I’m in the middle of a washout and I can tell for certain that the subtle overload is disappearing.
13 on 4 off is not sustainable. Either 11 on 4 off or 13 on 5 off.
If i had used 13 on 4 off one after another, I’d get an overload for sure.
That’s a good find. My intuition was right all along.
I’m gonna start the break for HeO early too.
I’m not taking any chances with 0.5 month of DRR2 next month.
1.5 months break from HeO.
3.5 months break from DRR1
I plan to use DRR4 later for 1.5 months. Since it has a part of DRR1 in it, the break can be counted as only 2-3 months.
It’s time for solo LE for the remainder of this month.
It’s overkill, but i want to take out as many variables that could increase the burden on top of DRR2’s recon as possible.
Writing this got me thinking.
One of the biggest reasons I can stick to subs for a long time is simply because I’ve already achieved most of what I wanted in life. It also helps that I didn’t keep moving the goalpost after that.
I have the kinds of struggles that I want to deal with, enjoyments that I care about, people that I want in life etc.
I already have most of what I want.
Subs are just a lubricant/grease to help me enjoy life even more with its ups and downs.
That’s why I rarely got a dire need towards using other subs.
Most of what subs can potentially give me, I either already have or I can just do it by myself.
Here is where HeO comes in. It is the only sub that I can’t just do on my own. It showed me another layer of fulfilment that I can’t yet achieve by myself.
That’s why sticking with HeO is the easiest choice I have. DRR1 is also an easy pick since it is a holistic booster that enhances the results of other subs like no other. My plan with other subs in the store is to increase what’s already above my goals, it’s to attain excess on top of excess. It’s different with HeO, I can’t achieve that level without the sub yet.
LBFH used to be like HeO too, but I’ve finally reached the level I like without having to use the sub anymore after around a year of use total.
Maybe one of the biggest keys to stick with a sub is to be content with what you have in the first place.
Prioritize 1 goal at a time. Slowly bring it up until you get it to a satisfactory level. Then choose another goal next.
I’m in the same situation, I already achieved virtually everything I wanted before I found SC. But at my age (52) and having done that it’s easy to become content and start to slow down and cruise towards retirement. I’ve certainly thought about it, it has a certain attraction, but that way lies stagnation and gradual decay. That desire for personal growth and self exploration that was a key driver in my earlier years in still there. Back then it was mostly through traveling and living in different countries and exploring new cultures, and also using that to drive my career forward. These last few years I’ve basically settled down so these subs are a great way for me to maintain a level of transformation and growth.
I can’t imagine taking retirement ever.
Striving to be better is the joy of my life.
I have the kinds of struggles that i want to go through. Struggles towards what I care about, for those i care about.
The more i achieve, the more i realize the struggles don’t go away, they become different. I’d never want to go back to the struggles i had back then, endlessly forced to do things i don’t care about. The kinds of endless striving i have now in contrast is way better. These, with their ups & downs, are what i want.
I don’t know what will happen a few decades from now though. Maybe there’ll come a time when i’d want to stop & settle down.
Honestly, that thought scares me a bit, that’s one of the reasons i live as healthily as possible. So i can be at/near my peak as long as i can.
As they say, you retire you expire.
I’ve seen insane decay from people who chose to retire.
It comes faster than people expect.
I think the perfect retirement for me is one where i don’t go on a full rest all day, but a semi-retirement where i still manage some things but with reduced capacity.
YES!
This is perfect for what I want.
LE for productivity & creativity
HeO to put that creativity into action
DRR1 to increase the potency of everything.
The pivot from the L being BL to Limitless means it will pivot from short term into long term too.
I’m loving where it is going already.
FUCK YEAH.
LE is back on the stack rotation.
No further questions necessary.
LE 15m
I planned to rest today, but I found myself working anyway.
LE is strong. I like this.
I hope it retains its strength so I won’t get fucked up next month.
DRR1 has really loosened something up inside me. It cleansed something, many things. Idk what exactly, but it is enhancing many aspects of my life.
If I didn’t subject myself to this “1-3 months break after 4-6 months of use” experiment, I’d have still stuck with DRR1. It’s such a great sub. The best booster in the whole store.
