- I ran my first loop of Ascension Chamber a couple hours ago. Sunday is good to be my AC night as long as the recommendation is to only run it once a week.
Don’t really feel anything different, but I don’t know what I expected.
The wife and I are going to discuss and get on the same page about what kind of life things were going to be manifesting.
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I was getting recon from Emperor ZP. I felt a bit sad and hopeless starting a while after I ran my loop of it, and lasting at least most of the rest of the night, usually until I got home and went to bed. I called it my Post Emperor Blues.
I realized after I ran it last night that that effect has faded significantly in the last few weeks and was barely detectable last night.
No noticeable recon from AC either.
My Diamond and S&S stack does not cause me any recon as far as I notice. -
Had sex with the wife again this morning. Once again I couldn’t finish. That used to frustrate the hell out of me, this time I gave the wife as much as she could handle, but it became very clear that it wasn’t going to happen for me. I just said “meh, I’ll get mine tomorrow”.
I think I know whats going on here. There are a few things actually.
First, I’m not as young as I used to be. That just is what it is. I’m working with supplements and whatnot to get my hormone levels back to where I want them, but they aren’t there yet.
Two, I went from having sex once every few months (no PMO for the last eight or so months either) to four to six times a week. As I mentioned, I’m not a kid anymore and it can leave things kinda depleted. Sometimes I’m able to recharge quickly, and sometimes not. I seem to have better luck right after waking up than just before bed. Makes sense.
Third, (and yes a damn well am bragging here), (sorry, there’s no non explicit way to put this) up until recently, I’ve never given the wife a squirting orgasm. Since I started Diamond though, she has at least one, usually several every time we go at it. That has increased even more since she started Seductress.
This morning, it was absurd one after another until she was a quivering mass of goo.
That’s awesome for her. However, when that happens, things kind of relax down there and I get less and less stimulation. That eventually leads to kind of lose interest. -
So, I’m getting something very important out of the way the wife has been reacting to me, both in and out of bed.
It’s getting into my head that I’m phenomenal in bed. I’m a bloody sex god.
That’s a pretty important thing to have running in the background as I go looking for someone to give me a second opinion.
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- Ok, next week will finish out my third cycle of Stack A. I think that the only change in really going to be making for the next cycle is going to be swap out Emperor for Wanted.
That makes it a purely sexual stack, which I can do now that money isn’t such an issue.
That leads me to a problem that I need to find a solution to.
Where can I go and what can I fit into my life that allows me to have enough contact with women to give my new instinctive skills, and the manifestation technology a good opportunity to work.
My current daily routine really doesn’t give me much chance to work any mojo that I’m developing so I need to do something different. I’m just not sure what that would be at this point.
Any ideas would be appreciated.
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- Interesting effect. I’m guessing from AC.
Whenever I start to visualize something negative, something that I’d fear happening, I have this mental voice say “you’re going to manifest that shit if you aren’t careful”.
It stops it. Sometimes it tries to come back on me a few times, but the same thing happens.
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- Interesting. I’m in for a better job. The new thing is that when I think about it, Im kind of taking it as a fact that I’m going to get it.
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- I got my testosterone level checked today along with some other stuff.
The good news is that according to my bloodwork I’m in excellent health.
The bad news is that even with the megadose of pine pollen and everything else, I’m still pretty low. I hate to admit this but my estrogen level was higher than they like to see too. Not catastrophically high, but once again, not where men who have the kind of life that I want are.
It’s not as bad as it was the last time I had it tested several years ago, but it’s still lower than they like to see. Lower than men who look, feel, and have the kind of lives that I want to have.
I think that I’ve been on the low side all of my life. Maybe it’s genetics. Maybe it was thinking of myself as less than a man while I was becoming one. I don’t know.
Looking back, I had all of the symptoms even as a kid. Low energy, difficulty losing weight, didn’t respond to strength training as fast or as well as others did, low confidence, depression (I think we had a vicious feedback loop going on with those last two).
It’s true I became a pretty decent athlete the last couple of years of high school, but I still got less of a result for more effort than a lot of other people.
I know that there are other means to raise my levels, but frankly, I’ve tried most of them.
I’m forty four. I’ve lead a sub optimal life due to this and other problems long enough.
I’m willing to cheat. Now it’s just a matter of coming up with the money.
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**3/6/22 CYCLE 3 WEEK 3 STACK A**
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The big change this week was that my thoughts got extremely positive. They’re a lot more deeply rooted too.
Our life has started a massive upward spiral. I know that for a fact, and the outside reality is reflecting it.
This is the early stages of that spiral, but I am actually seeing my life come into alignment with what I want it to be. All of the inner work I’ve been doing for the last few years has been setting this up, and it’s starting to come to fruition in very real ways. -
I have an online interview for that job on Tuesday.
