(( AoH + Genesis + PR ))
I’m still having new experiences with that friend I became friends with benefits.
It’s been amazing.She totally brings that Venusian vibe to me.
Futhermore, we are creating a very open, simple and sexy relationship.
PR is opening the pathway to non-monogamy for me.
(( rest day ))
The experiences that PR is bringing me have been so good. It was quite a weekend.
I could delve deeper and deeper into it and see the creative ways it brings me new situations and people, but I have to focus on money-oriented efforts in the coming days.
If I let myself, I stay in this river of love, wanting to love many, many women and not doing what’s needed in other areas.
I guess I’ll have to make choices.
(( RICH + AoH + Genesis ))
I messed up my body on Sunday, so these daysI am more at home.
It’s weird because I’m dying to go out into the world and explore, but this pain ended up forcing me to take a break.
It’s been good for studying and doing what needs to be done, though.
What I like most about Genesis is that I feel completely driven to act. I let myself be guided and sometimes I do important things without even thinking about it.
By chance, I have made a connection with a new person who wants to pay me for something I have never been paid for. She is very happy that I am going to help her with some cultural and artistic stuff.
So yeah, RICH is paving the way.
(( rest day ))
I’m so excited that new RoW and new EoG just dropped!!!
UHHHH,
I’ll need to reorganize what I listen to from now on.
(( AoH + RoW + Genesis ))
My exposure capacity has improved. Yesterday, for the first time, I managed to hear 5’55” of a track—my first exposures barely lasted 30 seconds.
After seeing all the movement around RoW, I decided to buy it and listened to a 1-minute loop. At some point, I thought, “They understood what I needed, even though I didn’t know myself.”
It felt like I finally accessed what I needed to stop procrastinating on money-related goals. The perception is still subtle, but it’s clear that having a good relationship with money is about being responsible for my own life.
My priorities moving forward:
I forgot to mention, but the Venusian girl is totally getting some benefits from AoH just by being around me.
I personally believe we exchange a lot sexually with others, and I think she’s absorbing some of the vibes from the subs I’ve been listening to.
Basically, I went to her place yesterday, and when I got there, everything was transformed. She put up new curtains, rearranged the furniture, and added new decorations. The energy in her house feels so much nicer now. It instantly reminded me of AoH in this aspect.
Processing, processing, processing…
I’m processing so many things, in so many areas.
RoW + AoH + Genesis + PR are dancing in my mind.
I feel my mind making an effort to align the different fronts that each of them brings.
I’m going to reduce the number of major titles this week.
I feel like RoW is going to completely change my life. It already is—after just two loops, I felt myself maturing on some level I can’t quite put into words yet.
This weekend, I participated in a very important dance residency.
I accessed a lot of valuable insights about my current moment, my professional aspirations, and how to bring into the world what’s already vibrating within me.
It was a weekend full of learning and exchanges with artists I admire. I’m feeling very grateful for everything I experienced.
But that’s it: body, mind, and emotions need some rest.
So… little washout…
I find it interesting to observe how PR plays out in me. I often use it with specific intentions, but things unfold in ways that don’t necessarily align with my initial goals—at least not in the way my ego would like.
Lately, I’ve distanced myself from the Venusian girl, and I’m questioning whether our relationship truly meets my deeper needs. More than that, I’m wondering if she’s the kind of person I want to be with in the long-term.
Honestly, after ending my last four-year relationship, I want to stay far away from serious commitments—but PR keeps making me reflect on this.
I’ve been exploring and thinking about non-monogamy while also questioning what really drives people to seek these experiences. I was opening up to it, but I realized I was prioritizing the Venusian girl a LOT. After two mismatches, I’m now being more mindful of how I give priority to her. 
Despite these relationship matters, Genesis is building some great momentum. It’s creating a really cool flow of places I have to be. People are inviting me to interesting activities and opportunities that are genuinely good for me are just showing up.
I met a girl at a bar on Monday, and yesterday we went to the gym together as if it were something completely natural.
I’ve been wanting to join the gym for a while, and she just guided me through the exercises.
Beyond that, I feel more maturity in handling things I used to procrastinate on. (RoW)
I found that this card is guiding me in the times ahead. King of Pentacles.
"It teaches that true power comes from cultivating stability and inner wealth before seeking it externally. It is a card that symbolizes a state of spiritual fulfillment through mastery of the material world."
Discovering ways to embody it in my life.
(( RoW + AoH ))
Things have been very internal lately. There’s a lot to process. I feel the need to look inward and be with myself. The thing is, at the same time, many things are happening externally.
I posted a dance video that reached more people than I expected, more people are engaging with my work than before. I’m navigating those first feelings of fame and popularity, having admirers… (Genesis + PR?) while also processing some deep feelings about my ex and the fact she is back on town and that I still miss her.
Two opposites… I’m just giving myself space to feel right now, and let my waters flow.
Life has been really busy these past few days. A lot is happening, the year has definitively begun.
I feel like I’m changing, but dealing with the financial aspect has been a challenge.
I decided to set aside any title that isn’t directly related to finances and helping me live my purpose.
I say this because I was listening to Primal Romance more consistently, but I realized that my mind truly prioritizes it when I listen, to the point where other important subs end up being pushed aside.
