Read the first post in the journal. It explains all.
- Here it is. The Shit Gatherer. At least the first version. I must admit, this one bores me. I hate having to keep focusing on the have tos over the want tos, but itās time I did.
- Ascended Mogul Core
- Lineage Mandate Eternal Core
- Job Seeker
- Key TO The Courts
- Organization Perfected
- Purity Without
- Achilles
- Victoryās Call
- New Dawn
- Tyrant
- Virtue Series Patience
- Virtue Series Temperance
- Void of Creation
- Discordia Deliverance
- Debt Annihilator
- Torch bearer
- Fortuneās Favorite
- Stress displacement
- Stone like
- Mosaic
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Thanks for the reminder, I read the whole journal but forgot. That one looks really fit with the issues you described in the last post. 
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Iām not going to give up on this just yet. What I am going to do is alternate cycles between this and Shit Gatherer.
Normally I try to be as focused as I can. I take the old saying āa fox who chases two rabbits will catch neitherā to heart, but in this case I think that giving one set of goals a rest while I hit another will let one be blooming and executing while the other is in input mode could be a very effective way of getting all of the changes I want.
Iām going to try it as an experiment anyway.
Iāll see out the rest of this cycle, perhaps with reduced loop times, then go to SG next month. For simplicityās sake, Iāll keep it to this journal. -
Had an interesting result today. I have been trying to make eye contact with all the women I can. On other programs I have had great success with this, often getting some smoking and very noticeable return eye contact very easily, and some really noticeable IOIs.
Not so much on this one. In fact, itās seemed like they were almost subtly avoiding it.
I thought that that meant that they were either not seeing me, or even a bit repulsed.
Today I was at a restaurant with the family, and I tried to lock eyes with the very cute girl who was taking my order. She avoided it like Iāve been getting, but then I glanced away for a second and back. She was looking right at my eyes. The nanosecond I did that, her eyes flicked away. Really quick. Like she did something wrong.
I recognized the reaction. It was an āoops I got caught lookingā reflex look away.
I think that rather than being invisible or repulsive, I might be a little intimidating. Plus she had a double reason to feel she shouldnāt be checking me out as I was obviously there with a wife and kid.
I could be considered scary to some I suppose. I have a friendly face, but Iām 6ā2, built like a brick outhouse, and Iām prone to wearing a lot of leather, denim and flannel.
Iām going to have to moderate that just a bit so I give the impression that itās ok to connect with me.
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I did a three minute loop tonight. Weāll see if that does anything.
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I felt better today, and everything seemed more pleasant. Iām still going to be doing the Shitgatherer starting next cycle. I think that I can be the Khan style badass, the Wanted Man, and the good dad with the squared away life at the same time.
I may extend the run to two or more years with the monthly switching for this journey. This combo really hits most if not all of my current major life goals.
Maybe later I can stack something like LOTS to fill in some gaps, but for now, this will do. It might keep my subconscious from getting bored too.
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How did your qtks custom work for you?
So far, not really well. Iām definitely not getting the jaw dropping reality shift that others have described. Truth be told, Iām not sure that Iāve gotten much of anything as far as positive results.
Now, I do t think that thatās really the fault of the technology, or that āQTKS doesnāt workā or anything like that.
I think that my life isnāt really set up so that itās possible for the results I was going for to make their way into my life by anything other than the most unlikely of means.
I did waste my money, but thatās because I bought the wrong program. I needed to kind of reset my life as far as the practical considerations of available time, money, and household caommitments before I can get the things that a Khan WB combo could give me.
Stay tuned though, I havenāt given up. Iām still going to be running it on alternate cycles with SG.
Come to think of it, Iāve run a number of seduction programs, and never really gotten any results from them.
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**10/16/23. CYCLE 3 WEEK 3**
- I had another idea. I had been playing with a concept for a custom before, and I have proven my capability to handle two fairly complicated standard ZP customs at the same time.
Manifestation Monster is a combination of Minds Eye and Ascension Chamber with every module that will aid manifestation. Itās designed to help with any goals I happen to be going for at any given time.
If I go that route, Iāll run it along with SG. It should help with both programs anyway.
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I would put some feeling good modules in it like carpe diem and or/and joie the vivre
If u feel good the manifestations will likely appear more often through positive thoughts
Just my two cents
You will find what works for you
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Thatās really good thinking. Also not something Iād think to do (seriously). Iāll have to remember to do that.
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- Dream: I was somewhere public. I started talking to this very attractive girl.
Things were going really well, I could tell she was attracted, wanted me to do something.
At that point, I mentioned my family.
She said āfamily??ā But that killed everything. She backed off.
This brings up one of my biggest concerns with this program.
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Another three minute loop tonight. I think I actually took an extra day off without realizing it.
That dream along with how Iāve been feeling lately points me more toward the conclusion that Iāve been working towards for a while now.
That this program isnāt the right one for me. At least not now.
I have gone into how I just kind of let myself be lead to the place I am in life. Step by step Iāve let people other than myself convince me to take on more and more responsibility which restricts my freedom to move in the world as I want to, and be who I want to.
While Khan and WB really do embody who I have always wanted to be, I have gone too far down the path of responsible domesticity to be able to go the other direction in any honorable way.
This program would have been awesome for me years ago. When I could do as I pleased so long as the rent got paid. Now, I canāt make use of it. There is too much resting on my shoulders.
I donāt think I can be both people. At least not right now. -
I am trying to embrace the idea of the Shitgatherer. The responsible family man. With enthusiasm and joy.
