Vibes + Seductress + DR: Regen

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Starting a new journal for better tracking purposes, my other one is all over the place.

I decided to add Vibes stage 1 to my stack. I always wanted to run this title and kept putting it off till I achieved some other goals. But I realized after running DR: Regen for a bit and learning how to understand my own needs how important music really is to me.

My plan is to basically start from scratch. Forget everything I thought I knew about making music and just approach it as if I don’t know anything and let Vibes guide me towards better strategies.

I’ve got a TOOOOON of learning resources I haven’t tapped into because I procrastinate all the time. And I have a bunch of ideas for how to make my overall workflow smoother but I have to map it out better.

It’s been hurting my soul lately to watch all these days and weeks slip by without making music and I really want to change that. I can feel the creative urge and fire inside me, but I hit a wall with getting it out into the world.

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#2

Today’s lessons from DR: Regen. (I can’t be the only one that sees that and thinks Doctor Regen lol)

What am I supposed to be vs who do I want to be?

I’ve filtered my entire life through other’s expectations of me. So much so to the point where I genuinely get confused when I realize I don’t have to do something. Like I’m forever dreading having to climb the corporate ladder for a good job and then I stop and realize I literally don’t have to do that. I still have this weird anticipation anxiety that down the road I’m going to have to do that and it’s this feeling of dread. Maybe that’s because I pushed myself on that life path for so long and ignored every impulse in me to do something different out of fear.

Freedom to be myself, make my own choices, live my own life. Such a simple concept, but incredibly hard to execute for me.

Can’t even choose the right subs for myself sometimes lol