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- And to make today feel even better, It’s almost time for DOMINUS MAXIMUS ZP!
I’ll have to get rid of Commander in order to keep it to two cores, but here it is.
- Emperor Core
- Daredevil Core
- Emotions Unfettered
- Fortune’s Favorite
- Immortals Blade
- Mountain Breaker
- Dragon Tongue
- Entranced
- The Boundary
- Iron Frame
- Furious Ascent
- Organization Perfected
- Lifeblood Fable
- Eagle Eye
- Sanguine
- Ebon Manuver
- Voice Master
- Dragon Tongue
- Fusion Optimized
- Mosaic
And the yet to be named seduction custom.
- Wanted Core
- Sex and Seduction Core
- Alexander’s Play
- Fortune’s Favorite
- Immortals Blade
- All Seeing
- Eagle Eye
- Sexual Manifestation
- Seducers Gaze
- Dragon Tongue
- Voice Master
- Instant Spark
- Edge of Danger
- Entranced
- Alpha Body Language
- Ethereal Presence
- Long Range Seduction
- Potentiator
- Focused Arousal
- Mosaic
I may just simplify things and run those two along with Diamond for the rest of the year.
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I’m gonna see if my previous idea for that Ultima will work in ZP form. Tweaked it to be Emperor, Mogul, Libertine, Love Bomb.
If not, I’ll break it into 2. Emperor+Mogul and those modules, and LIb+LB and those modules. Lib+LB are crazy as shit together. In a good way.
I’d probably go the money one first, make it so I can spring for the other much faster.
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Isn’t Emperor and Mogul a bit redundant? The old Emperor had Mogul in it. I assume that it effectively still does. Maybe Emp and Chosen or something would be really good.
in ZP, nothing “has” anything else in it really. It’s all about outcomes now. Plus, when I was doing Libertine and LB each listening day, and then alternating Emperor and Mogul as the 3rd sub, attention from chicks, and more $. Can’t go wrong with those.
I could just stick with the original idea of the ultima I had picked, but do Emperor instead.
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- I think I understand the recon anxiety I’ve been having a bit.
I subconsciously fear moving out of my current situation because while parts of it suck, I’ve been in it long enough that it’s become what I’m used to. I’ve figured out on a basic level that the total disastrous life collapse that I’d been fearing for much of our financial crisis just plain wasn’t going to happen. For the last few years I’ve felt that we were on the knife edge of losing everything, but throughout, by manifestation and just finding a way I prevented that from happening.
Recently though I’ve gotten the message. The universe or whatever you want to call it has my back to the extent that we will not fall any further than we have so long as I say we won’t, and I keep on it.
What is making me feel anxious though is that my subconscious feels that I’m about to break through the stalemate and start moving forward.
I have become comfortable in this uncomfortable liminal state but now it’s going to change.
The wife has gotten her disability and I’m in the midst of taking a professional step forward, so now everything is about to change.
For the better mind you, but there is a major reason that that causes me anxiety.
Our financial problems really started when I lost my last job.
I recovered somewhat in that I got this one that actually paid a bit more, but the loss of an income for a bit hurt.
Professionally it put me in a job that doesn’t have any future or anywhere to go, and I’ve just been sitting here for four years.
I’ve been through this cycle before. Twice now I’ve taken professional steps forward only to fuck it up and end up back at “my level”.
DR dealt with the whys and wherefores of that “success ceiling”, in fact that was my primary reason for running it for a year, but what is coming is the first real test of wether it worked well enough that I can have the results in the real world.
It’s about to be put up or shut up time on taking a step up the ladder, staying there, and being able to take another without self sabotaging myself back down.
The answer is yes, but it still makes me a bit anxious.
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That’s an interesting insight. Thank you for sharing.
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I had my oral board for that job this morning. I felt a lot smoother and more verbally fluent than I can remember being during these things.
This afternoon, they called. I’m moving on in the process. On track to start training in the beginning of may.
The job is something that I have extensive experience with, and while it may not be exactly what I want, it’s with a great agency, there is a career path there that does get me where I want to be, and it pays very well.
Looks like I’m going to get one of my objective goals banged off in the first half of the year.
Also, once training is done, I’ll only be working three days a week which leaves me plenty of time to pursue the others. -
ZP customs come out tomorrow. Perfect timing. I’m about to start my washout which will give time for it to get processed when it’s listening time again.
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I was thinking of changing my custom plans up to be optimized for academy and starting on the job, and I might change my mind. But right now, I’m thinking, Nah, I got this on my own. There is plenty in those two customs that will help me with all that anyway, and there is a lot more to life than work.
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The wife got her disability back pay. Which is unusual this early in the game. That is good because it lets me start TRT this coming week, which will be helpful for the physical part of the training and job.