I’m living my life.
HeO for the fulfilment, DRR1 to enhance that & to break whatever is blocking it.
This is the perfect stack. I love it.
DR + LE is such a cool stack now that I think about it
It is
Limitless + Executive with some of Emperor in it, combined with the best booster in the store.
DRR boosts LE.
LE makes sure DRR won’t fuck up your productivity too much (in theory, i hope it works).
Have you considered name embeds since u run titles for so long
LE + Illusions of the mind or an updated title plus the anti-recon module would be sick for you.
I’m not really thinking about it at the moment.
Getting a name embedded sub is good for depth, speed, and smoothness.
But those three, I’m already plenty satisfied with.
HERO + Rembrandt
DRG1 + Synergy: Energetic Transcendence
EoG1 (now LE) + Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
HeO + Synergy: Primordial Aura
I was so close to making them once it was announced, but i decided to hold back because HeO was not updated yet. Now that the hype has died down, I realized I already have more than enough.
Maybe I’ll get one when the new HERO title is out. If it’s harder for me to run, then it’s a good idea to get a name embedded.
I’m a bit apprehensive about getting a recon related module, especially on a sub where I don’t get much recon to begin with.
While it can help me process recon faster, potentially boosts even outside of recon, speed is not my priority. It’s nice to have things go faster, but I use subs as long as possible anyway, I’ll reach that point eventually.
in case this helps
turn recon into lessons
This as well.
I’d have no time in my day if I had to clear my lower quality entries 
So much is just processing to alchemize. I personally think there is value of our own records and patterns of what didn’t work or just venting (for ourselves and others) but respect and understand your choice to have high quality only.
That’s incredible, can I ask how old you are? Also if your open to sharing what you’ve set out to achieve and accomplished?
I’ve noticed this from Khan Total Breakdown. It enhances everything else, with a certain ‘flavor’. I NEVER thought of DDR until you’re journal. I’m thinking it may be worth experimenting with in the future to enhance everything.
Is the recon hit hard initially before enhancing I imagine
Have you tried DDG ? I feel like that shares the virtue scripting of Hero or has some resonance there
It only takes a few minutes a day.
When i’m free, i search for them, put them in a group tab, then i delete them whenever I have the time & the daily time limit is over.
That way, the time wasted is only my free time.
Edit:
I just looked at the group tab again, there are at least a hundred messages there ready to be deleted, rofl.
I’d love to share, but I also take “don’t share personal information on the internet” quite seriously.
That’s why you’ll barely see any journal about Mogul here, even when I rave so much about it.
Maybe a cleansing sub is a good general booster, then.
DRR1 is different from DRLD in that it’s broader in its application.
That’s why I call it a holistic booster. I wonder if it’s similar to khan.
I was very cautious the first 2 weeks I started DRR1.
Only +3s every listening day starting from 0s.
But one day I tried 15m just for fun. I realized that DRR1 gave me no recon whatsoever.
It feels like nothing, but when I assess how I was before & after DRR1, it’s clear how potent it is.
I want to use DRG1 next year.
But DRR1 is already perfect, so I’ll ride the wave first before switching.
I’m just that satisfied with DRR1. It’s one of the best subs I’ve ever used.
I think I’m starting to connect the dots here about how the anti-recon scripting works.
I’ll definitely try it with a recon inducing sub whenever I see a viable way to include a sub with that scripting in my stack.
Jumping straight to DRR2 might be stupid, so I’ll test drive it for 30s tomorrow.
If even that is too much, the mission will be aborted, and I’ll go straight to DRR3 instead.
LE 15m DRR2 30s
No recon.
Now I know it’s not severe, I’ll try 1m next week.
Update 1:
I just realized it now, the usual shift in perspective towards inner power that DRR2 usually brings is back.
30s is enough.
I’m tempted to keep DRR2 longer in the stack.
But DRR4 also has a part of DRR2’s scripting in it, so either way, i’m getting enough of what i want from DRR2.
This confirms that there’s no ridiculous recon from a microloop of DRR2.
So i’m sure i can safely go through DRR2 next month as long as I’m being reasonable.
