Sexual energy is through the roof. Last night I was listening to Wanted + Khan st4 and suddenly my body was flooded with sexual energy. Falling asleep wasn’t easy after that, never experienced anything like that before.
Sometimes I meet girls, and they turn me on with just one look… well this girl did it and let’s just say the gym is a very awkward place for that to happen. 
Of course you were feeling that way 
Damn I’ve been feeling great this week. Glad I decided to run my subs less often.
Super excited for the concert + Date on Friday.
It’s funny, I’ve had a thing for this girl since I met her. I remember the first time we locked eyes it was electric. I just stared and thought “Who are you…?”
Since that first meeting, we’ve been around each other a few times. Her friend is dating my best friend so sometimes she’d come out with us and I’ve always felt that she liked me.
Every time we hung out I grew to like her more and more to the point where now I just find myself completely enamoured. I have no clue why, I can’t help it. Just thinking of her makes my heart flutter and we’re just getting started…
Anyways I’m just reminiscing on how our “relationship” has developed and now I’m at the point where she’s totally pursuing me and I’m just super excited to see where this all goes.
I have a really good feeling about it. Also quick side note: funny how after beginning Heartsong she started really pursing me hard 
Yesterday and today were both great days again! Met more people at the gym, had a nice convo in the hot tub with some new people and a new friend.
Had a great convo in the sauna today with some other friends.
Like it’s just normal to socialize now, a year ago I was so nervous to open my mouth let alone acknowledge people I didn’t know 
Social anxiety sucks, but I’m winning this battle
Speaking of social anxiety, here a great example:
Theirs this guy at my gym, I played hockey with his sons, he knows me and my whole family. So when I first saw him about a year ago, he made eye contact but didn’t say hi or anything.
I smiled and nodded, but just ignored me? I thought wtf? So after that, I was always nervous around him. I though he hated me for some reason. It was so weird cause he would make eye contact and it seemed like he recognized me, but he never engaged me let alone acknowledged me.
So today I was walking to a machine and I looked up and he was walking right towards me. Without thinking I automatically nodded my head, smiled and said
“Hey, you’re xy right?” He said Yeah! I reminded him who I was and his face lit up. “Omg no way! You’re so grown up! I’m sorry I don’t have my glasses when I train so I have a hard time seeing faces.”
Lmaoo I forgot he wore glasses, and this whole time I thought he hated me? Yeah that’s social anxiety for you.
From there we talked for another 5 minutes. It was relieving to finally crush that awkwardness and catch up.
Way to go!! Congratulations on winning this battle. You know I have the same problem so I can tell how hard it must have been. Social Anxiety really sucks.
I guess I will run this stack as well when I am done with my current phase of life.
Lol I’m hyped for tomorrow I can hardly contain myself.
I used to get nervous before dates, but I’m super excited yet nonchalant about how the night will go.
I’m sure I’ll knock it out of the park 
Also today was another KICK ASS DAY.
Unfortunately, a family friend passed away not too long ago. I attended his wake and ran into so many people I knew.
At first I was a tad shy but got comfortable very quick. I almost can’t wrap my head around how easy it is to socialize now. And sober too… no relying on alcohol.
It’s like breathing, it’s becoming not only normal but fun again… like it was before I had social anxiety.
I even approached my old boss when I saw him. I haven’t talked to him in years. And I had my first anxiety attack while talking to him many years ago… so I naturally avoided him due to the negative association in my head.
Of course nothing was wrong with him, he didn’t do anything to me. But I had that terrible anxiety attack and seeing him always triggered this worry that it would happen again.
So I approached him, began a convo and was super calm and confident. I can’t believe I actually did that. A year ago I would’ve avoided him.
God I hate taking about “muh anxiety” it’s so cringe. But it’s progress nevertheless. Seeing past traumas evaporate and no longer affecting me sure as hell is a Khan result.
Everytime I read your journal I have an urge to congratulate you on your progress. So yet again, Congratulations on your progress!
Thank you, I appreciate it!! 
Sorry about your friend’s death.
Omg last night WAS AMAZING!
Flo Rida was so much fun, straight up party lol, everyone danced the whole time haha. Felt like I was 10 years old again “APPLE BOTTOM JEANS, BOOTS WITH THE FURRRRRRRR” 
Went dancing with:
Was amazing. The day leading up to it, I actually started questioning if she even liked me. LOL so stupid, I should know better by now.
We danced the night away. Some random guy kept staring and smiling at me. Few mins later he says “Hey I just wanted to say you guys are so beautiful together, you’re perfect for each other.”
Then he gave us both a shot of tequila haha, later on he came around again and tried to give us more out of the bottle lmao.
Also I noticed a lot of people staring at me. Like when I was dancing with my girl another girl kept staring at me like she wanted me real bad.
Then I remember like 2-3 guys I never met before looked at me, raised theirs eyebrows w surprise, smile and nodded. Almost like they knew me or something? Idk it was mad weird and these were all separate instances.
You don’t see such a thing even in movies lol. Great results buddy.
Sounds like you’re living a legit celebrity life. 
Also she kissed me on the dance floor. I pulled away to tease her a bit and she just forced her head forward and kept trying to kiss me lmao.
Needless to say we spent alot of time making out lol.
She wouldn’t leave when I tried to drop her off, she even turned my car off and grabbed the keys while we were going at it haha. I was just sunk into my seated and she was leaning into me so hard lmao.
Also while we were driving there she called me baby… as if she just assumed we were together. And after we kissed she started saying it even more. I don’t think I’ve ever had a girl that idk… territorial?
Like we aren’t dating? This is my second time dancing with her…
I kind of like that though, just subtly claiming me
Thank you haha 