Carnivaaaal!
Day 04 of partying!
the whole country stops to celebrateeee
It’s so good
It’s home → carnival block → home → carnival block → repeat.
Lots of kissesss!
and everything that Carnival is about:
Sexual success…
Beautiful men and women more available for sexual involvement…
Love drugs, dancesss, parties…
I’m listening AOH + Genesis + PR everyday
That’s the real deal, nothing matters
People are sharing my vibe and I’m flowing with them
(( CARNIVAL DAYS ))
What I lived and how much I grew these past days can’t even be put into words.
It was intense—I’d only go home to sleep. Wake up, head straight to another street block.
During Carnival, I wanted to feel the full power of the subs, so I decided listen Genesis + Art Of Happiness + Primal Romance everyday
I mean, did I have recon in the middle of parties and at the peak of euphoria? Yeah. But it was worth it.
I felt like a machine. I was with a group of people who had reached the some power level (talking about Maslow here), and I felt I was at their level. Or at a level where they looked at me as someone important.
This group of about 15 people went out together almost every day, partying and getting crazy as one.
Beyond the partying, I learned a lot—about life and about my own stance towards people.
Two fellows and a woman were my biggest teachers these days. I learned a lot from dealing with them and seeing how they interact with the world.
It wasn’t all sunshine and roses. I had to deal with some heavy stuff, with my shadow. But I also discovered a new ability in me—to listen to more audios, to push my exposure further.
I felt like a machine.
Now that the party’s over, my focus is money.
I won’t leave romance aside, but I realized that conducive environments make things much better.
These experiences that I had on carnival —and the incredible people I connected with—opened a door for me to start feeling like a new person.
I’m not the same person I was before that. That’s a fact.
Now that I’ve seen PR, Gen, and AoH shine in golden intense days, I’m going all in on EoG.
(( WASHOUT ))
Washout, day 4
Observing and re-evaluating everything I’ve experienced these past days. Resting more, too.
Beyond that, reflecting on which of these experiences were truly meaningful for my soul and aligned with my essence.
Yesterday, I had one of the deepest and most comforting experiences of my life when it comes to receiving help from spirituality. I’m feeling immense gratitude.
I want to honor this new version of myself that has emerged and be guided by love—and by my own self—toward the paths that will bring me the most happiness.
One thing I’ve noticed after exposing myself to PR for several days in a row—especially after the experiences I described in the past weeks—is that something about it doesn’t fully fits me.
I still can’t quite put it into words, but something in the script makes me uneasy.
I think it’s the feeling of always being in “hunt” mode.
A lot of times, I just want to be found, without so many games, without having to wear this “primal armor.”
It feels exhausting to be in this constant chase, even though I know it’s a title meant for long-term relationships.
That makes me consider setting it aside and only using it in specific moments.
I was highly desired during Carnival, and I mostly used it for that. I imagine if other titles could bring the same results without the states that PR puts you.
I don’t know… I feel like something in the script is conflicting, in terms of its objectives.
I feel my mind searching for two distinct things at the same time that cannot be unified.
Maybe it’s my personal and subconscious interpretation of the script. But I wonder if other people have felt the same.
(( WASHOUT ))
Washout, day 5
Yeah, I shared these thoughts on the PR thread.
I got an interesting response that made me think. Someone said they wouldn’t recommend PR for single people.
Maybe that’s what’s been so conflicting for me. When I first bought it, I was still with someone, aiming to develop a long-term relationship. But didn’t work out.
I ended up using it anyway—to lay the groundwork and heal some things from my previous relationship.
Either way, the attraction script is so strong that I kept using it to attract some romance here and there.
But now, being realistic, if I want the kind of romance that single people experience, I think I need to swap PR for something else. Or go with Heart Song.
Anyway, next cycle I’ll be switching between subs less.
In my last cycle, I tested what it would be like to alternate between 5 majors while prioritizing 3 of them.
Won’t do that this time.
Genesis and EoG are set for the next cycle.
I’m in a 5-day immersion for the Core Energetics training.
Diving deep into parts of myself. People are noticing how much I’ve changed since the last time we met, five months ago.
This training is, in itself, an incredibly deep dive. Me and a beautiful group living soul transformations together for four years. I’ve changed so much since I started a year ago—my awareness of myself has completely transformed.
These are intense days, so I’m only listening to AoH. The subtle and loving nature of Core Energetics do some deep 'work in us itself. I’m being caring with me, mostly because Core has its own way of moving the deepths of you. I’m also be caring with my friends Soul Journey.
AoH it’s been great for grounding everything.
Anyway, I can see for myself how much I’ve changed and how some transformations are truly more rooted in me now.
I’m still kind of in a “washout” from all the subs I was exposed to these past days.
It’s amazing to see how their influence is settling in—like I’ve actually started perceiving certain things in a completely different way.
Today, I’m completing a 13-day washout.
I guess this is the real time when I can actually see what has truly settled in and what has not.
Anyway, I’m breathing in all the transformations and travessias I went through these days. More than a spiritual transformation, an initiation.
I need a strong foundation to build the life I want and occupy the places my mission will lead me.
EoG is still set for the next cycle.
HS is a big one too, since I’m watching so closely this desire for deep love.
But now I’m reconsidering Genesis. I think I need something deeper to build ground when it comes to status and long-term achievements.
I will do some research on some titles.
Maybe Stark is good for what I’m thinking.
One thing I know — GM: The Commander is definitely one that I feel is very much in alignment with my essence and life mission, but also, I think I need to build more grounding before that.
What would help you decide?