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It might be a good idea to stick with DRR4 until i’m satisfied with the healing, then go back to DRR1 for its pure holistic booster capability after.
I can use it situationally too.
DRR1 when i’m super busy.
DRR4 when i have the free time.
Let’s see whether this plan survives or not after i try DRR4 2 months from now.
Depending on how good the anti-recon scripting is in LE/HeO/HERO,
I might properly advance through DRR’s stages instead of just using them briefly as I originally planned.
I’m content with DRR1’s effects, but I’m curious about testing the new scripting.
I can’t do that without recon. So the best option is to advance the stages.
I’m also intrigued by DRR2’s effects after I used it this morning.
I’m going to bet that the new LE + DRR2,3,4 will be enough to replace DRR1 in the meantime.
If they are not, or if the scripting is not strong enough, I’ll go back to DRR1.
I’ll also microloop the hell out of these stages.
+10s every listening day starting from 0.
While I’m excited for the new anti-recon scripting, I won’t abuse it either.
This might be more serious than i expected.
After observing this for a while, I think DRR1 cleansed something deeper than just sexual expression related blockages.
I didn’t expect this.
It has been happening since before i used DRR2 this morning, but i wasn’t quite sure yet.
After that little push from DRR2, now I understand what’s happening.
DRR1 hit something that’s way deeper than i expected.
Something that i thought i had gone over after years of struggle, but in fact, a good portion of it was just blocked by my head. DRR1 cleared that blockage. I just became aware of it now.
It’s not just nice to have DRR2’s inner power scripting to accompany this cleansing, it is necessary. I’ve gone through this before, i know what I need. I jumped ship at the right time (maybe my subconscious already knew this, that’s why i started thinking about advancing the stages earlier).
DRR1 cleared not just the trash, but also a whole dam in that “second burst of effects”.
This is not about recon anymore, if i don’t want to risk losing my productivity, i might gonna need professional guidance for this.
I hope this won’t be as bad as how it was back then. I’m significantly more in control & better geared than how i was back then, so i’m sure i’ll get through this one way or another.
I might need to say fuck it and drop HeO & my plan to use the new HERO title in favor of LBFH, depending on how this goes.
LE to keep my productivity up.
Aggressive microloops of LBFH & DRR2 to deal with this potential shit show.
Update 1:
Fuck it’s back.
But my response is different from how it was years ago.
I’m also starting to notice which parts of my body tense up when it happens.
This is fine.
If it continues to go like this, maybe I won’t need to take such big precautions after all.
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The risks outweigh the potential gains from HeO/HERO, or from any subs.
LE + aggressive microlooping of DRR2/LBFH until I’m sure this won’t spiral too far like it did back then.
This caught me off guard when it finally came to my consciousness. But when I look at what I’ve been doing this far, I realized that I actually have been planning & mitigating this shitstorm subconsciously.
Workload, schedule, safety nets etc. It’s as if I already knew that I’ll have to face this unblocked shitstorm a few months in advance.
Looking at how things are going right now, I may be able to go through this just fine, but there’s no harm in taking extra precautions and getting professional help.
I’ll observe more for a week. Then I’ll decide whether I’ll schedule a meeting or not.
LE 15m LBFH 15m DRR2 10s
Productivity fucked, lol.
Well, it’s a special circumstance, so that’s to be expected.
I decided to just go full loop with LBFH.
The “recon” from a full loop is just a tiny bit of lethargy anyway.
My biggest problem with it is I become more social on it.
Which is not a downside, but that requires me to put more effort to refocus on my goals.
My sweetspot for using LBFH is no LBFH anymore, since it has changed me enough over the past 2 years.
But with the current situation, fuck yeah, bring me all that social life.
Fixing this situation is more dire than being more productive.
I want all the help i can get my hands on. Because if it spiraled like it did years ago, i’m fucked. Unlikely, but i’m not taking any chances.
Some bodily reactions I observed:
I workout less than usual & have less workload lately. So it’s not from overtraining/overwork.
I also have healthy eating habits, good social relations, no alcohol drugs cigs etc.
I don’t understand what’s happening in my mind and body.
Everything is out of the usual.
Well, I’ll just suck it up and hope things will stabilize soon.