**Stage 2 Cycle 2 Week 2**
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I remember that I was dreaming when I woke up this afternoon again. I dreamed that I was dinking around with my phone when the alarm on my phone went off. At first I wondered why it didn’t say that the alarm was going off, then I woke up. I don’t remember what I was doing precisely. I may even have been making an entry in this journal.
That’s a bloody boring dream and I’m only mentioning it because it demonstrates that the frequency with which I remember dreaming has definitely picked up since I switched to QV2 and it’s staying at that higher level. -
The wife was lecturing me this morning between the time I got up and went back to bed to sleep for my night shift. She I perceived what she was doing as talking down to me and found it irritating.
She was upset that there were some things that she’d wanted me to do this weekend that I hadn’t gotten done. Never mind that I’d gotten all of my weekly tasks done and a couple of the things she’d wanted despite Friday being taken up with my interview and other stuff.
She got to one thing that I had done, and noticed halfway through that I had done it.
I kind of chuckled “I was waiting for you to notice that throughout this entire lecture”.
Usually if I did something like that, she’d get mad and start verbally attacking. Not this time. This time she turned it on herself and got very depressed. She made a mistake right after that caused a minor mess and when I got downstairs, she was ripping on herself for “fucking everything up” and “not even being able to talk to me right”.
I certainly don’t like seeing her feel that way, but turning it on herself is a major change from turning it on me as she used to do every time her mood swung. It shows that she’s no longer thinking of me as a convenient punching bag. -
I am going to be doing only one loop of DE for at least this week. We’ll see how that effects me.