Generally about relationship and subs:
If you are in a relationship: PR
If you’re looking for a serious relationship: HS
If you’re looking for sex: PS, S&S, Wanted, WB
If you’re looking for a Harem: HS+WB
Sexual subs like BDLM, RotNW, SMX, can be run with all of them.
Of course there are a lot more subs like Khan, Emperor etc that have sexual objectives, but they have much broader goals.
Also PR can be run outside of of an relationship to heal traumas, but as you experienced, it’s not an easy ride.
WB shouldn’t be run in a relationship. Turn ls them into a nightmare.
Khan can be hard in a relationship, but doesn’t have to.
“if you are looking for a Harem” hahaha best part 
Thanks for sharing your vision here, very helpful
Actually, it’s more about understanding which subs can help me develop a stronger foundation to truly navigate life with independence, leadership, power, and, most importantly, the wisdom to keep acting with justice and humility in different situations.
Fame isn’t exactly something I seek, but I do need skills to deal with people, their demands, and groups.
I’ve been taking a general look, and the ones that caught my attention the most were: Emp: WtP, Chosen, and GM: The Commander
Not my vision. I’m happily engaged. It’s an official statement. HS attracts partner for deep connections, while WB adds the factor of openness and willingness to share you.
That’s why this combo is the official recommendation for a harem stack.
Makes sense.
I’m paying attention to what I truly want right now—whether it’s just sex or deep connection.
Buuut that’s the thing, I already expect EoG won’t be an easy ride and want to take things slow… Last cycle, I went all in and ended up spreading myself too thin in too many directions haha
I would think DRG or Chosen or Hero: Origins might be worth another look.
I realized that I have completed two weeks of exposure only to AoH.
It was really good to feel and see what truly remained from the last cycles and to experience the ‘blossoming’ effect.
I feel relieved to notice that some changes and ways of thinking have really settled within me. Once again, this gives me hope for the cycle I am about to start with EoG.
But there is something very important that I want to leave here, even for future readers.
By exposing myself only to AoH in the past weeks, I saw how deep the work of just one subliminal can be.
For me, in my experience, exposing myself to five subliminals at the same time turned out to be a form of compulsion—something that prevented me from reaching deeper levels and truly accessing what was holding me back from moving forward.
With AoH, I am feeling the depth that just the reframing script alone can have in someone’s life, and that is already something huge.
That’s why I reaffirm my intention to be more cautious moving forward and to truly commit to what I can handle, including following the microloops guidelines.
I write down all my loops in my planner, and today, with a clearer mind, I was shocked by my past self and the ‘mess’ of subs I was exposing myself to—seeing all the internal work required to process all that. I’m not sure if it was truly helping me.
I have often seen people say that less is more, and I can really see that now.
Beyond that, I feel a deep need to connect with what I call my Essence / Higher Self to seek guidance on what will truly help me in my current life stage and soul journey.
I see the importance of following the guidance that comes from a higher part of myself.
I have exposed myself to subliminals that did not truly resonate with my deepest self or my real goals, like NR. And I feel a certain regret for having spent so much energy on that. Because without alignment, beyond the effort required to process the information, my subconscious also wastes energy resisting the absorption of something I don’t genuinely want.
Anyway, I truly felt like sharing this here.
I don’t want to give the impression that exposing yourself to five major subliminals is all sunshine and rainbows. For me, it did not work as I had hoped. In fact, I only obtained better results when I reduced my focus to three or two. Now, I am seeing significant results with just AoH.
This is my journey.
And for context: this is the journey of someone with heightened sensitivity and ultra-developed intuitive abilities.
That being said, the intensive approach I used during Carnival—exposing myself daily to the same subs for seven days and then taking a significant break—proved to be a powerful booster and played a strong role in this phase of ‘blossoming.’ Even with just AoH, I can feel people reacting to what truly remained from those days—especially the attraction aspect, the aura of respect .
Maybe I’ll continue using this tactic in the future. It was a positive experience that I will keep in my back pocket for when I feel the need for such boost.
Anyway, I’m leaving this recorded here.
I’m keeping going.
Let’s keep going.
So, I’m still flowing with the vibes of AoH… (microloops). It’s been really good. Since my first loop of AoH on 12/29/2024, I felt that it was helping me heal my inner child… and that process is still happening, gradually.
The best thing I’ve noticed in these past two weeks is that I’m deeply connected with my own rhythm and inner desires. I’m becoming more honest about certain things and allowing myself to embrace vulnerable aspects of myself—ones I wouldn’t have even considered looking at with a more loving perspective before.
When I connect with others, it’s also coming from a place of greater truth. I don’t know… I just feel more loving toward myself overall.
I’m also noticing the part of me that says ‘no’ to starting EoG. I think I’m genuinely afraid of losing a part of my identity… experiencing the ‘death’ of aspects of myself that no longer fit, even though I know the script is designed to help me with that.
I see and acknowledge this fear, this ‘NO’ and AoH is helping me be more patient, avoiding any actions that would disrespect my internal rhythm and my need to take more time to process some things about the immersion before stepping into a new journey.
Yeah, yeahh.
I’m excited for the next cycle!
The titles are set:
AoH, EoG, and Sym:S
Maybe I’ll expose myself less to AoH to see what happens during the blooming…
That’s it.
I used the pendulum, connected to my Higher Self, to see what truly aligns with me in this phase of my life.
All three scored more than 90%.
In fact, EoG is 100% aligned
So, let’s go!
I’m thinking about starting a new journal —now that I’ve been reborn and I’m no longer in the Venusian delight.
I’m in a phase of grounding myself with beauty, harmony, strength, courage, and power.
Yeah, just did that.
The Venusian Delight journey is now closed.
New journal: