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[Tobyone]

@Matalexander305

She’s responsive and flirts back, also uses the same sort of innuendos. But she annoys me cause she often reads my texts then answers them hours later. I do the same but at least I don’t send read message receipts

This is to me what Wanted will ultimately get rid of in you, the attachment and inner storylining about why women would do this. I find that some women like to take their time answering after reading the message because they want to let what you write sink in first. If that’s the case, the things you are telling yourself in your own head might be the reason, and that irks you, might not even be about you but how she is operating. This is just crating suffering in you for no reason.

But this is great, you are beocming aware of this attachment in yourself now. In the end, women are fun and great having around, but why take it so serious, lighten up

[Matalexander305]

@Tobyone

If that’s the case, the things you are telling yourself in your own head might be the reason, and that irks you, might not even be about you but how she is operating. This is just crating suffering in you for no reason.

@Tobyone

This is to me what Wanted will ultimately get rid of in you, the attachment and inner storylining about why women would do this

Yeah I often find myself pondering why she’s doing it, even though I know I shouldn’t. Matter of fact, I’ve always done this with past flings & relationships. Perhaps wanted will help me instil a more detached mindset.

@Tobyone

I find that some women like to take their time answering after reading the message because they want to let what you write sink in first.

That’s probably what it is, also English isn’t her first language so theirs that lol.

@Tobyone

But this is great, you are beocming aware of this attachment in yourself now. In the end, women are fun and great having around, but why take it so serious, lighten up

LOL fine only cause you said so

[Deadpool]

Write to her in Spanish, maybe then will her responses will be shorter

[Tobyone]

@Matalexander305

LOL fine only cause you said so

Lol…

@Matalexander305

Yeah I often find myself pondering why she’s doing it, even though I know I shouldn’t. Matter of fact, I’ve always done this with past flings & relationships. Perhaps wanted will help me instil a more detached mindset.

Masculine expression is being unreactive, so in a way it’s kind of turned up side down from what most men learn to embody growing up. I like the Wanted archetype in that it kind of uses more feminine energies to establish connection, the hot and cold, and engaging her that way. But then also from a solid grounded base where you are totally non-attached to the outcome, which is a super masculine trait.

[Matalexander305]

I think I’m just dealing w deep recon in regards to relationships. For my whole life, I’ve associated more pain with relationships than pleasure.

It’s always felt like gambling. The highs are super high and rare and the pain is strong and frequent. It doesn’t even feel worth the pursuing most of the time.

Maybe that’s why I avoided them for so long, being single is more balanced. No highs and no low lows, it’s pretty steady… but then I miss out on one of the best parts of life

Oh well, I’ll work through it.

[Skadoosh]

@Tobyone

This is to me what Wanted will ultimately get rid of in you, the attachment and inner storylining about why women would do this.

This is very true in my opinion.

@Matalexander305

I feel like I don’t know how to text her. (Or if I even should)

That’s alright, lol. Text is the most overrated shit ever in my opinion. Like ever, ever.

If she’s attracted to you, she’s not going to give 2 shits about how you text. That’s not even factored into attraction.

Imagine you have a 10/10 good looking guy but he texts like a robot. Women don’t give a shit.

I’ll give you another analogy like, imagine some unattractive dork is really good at texting. He has all of the timing, emojis, openers and convo starters down to a T.

She’s not gonna go “oh my god, his texting is so hot, I wanna sleep with him”. Hell no, lol.

I do this shit all the time. I could have the dumbest conversation and texts ever and go “wanna meet up?” and they’ll say yes. Believe me, the shit don’t matter. Never fall into text traps like delayed responses, left on read, tone etc.

Let them play all the games they want in text because it gives them the illusion that they have things under control. It’s just text, right. So when you meet up in person… you have a million other more important variables that she has to respond to congruently like your physicality, looks, halo effect, energy, your competence, who you are as a total package, etc. Like, it shocks them, I don’t know how to explain, lol.

Basically, if you wanna text her then text her, if you don’t wanna then don’t. No amount or type of texting is going to change the fact that she was leaning into you to get kissed or groping your thigh earlier.

[Matalexander305]

@Skadoosh

Imagine you have a 10/10 good looking guy but he texts like a robot. Women don’t give a shit.

Good analogy lol, I keep forgetting I’m running Wanted (and khan lmao). I’m the prize, not the woman. Texting game is for PUA’s and I’m certainly not one of those

@Skadoosh

Let them play all the games they want in text because it gives them the illusion that they have things under control. It’s just text, right. So when you meet up in person… you have a million other more important variables that she has to respond to congruently like your physicality, looks, halo effect, energy, your competence, who you are as a total package, etc. Like, it shocks them, I don’t know how to explain, lol.

I get what you’re saying, they can play games behind their screens but in person…it’s game over lol. It’s not like they catch feelings over text lol, it happens IN PERSON. All the thrilling moments that replay in her head over and over don’t happen over text lmao.

@Skadoosh

Basically, if you wanna text her then text her, if you don’t wanna then don’t. No amount or type of texting is going to change the fact that she was leaning into you to get kissed or groping your thigh earlier.

Lmfao you right, thanks

[Skadoosh]

@Matalexander305

I get what you’re saying, they can play games behind their screens but in person…it’s game over lol. It’s not like they catch feelings over text lol, it happens IN PERSON. All the thrilling moments that replay in her head over and over don’t happen over text lmao.

