Year of the Dragon Emperor

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#282 
           **Stage 1 Cycle 2 Week 4 **

  • I have passed the halfway point of Cycle 2 and have only two more listening weeks and a washout before stage 2. It’s seemed to go really fast and really slow at the same time if that makes any sense.
    I think that the number one effect I am getting from stage one is detachment. I can look at what’s happening in my life from a slightly elevated perspective. It allows me to see things with a little more objectively without the stress and emotion that being fully “in the story” causes. I see that it’s not as dire as I was thinking and theres
    I also have a greater degree of clarity on events that caused me psychological harm in the past. I have a much better picture of what was really happening, the flaws in what I was telling myself, and my own and other people’s real motives.
    I’ve noticed a marked reduction in anxiety of all kinds, overall more positive thinking.
    From Emperor I’ve noticed that my body language has improved beyond anything I’ve ever seen, an increase in productivity, and that I now really feel like I’m a competent and effective man. I’ve also noticed that I see an extremely good looking man in the mirror.

  • I had a talk with my wife last night about how she’s feeling. I noticed that most of what she had to say was a bunch of reasons why she can’t do anything to improve her situation. She has tied herself into mental knots that she thinks she can’t escape and resists all suggestions to help her. It’s almost as if she’s fighting to stay miserable.
    Nothing I can do about it, that’s one of the lessons I learned so far on stage one.

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#283

  • My loops tonight felt smooth as glass. Both DE and RICH. I think I’ve broken through some kind of barrier and whatever parts of me were resisting or having trouble with the script have stopped it. Twelve weeks per stage looks like it was a good call.

  • My sex drive, which had been conspicuous in it’s absence came roaring back this weekend. I took it out on the wife of course. I was less of a boring nice guy, a bit more take charge and primal like I was sometimes when I was younger. She liked it.

  • Now that I mention it, in general, I have this sense that I’m trying to get back to, not the guy I was when I was nineteen, but the guy I felt myself turning into when I was nineteen. That’s the time I felt the best about the future me if that makes any sense. I got off track shortly after that. I like that guy and I’m happy to feel myself getting back in touch with him.

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#284

I’m really glad to read all these things you are noticing! I’m so happy for you! And it’s just going to get better!

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#285
  • I had a little bit of weirdness or synchronicity or something happen today. I was thinking about ex #3. The last one I obsessed over for a long time (before I got on Subs and figured out what was really going on with that). No big deal, there was no pain involved. I had ordered dinner with door dash, and no sooner had I started thinking about her than the “your order has been picked un by” message came through. It was her first name and last initial.
    I had heard that she might be living in this area.
    I wondered at first if it might be her, and naturally wondered how I’d handle that. My mind played out several very vivid scenarios, including how I’d feel and how I’d act.
    The answer surprised me.
    I might have said nothing if she didn’t seem to recognize me, or try to catch up if she did. I would be glad to see her, and Hell, I might even try getting into her pants if she still looked good and was amenable to the idea (why not?). But the thing is that there was no pain, no sense of loss, nothing like that at all. For some reason, that relationship was the worst emotional wound I’ve ever suffered. It’s now healed.
    Not sure why this happened, some kind of manifestation thing. Maybe from The Forge, but I’m glad that the universe showed me that.
    It wasn’t her of course. It was a VERY cute college girl. I joked with her and flirted a bit without thinking about it. She was giggling when she left.
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#287

Intensely curious as to what you said there.

#288

It was really silly. Something about a dream you had and what you wrote for whatever reason reminded me of the Prince song 1999

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#289

Which is now stuck in my head, thanks. :sweat_smile:

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#290

Big synchronicity mate! The Forge and DR are working, and so are you man!:sunglasses:

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#291

I wouldn’t have noticed except the name popped up RIGHT when I was thinking about her. It’s making me think about what signs and manifestations I may have missed because I was looking for something big and flashy and they were subtle.

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#292

  • I am concerned about my wife’s sleep problems. Every day this week and last, she has slept all day. I get home about six AM and go to bed, and she’s still been asleep when I got up to go to work. Either she was unable to sleep at night and goes to sleep just before I get home, or she sleeps all night and then sleeps all day anyway. Even if she asks me to wake her up, it takes a minimum of an hour, and often I can’t get it done.
    This is despite her running two loops of Paragon a night. I think I’ll suggest that she take a week off and see if that makes a difference.

  • Yet again I had a good encounter with a female food delivery person tonight, seems to be a trend lately. This one was a bit younger than me, really pretty, and great body.
    She pulled up and gave me my food. Then she stopped to have a fairly long conversation. I realized from body language and whatnot that she was flirting, and that she was slightly nervous around me. The type of nervous that girls get when they find a guy really attractive and possibly out of their league. Fast paced talking, kinda fidgety, switching subjects to keep the conversation going.
    She mentioned that she walked and ran in my area regularly, and I said I remembered talking to her before. She said “here’s the rest of me.” Meaningfully And pulled her mask down. I could tell that the innuendo was deliberate, but I couldn’t make an appropriately inappropriate response at work.
    I have a feeling that I’ll be seeing her again.
    This shows me that my attractiveness has increased, and I’m not always seeing the results simply because I am not exposed to that many women on a regular basis.

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#293
  • I was reading some of my posts from just two and three weeks ago. Damn, those seem like they are from a lifetime ago and perhaps from a different person. I mean I remember it, but it seems like it was coming from a much longer time ago. I’m mentally in a completely different place now.
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#294

DR is working mate, and so are you!

#295

Hey, are you stacking DR with Emperor right now? In summary how’s it been for you?

#296

I’m not stacking them, I have them both in a custom. It’s working really well.

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#297

Have you ran non custom subs like regular Q ones? Has name embedded been more effective for you?

#298

I have. Name embedding does seem to have a pretty big positive effect.

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#299

  • I suggested that the wife take a week off Paragon. She said that she has trouble sleeping without it, and that she’d been using a bunch of extra loops.
    The thing is that I’m not seeing any reduction in her symptoms.
    I’m considering suggesting that she add in either Ascension for Women for some of her self esteem issues.

  • The roads were an icy mess when I drove into work today. It again struck me how much less fearful and anxious that made me than it did around this time last year. Now, I learned to drive in this crap, and I’m very skilled at it. However I didn’t used to give myself any credit for that, and I was white knuckling it all the way before, envisioning everything that could go bad. Tonight I just knew on a visceral level that I know how to handle this. I was still cautious, but not unnecessarily, and I was almost as relaxed as I am on a normal day.

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#300
  • The more I think about it, my increased confidence driving in shitty conditions demonstrates a greater faith in my own abilities in general. Now that I’m thinking about it, I do have a higher opinion of my ability to navigate the world and succeed in any number of ways than before I started DE. I have a lot less fear of things going wrong and being unable to handle them as well.
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#301

I would.

Right on mate!

By the way, what is DE?

#302

Dragon Emperor. Name of my custom. Really creative.