I think that’s just how I function, I really like to have romantic relationships. But I was also uncomfortable because I felt, in a way, dependent on good romance experiences to feel okay. Besides that, I noticed that things with the Venusian Woman aren’t really going anywhere right now. We’re in very different phases, and in our last few encounters, it became pretty clear what her current priority is: not me.
I’m sticking with this. Even more so because my ex still affects me in some ways, and we see each other fairly often. I need to sort this out.
But more importantly, I need to sort out my financial life.
RoW + AoH + Genesis were what I listened to these past days. Recon certainly came.
Also I’m preparing for ST1 of EoG. I had said it would be my priority this year when it was released, and it really will be.
I’ll only prioritize romance once I’m more financially stable. BUT I’ll make an exception for Carnival.
Here in Brazil, it’s pure fiiiire and this year I’m going to enjoy it as a single person.
Another thing I’ve noticed is that I’ve been more aggressive and impatient with people. I’m fully aware that it’s Genesis.
I wonder if others feel this way too, if it’s recon, but I’ve been really angry about having been a ‘people pleaser’ for so long without realizing it.
I don’t know, I can see people’s intentions more clearly, and I’ve been extremely intolerant when I feel like they’re only seeing me and reaching out to satisfy their own interests—ones that bring me nothing but the feeling of being ‘used’.
I bought EoG.
I’m trusting this year will be the year of gold… even though I’m still a little unbelieving (right now).
I will trust in the power of constancy and discipline.
Now I’m going to reconsider my playlist. I will meditate and ask my higher self for guidance to define next majors.
edit: EoG + AoH + RoW is the response
edit: When I complete some time of RoW, I will cycle it as the sales pages suggest.
(( rest period ))
Third day of rest from row + aoh + genesis.
Recon is hitting so hard.
I don’t want to do anything, it’s been 2 days now, my concentration is low, the feeling of being lost is very strong, I’m crying easily.
Even basic things to resolve (relatively “small” actions) I’m not able to take right now. I don’t feel like doing anything.
(( rest period ))
Yeah… Went to the therapy and I’m feeling way better now.
Core Energetics offers a place where relationship between therapist and client feels more real.
I ended up talking about several things I’ve been facing which brought up my inner child’s pain very intensely. He offered his support, his lap and that was so good and deep for healing.
I’m better than before.
Oh, I forgot to mention—I bought a new mattress, and it’s super comfortable.
It came in a square box, and it’s amazing, very confortable haha.
Art Of Happiness shining.
((( NEW CYCLE! )))
(( EoG + Genesis ))
Wooow. Just had an incredible experience this weekend.
We performed at CCBB, a cultural place of the city, more elitist (?)
And I can definitely say that all these subs are making me more influential in places full of people.
I love what I do. I bring together two sides of my life that I love—art and spirituality, dancing and acting, channeling another being— and I truly creating magic.
I really felt the worth of my art and the value of me as an artist.
Also a good moment going home. In the bus crew, everyone was happy, singing, and jumping around me as we headed home.
And there I was, lying on the bus seat, watching them in front of me, knowing that AoH was present in that moment.
Choices we keep making, right?
I believe that using subs consciously is an act of faith. It’s about consciously training ourselves to stay on a path in this life, while being incarnated.
And that’s when Alchemist: Singularity appears to me… I couldn’t believe when I read the description.
G, when I’m ready and financially stable, I’m definitely going down that path.
(( EoG + PR ))
I confess that EoG is one of the titles I fear the most when it comes to recon, but at this point in my life, the only option I see is to fully surrender to it, body and soul.
I accidentally listened to 2 minutes when I actually wanted to start small to avoid huge recon but I got distracted while listening.
Well, yesterday was a day of accessing some deep emotions. I did some Core Energetics exercises to help release emotions trapped in my body, followed by grounding.
I realized that relationships are a foundational part of my being and that I strongly correlate love and money.
I love having someone by my side to give me support and care, and I truly feel abundant when I have that.
Maybe that’s why the breakup with my ex has been so challenging—she was the person who gave me the most support, love, affection, and care.
PR ended up leading me to reach out to her to talk about unresolved feelings and open up about the difficulties I’ve been having sharing the same spaces with her.
PR is definitely a sub that focuses on the long term—I’m realizing that. I think it’s really good for those already in relationships to build healthy dynamics.
Unfortunately, it can’t be my biggest priority right now.
When I sort some things out, I’ll make space for relationships. I truly want to have someone by my side again as a soulmate.
(( rest day ))
I wish I could process multiple subs at the same time, I really do, but each one is so unique and specific. And they’re becoming more complex with the revelation process / NSE.
The mind really needs support with this. I need to support myself with this.
So, here are some reminders and guidelines for myself on this journey with subs, based on my recent experiences:
Less is truly more. Really good things can happen on rest days.
Microloops work, and they can be very useful in a functional daily routine.
I don’t need to expose myself to new loops while still experiencing headaches/recon from the previous loop.
2 subs are good. 3 is ideal for me. 4 subs might be too much.
It’s okay to stick to just 2 subs if I choose and trust that it’s enough (even Saint is only using 2 to handle recon properly and do what he needs to do).
Keeping my current priorities in mind will help me (re-reading and reinforcing them is important).
WASHOUT is important.
