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#181

I’m afraid of talking to women, idk why it took me so long to realize my issue. But that’s it…

I’m afraid of intimacy, vulnerability, rejection, looking stupid, not living up to her “perceived image” of me or expectations of me. All of this just makes me super nervous around hot girls, and even more so when they show IOI’s towards me.

If anything it should excite me, or make me more confident that’s she’d be open to my advances… no? But here I am basically shitting my pants on the inside, meanwhile externally I appear aloof and nonchalant. It’s such a strange contrast, probably a coping mechanism.

I’m just afraid of being a let down. “Ohh my gawd he’s so H-… oh wait, he’s human, he’s flawed. Nahh bye…

Idk why but that’s my issue. Probably past experiences, but I can’t seem to get over it.

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#182

Like I know I could have most girls (not any girl I want) but most that I want. But this stupid fear keeps me from even trying.

I don’t even so much as use dating apps. That’s how shy I am lol

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#183

Genesis?

#184

Maybe, waiting to see what else comes out

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#185

Dropping LBFH (for now) probably go back or add it to a custom cause I love it so much.

Gonna run Heartsong for the next month.

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#186

See, I went to a Latin music festival this weekend and I was overwhelmed by the amount of beautiful women around me. I’ve literally never seen so many gorgeous women all in one place before.

I found gravitating towards certain girls, little things like the way they did their hair, their lips, how they danced, the way they were dressed. the way they got excited when they’re favourite song came on etc.

Some of these girls were hypnotic. To the point where I was watching them more than the performance.

and then… this cute girl tapped me on the shoulder. Spoke to me in Spanish, told her “I speak English.”

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#187

She proceeded to ask me “Are you from Punta Cana?” She had clearly seen my tank top which was from there.

I said no “I’m from here, blah blah blah”. Next thing you know I was chatting to this beautiful Nicaraguan girl for a whole 45 mins. Totally my type in every way. I never even knew my type until I met her but she was IT. I was so distracted that I missed an entire show. It was just background noise lol.

But… suddenly her friend tapped her on the shoulder and they left. “She smiled, said goodbye and it was nice to meet you”. But their was an awkward pause… and 10 seconds later I realized something

I DIDNT GRAB HER NUMBER OR HER INSTAGRAM…WTF IS WRONG WITH ME.

I let this perfect girl just walk out of my life like it was nothing… I’m so mad at myself. It’s been bothering me for days. I even tried finding her through the festivals Instagram account but had no luck.

How could I be so stupid and careless :sweat:

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#188

What is so special about LBFH?

#189

No worries bro there will be more opportunities! Next time bro try grabbing her # in the beginning of the convo :wink:

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#190

Have you ran it? Everyone’s nice to you, gives you compliments, goes out of their way to help you. It’s makes me super funny, happy, a better person overall. I’m always happy (when not in recon).

Just read the sales page again or better yet run it and , you’ll understand.

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#191

Yup lol, lesson learned :sweat_smile:

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#192

I literally mean it, now that you are able to have these convos… It will defintly happens again. I don’t think you would of been able to do that last year (and I could be wrong, bc it’s subtle energetic differences)! It’s a good proof of growth IMO.

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#193

100%

I mean maybe it could’ve happened but I was much more closed off this time last year. I wasn’t confident being social or talking to new people so I probably would’ve flopped.

But it’s funny you mention that cause at the end of this weekend I realized I had like zero social anxiety what so ever. I was totally fine being social and I was really good at it lol.

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#194

I tried it once and the second day I was more funny than usual therefore I have it in my new custom which I am currently waiting for.

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#195

Wanted’s been doing the most.

  • Got 2 compliments on my hair cut (both girls)
  • Had 2 Latina girls smile and stare at me as I was walking by them at the gym.
  • A blonde girl walked up to the machine I was using and sensually touched the rope, waited for me to notice, smiled laughed and walked away.
  • Tons of women in general staring at me, in the gym, when I’m driving, or just out in public.
    A girl at the festival locked eyes with me and 10 seconds later pulled out her little makeup kit and fixed herself up… and proceeded to keep catching my eye. Her and her friend weren’t even facing the performer lol and they kept looking back.
  • Another girl at the festival kept turning around and trying to catch my eye, even started moving really close to me lol
  • Same thing happened with another girl, who seemed like she was taken.
  • A girl who was taken was grinding on her boyfriend and eventually moved in front of me and kept rubbing her butt on me lmao. Eventually her boyfriend pulled her away from me.
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#196

Or in a shower, right :slight_smile: ?

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#197

And how do you know it is only from Wanted? You are also listening to Khan so it could be a synergy of both.

#198

Agreed, honestly I don’t care what sub is giving me what results. As long as I’m getting the results that’s all I care about :joy:

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#199

Yes, that is all that matters. I just wanted to clarify it for someone who is interested in Wanted reviews.

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#200

Lol it makes sense now. Being at the festival, seeing all these beautiful women with all these different characteristics and features. They were pre results from Heartsong.

It’s kind of cool cause I’ve never really consciously thought about what I like in girls. So when my friend asked me “What’s your type? I’ve never asked you before.” It got me thinking a lot…

I think I’ll write down all the traits I like and see if anything changes as I continue running HS.

Likes:

  • Slightly shy (at first)
  • Extroverted
  • Younger , 2-4 years
  • Gorgeous, I can’t be better looking then my girl.
  • Idolizes me, can’t be any settling down type of shit. She has to be crazy about me.
  • Likes PDA, can’t be shy about it. Also loves physical touch in general, cuddles, holding hands etc.
  • Artistically talented (music, dancing, drawing etc)
  • Takes care of physical appearance, dresses well, smells good, does her hair, makeup, etc:
  • Feminine, submissive, girly girl. Borderline princess types.
  • Not promiscuous, 1 or 2 relationships before me is fine. If she was riding the carousel, I can tell and I can’t get down with that.
  • Voluptuous body type, 5’6 and shorter
  • Clear, soft tan skin #melaninmatters
  • Does cute things with her hair. Straightens it, braids it, flower behind one ear, etc. (No pig tails though lol)
  • Nice, Sweet, family oriented, humble and kind
  • Adventurous, optimist, low neuroticism.
  • Works out, not too muscular though.

Dislikes:

  • Introvert, quiet.
  • Tall girls
  • Low energy, depressed types
  • Career driven
  • Bad girls, idealizes Kylie Jenner types, “ima boss babe”
  • Cool laid back girls.
  • Tom boys, I hate all masculine traits in women (except extroversion)
  • Likes to argue
  • Doesn’t respect men
  • Challenges me, (my judgment, my leadership, my manhood)
  • Disrespectful, argumentative
  • Likes banter, flirting is fine but I’m not trying to have roasting matches with my girl
  • Sporty girls, team sports specifically. Anything where she needs to compete. If it’s Gymnastics, or diving, something more artistic and solo it’s cool.
  • Does drugs, drinks too much, smokes or vapes.
  • Has promiscuous friends or male friends
  • Shows off the goods on social media, I like my girls a bit more on the classy side.
  • Intellectual girls, yeah she can be smart. But girls who make their entire personality based on how smart they are is a turn off. Don’t want to have political debates with my chick.
  • Girls who are into topics like Covid, climate change, LGBTQ rights, political stuff.
  • Girls who seek too much attention
  • Tattoos and nose piercings
  • Eats bad food and doesn’t take care of herself
  • Plays video games, I don’t even play video games so no thank you :joy:
  • Red heads, lol idk why but never been attracted to em.
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