Itās not working. The idea bores me to death truth be told, but itās the position Iāve allowed myself to be drawn into, and I need to do it right, so that will be starting soon anyway. What must be done must be done.
Maybe I can make another run at being the wanted Khan later, but not until my life, and those who depend on me are squared away.
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- OK, the more I think about it, the more I realize that this must be done.
As I said, Shit Gatherer is what I should have done right after DR. I got my internal world in order, then went off trying to be something I canāt be without a good solid foundation in the real world.
I need to build that foundation before I can go off and be any kind of playboy. Like it or not, I have two disabled adults, a six year old, and an elderly dog who rely on me for just about everything.
I donāt like this. In fact I hate it. But it is the reality of my life at the moment.
I, I think like most men, crave two things. Adventure and peace.
I am getting neither. The best way I can describe most of my life right now is extremely high stress banality.
I live under frequent financial crises, a house that is a disaster area, and work a dead end job.
Things are slowly degrading, and thereās only one of me to do anything about it. I got behind while I had to work eighty or so hours a week for two years, and Iāve never caught back up.
Something has to give, and itās up to me to MAKE it give.
If I donāt get my shit together, Iām never going to have the adventure or the peace, and my son will grow up in a messed up environment.
If QC has done anything for me, itās to make it clear what needs to happen before I can focus on executing it.
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- OK, Shit Gatherer is ordered.
Hereās the final lineup.
- Ascended Mogul Core
- Lineage Mandate Eternal Core
- Job Seeker
- Key to the Courts
- Organization Perfected
- Purity Without
- Victoryās Call
- New Dawn
- Achilles
- Virtue Series Diligence
- Virtue Series Patience
- Virtue Series Temperance
- Courage Reclaimed
- Discordia Deliverance
- Debt Annihilator
- Fusion Optimized
17 Fortuneās Favorite - Stress Displacement
- Stone like
- Mosaic
This should do the trick pretty quickly. Iām still playing with the idea of running alternating cycles, but it really seems to me that that might be pulling me in tow directions a bit too much.
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- Three minute loop last night, and a rough beginning to the day today.
I felt very stressed out from the time I woke up.
The kid was being particularly obnoxious today too.
I know, Iām supposed to think parenthood is wonderful and all, and I do love my kid, but parenthood is really rough on me.
At the best of times, his voice gets to me.
You know that visceral reaction you have to the sound of nails being scraped down a chalkboard? Itās that. But he is one LOUD little guy so itās nails on a chalkboard through a high quality sound system. And there is no escape.
I know what it is. I have ADD. Parenthood is an exercise in constant overstimulation for someone like me, and not only that but I always HAVE TO fight through it. Iām the only one who can.
Add that stress to the stress of all I have to do, and everything that might go wrong, and you have my day before work.
It did lead me to think and listen to my subconscious though. I actually think that my subconscious was turning up the volume on these things to bring my attention to something.
Hereās the thing. Iāve hit a wall with Khan and WB. I canāt execute until I have these practical considerations taken care of.
Thatās just a knowing.
Fortunately Iām taking a break for an unknown time to do just that.
I certainly hope that Lineage Mandate Eternal helps with the kid driving me nuts.
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- I was thinking that maybe I donāt need to give up all seduction goals. I even designed a WB custom to run alongside SG.
But at least in the beginning, I do need to take all focus off of that and put it on getting my life headed back in the right direction and underway.
Donāt get me wrong, I am still open to anything that might happen, but Iām not going to be looking for it until Iāve gotten some really good progress on SG.
Even if I add WB back in after a few cycles, itās going to be something that I just run and donāt worry about.
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- Tonight is my last loop of QC for the time being.
I donāt like to say that this run is a failure, but so far it is.
At least I know what I need to do to get to where I need to be to make it useful.
Iāll run my loop tonight, then do a standard washout week. SG starts next Sunday.
I wish I could say I was excited about it. Iām not. But I guess I am looking forward to it a bit.
Sooner started, sooner finished.
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**10/23/23 CYCLE 3 WEEK 4**
**WASHOUT WEEK #3**
- This is the last week before Shitgatherer begins.
I do intend to return to this program and finish out at a minimum nine more cycles, not to mention get the results I wanted from it in the first place.
But first Iām going to get the foundation of my life shored up and solid. It feels too shaky now, and Iāve ignored that for far too long while I went for the āfun stuffā.
Iām going to be on it as long as Iām on it. Until I see the changes that I need to see.
Depending on how fast that starts happening, I may or may not go with the alternating cycles plan, so you might see more activity on this journal. I donāt know.
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- DANG IT SUBCLUB! Tempting me to interrupt my well laid plans of responsibility and family to run a WB S&S combo. You should be ashamed of yourselves.
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Iām not going to be doing that though. At least not for the first few cycles.
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Maybe that would be a better way of, shall we say, expanding my sex life when Iām ready.
It has become clear to me that Khan is difficult for me. Iām not entirely sure what, but I suspect that itās trying to get me to be more of an out loud alpha type.
I am naturally more of the quiet type. Now I like to think that Iāve gone from the shy wallflower type to more of the strong silent badass sigma type over the years, but the fact remains that Iām not one to talk much, and Iām definitely not one to seek a direct spotlight.
Just WB and the skill and manifestation boost from the new S&S might work a lot better for me than Khan did.
It should allow me to continue being me, and get the results. We may see after a couple of cycles of SG. -
That said, I am noticing some effects from Khan now that I mention it.
I am more assertive. This came off to me as being kind of a dick before, but no. Iām enforcing boundaries and unapologetically going after what I want.
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