Big facts, exactly. Lmao

Game over, no joke. That’s why texting is like “lol”… because whatever happens, you know that when you meet up… your hands are going to be all over her. Eye contact is going to be crazy. Seduction will be bombastic. She smells your scent and her heart starts racing. At that point the only thing she can delay is your lips pressed against hers or her orgasm.

All of the text chats that occurred are erased from her mind. She’ll probably only confirmation bias the good out of them and give you a halo-effect. You can’t really go wrong.

So yeah, until you meet again, the game is pretty much paused and there’s nothing you can do. No point in overthinking it.

You might feel bored but I would take the time to keep cultivating yourself as a badass, prized man. Developing yourself further as a Wanted/Khan individual.

Just keep killing shit dude, you’re the party. The fun never stops when you are the fun.

[Matalexander305]

@Skadoosh

Just keep killing shit dude, you’re the party. The fun never stops when you are the fun.

Love this haha

[Deadpool]

@Skadoosh

She’s not gonna go “oh my god, his texting is so hot, I wanna sleep with him”. Hell no, lol.

Lol, this made my day . You are saying the truth. I like your insights.

[RVconsultant]

@Skadoosh

So when you meet up in person

Also I find women tend to be less judgmental, less rejecting, and more open when you are there face to face with them. I find that if a woman really likes you, you really have to put in some effort to fuck it up.

[Skadoosh]

@RVconsultant

Also I find women tend to be less judgmental, less rejecting, and more open when you are there face to face with them.

Face to face communication consists of facial expressions, body language, eye contact and voice tone etc. Infinitely more variables compared to text-based communication. You actually have to behave in accordance to presence. Emotions, intentions and authenticity are clearer and it becomes easier to empathize and understand someone on an interpersonal level. When you’re face to face, you have no choice but to automatically connect with each other. Visibility, accountability, connection, immediacy, real-time impact, social norms, inhibitions without detachment, subtleties, and clarity of conveyance… among many other things is why they’re less judgmental, less rejecting and more open.

Humans are meant to meet up. I don’t believe in seduction that isn’t face to face. Too much missing and incomplete.

I personally never use dating apps or play text “games” - waste of time. That’s just me though, lol.

[Matalexander305]

Reconning hard asf

Literally want to block this stupid girl. Who tf she thinks he is leaving me on read back to back?

Then when I ignore her for a day she had the audacity to say “oh so serious sir?” (In Spanish)

I fucking hate relationships, love, flings, everything romantic. So fucking stupid, nothing ever works, it’s always 90% pain, 10% fun.

NOT WORTH IT

How do people even have healthy relationships? I literally don’t get it. My parents argued and were constantly at each others throats until they got divorced so all I know is dysfunction… my life is stupid asf, I can’t stand it.

[Matalexander305]

Like I’ve done how many months of healing?? 5+ with khan st1-st2??

And this dumb shit is still here, f me

[aaa]

Last relationships i have had broke me so much that i sabotaged each romantic relationship, even from ever forming one. Literally even when i was approached i just messed it up by rejecting, freezing inside, emotionally running away and binge eating myself into a fat lart. Fuck man i would have married this woman and we where together for a very long time, then all of the sudden she left without telling me anything. So my journey into seduction began, because i never wanted to feel like that again.

Only recently i have slowly started to feel free again and be naturally flirty, such gratitude for subs. Sometimes it takes a long time before these deep and heavy baggage gets released. And Alchemy might happend for me when i just leaned into that part out of my comfort zone. I hope i meet a feminine woman who is into healing and growing as well.

Stay strong man, it will be worth it.

[Matalexander305]

Took a 4 day washout, feeling much better.

Wanted has my abs looking real solid. Down 7 lbs in the last 3 weeks…(completely unintentional.)

Training them 3-4 times a week has been a game changer

[Matalexander305]

Genesis looking real good right now, could be exactly what I’m looking for. The great balancer, the sub to get me moving in the right direction . To stop neglecting the parts of my life holding me back.

But I don’t want to drop anything in my stack

Custom? Khan/Wanted? Can’t afford it lol FML

Oh well, something’s gotta give. I hate feeling stuck

[Deadpool]

Drop LBFH.
Genesis has “Develop a deep sense of love for your inner self.” as well.
Also, it has some kind of Love bomb’s aura.

[Matalexander305]

Took a 5 day washout, felt better. Run all subs once.

Monday LBFH + ASC
Tuesday none
Wednesday Khan + Wanted
Thursday None
Friday LBFH
Saturday STOOPID RECON

I don’t understand, this is what I’ve done for the last 2 cycles and I was doing alright. Now it’s complete torture. Anger, depression, anxiety. Nothings positive. Nothing’s working. No results, just trash.

I feel ugly, I don’t want to be seen. I’m tired and don’t know what to do. I’m closed off to the world, I’m quiet, shy. Like wtf is wrong, I don’t get it.

I’m taking another washout. Doing a 2 day music festival next weekend and I don’t want to be in recon for that

[Matalexander305]

Ran into an old hockey teammate at the gym. It’s funny, I was so down and suddenly I just snapped out of it as soon as we started talking lol.

Maybe I’m just becoming more extroverted and I don’t have enough friends to satisfy my need to get out there and talk to ppl. Does that make sense?

It’s like I’m still living the same old life, and my external reality hasn’t caught up yet. It’s not to my satisfaction and the dissonance is messing with me.

Like I literally can’t think of one social interaction I had this week. Like besides short surface level work interaction, but nothing… idk deep? Nothing personable? I feel like I need more of that.