The White ball of light energy is a bad idea as it attracts astral entities to you while just dissolving the energy back to the greater All. Cloaking is better if you fight astral entities.
if you wanna use energy it is much smarter to either use the feeling/emotion felt as a catalyst to bring about change by going through the emotion and acting in spite of it. Or to spend it through movement or creativity if it’s too violent, go on a jog, draw, sing, do pumps, etc.
Although I’m new to the domain, the migraine sounds like reconciliation to me.
being sick and having a migraine sounds a lot like internal conflict.
this almost crying is proof.
Crying is a way for the body to treat stress and other high emotions, to regulate.
Emotion and feelings are pure energy, there to push for change.
negative emotions/feelings are there to indicate you’re going the wrong way and to give you the energy to correct course (whether you are conscious of your goal/path or not), positive emotions/feelings are there to indicate you’re on the right path and to give you the energy to push forward.
Both are needed to act as a compass and as fuel for you to fulfil your goal and go through any obstacle.
There are always obstacles on the path, there to make you stronger and more resilient, to build your vessel (body-mind ensemble, soul) to be able to handle your desired state of being.
Though there are always obstacles, you also always have the tools necessary to get through it.
The goal being worked toward by your unconscious being set through your active conscious imagination or through what you absorb from around you and take personally.
subs are there to help reconfigure the goal toward something more positive and more useful, and to help remove the self-imposed limiting beliefs barriers so that You (both your conscious and unconscious Self, your spirit-mind ensemble) may do whatever is necessary to get to your goal as easily as possible. Though there will be obstacles, You will have a wider and easier access to the tools necessary to get through it.
Being sensitive to the environment is difficult, it is easy to get overwhelmed when people keep throwing energy/emotions and projecting beliefs around. and it is even harder when we attach to them, when we try to get a hold of them to analyse them instead of letting them run through you. like standing in the river and spreading your arms instead of keeping them close and letting the water rush around you.
However, being sensitive is a tool that allow one to reach their social goals more easily, once tamed.
Lessons (such as hostile manipulative environments) will keep repeating until you learn how to get through it, until you learn how to deal with it, until you evolve beyond.
But know that you can and will get through it.
You are on your path and accumulating merits, building up your strength so that you can pass this obstacle.
like the temperature, slowly rising in a frozen room, until it become hot enough to melt the ice.
How much you progressed will become clear in time. All progress is invisible until it materializes, qnd then it become obvious how much you’ve grown.
