a mindset that allowed me to experience joy and happiness in life. I then got flashes in my mind’s eye of golden energy surging through my bloodstream, and then emanating from my entire being, right down to my very core. I felt inexplicably joyful and smiled for no reason, for the first time in a long while.
Phase 4:
The bliss began to settle, and I felt high. Yes it was a high similar to THC, but instead of coming from my head, this high came from my heart. All sense of any aspect of creation outside of me seemed to disappear completely. There was no soul, no higher self, not even Source (God). There was just…my own essence. I then faded off to sleep about a third into the way of the 2nd loop. When I awoke, it’s kinda like I snapped back into “reality”. I awoke feeling as if for the first time in my life, I actually had an effective therapy session.