Since we both know this, I wonāt bother repeating it. Iāll just share my subjective experience, and trust you to apply your best judgment, as you usually do.
1 May, 2020 - I try my first Terminus program. Stark Terminus. As mentioned in the other thread with you, it was my most impressive response in the 9 months (at that time) of using subliminals. I am intrigued.
(I played 1 loop of Stark Terminus every day, but only during my meditation sessions. I felt that would provide a protective buffer to any intense effects.)
24 May, 2020 - I try my second Terminus program: Mindās Eye Terminus2. I feel no disruptive effects or obvious reconciliation effects. I feel a strange soothing kind of deep massage of my mental state. (Still donāt know what that was. But I decided to keep working with it.)
I continue to play Terminus tracks only during daily meditation sessions. Now I alternate Stark Terminus and Mindās Eye Terminus2 (with no rest days). I experience no significant disruptive effects (at least none that I noticed subjectively).
mid-June 2020 - The Q store is unveiled. I design and order my first Custom - PATHS, devoted to Wealth Generation. It includes the Stark Core (together with Ecstasy of Gold and Power Can Corrupt). I include the Stark Core because of my positive experience up to that point and because I work in an intellectual field. I also order it in Terminus build due to the impressive experience with Stark Q Terminus the month before.
This Terminus Custom replaces Stark Terminus in my stack. I am still only playing 2 Terminus tracks. I continue to feel no obvious difficult reconciliation.
mid-June 2020 - a few days after ordering the first Custom, I order a 2nd Terminus Custom. This one, IMBUE, is focused, primarily, on Health, Fitness, and Physically-Driven Wellbeing. As a reconciliation-reducing strategy, I decide only to play this subliminal during physical workouts and fitness activities. (The adaptation, I hypothesized, would already be built into this approach thus minimizing disruption.)
approximately 25-26 June - Iām now working with 3 Terminus tracks (PATHS Terminus (meditation), Mindās Eye Terminus2 (meditation), and IMBUE (workouts).
(This still feels completely comfortable. Also, if it somehow didnāt, Iād be completely fine with discontinuing Mindās Eye Terminus2. But no, itās all good.)
11 July 2020 - I integrate two more Q Standard build titles (Alchemist and Quantum Limitless) to my stack. I experience no disruptively ill effects. But after a week or two, I do become aware of a general, gentle reconciliation rhythm. I call it āthe undulationā. Itās a kind of gentle vibration between high energy of hope and optimism, and low energy of doubt and uncertainty. It seems to be on about a 1 or two week cycle.
6 August 2020 - I integrate Regeneration played at night. I now have a stack with 3 Terminus build tracks and 3 standard builds.
7 September 2020 - the final addition. I order and begin listening to a final Terminus2 Custom - DUAT. It replaces Regeneration and is meant to be listened to during sleep.
12 September 2020 - I experience something that I notice is reconciliation. After DUAT Terminus2 the night before, Mindās Eye Terminus2 in morning meditation, and 2 loops of Alchemist, Iām 10 minutes into the 3rd loop when the following happens: I see that my son is ānot carrying himself wellā. He seems to be expressing too much of an indifferent, blase, āwho caresā attitude. I become angry about his attitude and angrily criticize what he is doing in that moment. Then I leave and think āwait a minute. what was that?ā I turn off the subliminal, and have a little reckoning with myself about what the hell we are about (spoiler alert: not that).
@d1gz informs me about the counter-reconciliation functions of Sanguine Ultima. I buy it a couple of days later, and return to the same listening schedule. No more reconciliation.
So, hmmā¦that was the details rather than summary approach to responding to you @hermit.
The takeaway from all that:
- Youāll find your own personal threshold for Terminus tracks. Below that threshold things can actually be completely fine, even pleasurable. Beyond that threshold, you may start to feel uncomfortable, or to act out in some way.
- Once you get to the grey area right at the border of that threshold, Sanguine can smooth things out.
Hmmā¦Iāll stop there for now.