I think that my wanting to start that is the result of one or more of the scripts.
I’m leaning toward the view that my hormone levels have been one of the “ceilings” that I’ve been dealing with all of my life, and one that DR couldn’t break. I’m pretty sure I’ve been on the low side all of my life, and for whatever reason subs and supplements alone can’t get me to where I need to be, so I had a strong urge to do what I needed to to get there. And what do you know, the means to do so showed up at the right time. I’m almost getting used to this. -
The more I think about it, there seems to be a lot more synchronicity going on in my life this year. Everything seems to be happening right on time to help move everything along smoothly and like it was meant to be.
I was getting synchronicities before too, but there was an almost equal and opposite force that seemed to be causing negative manifestations at the same time. That doesn’t seem to be happening anymore.
I’m thinking that it’s a combination of DR taking care of whatever was causing the negative side, ZP working smoother, and probably Ascension Chamber.
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I went ahead and ordered my seduction custom and I’m about to order the ZP remake of Dominus Maximus. That and Diamond is going to be my stack for the rest of the year.
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The wife is getting a Seductress and Libertine custom.
Seductress Core
Libertine Core
Enchanting Smile
Entranced
Ethereal Presence
Focused Arousal
Instant Spark
Seducers Gaze
Sexual Manifestation
Alexander’s Play
Long range Seduction
Dragon Tongue
Inner Voice
Pride unbroken
Eagle Eye
All Seeing
Mosaic
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- Had an ascension chamber manifestation. I was doing some security checks that I had to sign for and wouldn’t you know it, as soon as I got to the first one which was about as far as I could get from the security office and my stuff, I realized that I’d forgotten my pen.
Instead of getting aggravated, (well I did a bit at first) I decided that there was an accessible pen somewhere in the building. This was not a sure thing because all of the offices and other places where there normally would be one are locked.
I had to look a bit more than I expected, but sure enough I found a bunch of them.
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**3/13/22 CYCLE 3 WEEK 4 STACK A**
**WASHOUT WEEK #3**
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I’ve now ordered the ZP remake of Dominus Maximus as well as my seduction custom and the wife’s Seductress Libertine combo.
It was a bit of cash dropped on subs, but this is going to be my stack for the rest of the year, so that’s OK.
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I am doing some serious thinking about how to maximize the chances of success with the seduction part of my stack.
I’ll have to go somewhere where there are available women on a regular basis.
I’d try bars, but I barely drink, and I don’t know anyone who’d be a wingman.
Maybe I should be looking for some kind of activity.
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My seduction custom has arrived. That was the first of three that I ordered. Two for me and one for the wife.
That means that I’ll be able to start my new stack right when my washout week ends. That’s it for the rest of the year.
These two plus Diamond are substantial enough that I should be seeing progress for that entire time. I’m really looking forward to seeing what name embedding does to a ZP title. -
The wife had an insight from Seductress last night. She kind of blurted it out, and I recognized it for what it was because I got so many of those flash insights while I was running DE.
She had eaten a lot of crap food last night, and what she realized was why she had done that.
In a nutshell, I had said that she looks really good a few times recently.
It’s true. She looks hotter to me than she ever has.
She said that she realized that she had eaten badly because she has a subconscious impression that she isn’t supposed to look good, and she was trying to sabotage that by eating a bunch of crap food so she’d gain weight.
Heeeeyyy. That sounds like recon. And with the realization she had, it sounds like the recon is resolving.
She figured out exactly what conflict was causing her to do what she did and why.
When that’s happened to me, it’s a sign that whatever problem it was is almost solved.
I had been noticing from how she talks about herself that her estimation of her attractiveness is improving. It has been for at least a few weeks. I think that she finally hit the point where she noticed the changes enough that her old self image feels threatened.
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First run of my seduction custom in progress and Dominus Maximus has been delivered.
I’m not feeling anything especially different at the moment, but this is my first exposure to Wanted so I’m not sure if I really expected to during the first run.
This is more of a long term plan anyway. I’m very happy that ZP customs came out when they did so I can have a stack that does pretty much everything I want and keep at it for the rest of the year for some deep, steady progress. -
The wife ran her custom for the first time the day before yesterday. She was a bit moody yesterday, and felt overwhelmed while getting ready to celebrate our son’s birthday. It may be a bit of recon, it may just be something that she goes through normally from time to time.
I haven’t been around enough to notice any difference.
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- A very close female friend of mine from high school and after is going to be coming out this June. We used to hook up fairly regularly until she got married. She and her husband have an open relationship now as well. I get the impression that she is fully expecting to continue our occasional arrangement when shes in town.
And from the pictures she sent and what she told me, she looks a LOT better than she did the last time I saw her. And she looked good then.
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