Think I’m gradually evolving in that direction.
Stack feels perfect.
There’s not that much to say about it. I would say it can’t really get any better. But I’ve learned that you can’t really say that around here.
Added in Aegis Initiative: Survival Instinct last night. It feels like an extension of IMBUE Terminus. Again, it’s great. Nothing to say.
It’s on me now.
Action
My meditations shifted at some point in the past 2 weeks. And I just noticed that I’m a little over 2 weeks into Alchemist Stage 1.
I honestly haven’t thought about it very much. But it just struck me.
Thanks to the journal I have here I can kind of track it.
I can see from the Terminus Meditations journal that July 15 was the day when I did not feel the need for supporting scaffolding practices in my meditation and just went for straight sitting.
Then I can look over at my subliminals log and see that I started Alchemist Stage 1 on Saturday July 11.
I’m not unequivocally categorizing this as an improvement per se. It was a meaningful shift, and it occurred spontaneously. It’s interesting for that reason.
Composed this yesterday while in exile in the bedroom.
Put some of my beloved theme-related pictures into a video and now here it is in Youtube form.
Sleep and such somewhat wonky these days, but okay.
Yesterday was one of those interesting days in which a full loop of a subliminal just does not seem to happen. I tend to trust in a manifestive principle that guides these things. I think it happens sometimes when I need to back off or take a break. Some things are non-negotiable though. So, the PATHS Terminus meditation happened.
Find myself going to sleep later this past week.
Last night I set up an overnight playlist.
Mind’s Eye Terminus2
Alchemist (2 loops)
Quantum Limitless (2 loops)
PATHS Terminus
6 hours and when I woke up there were probably about 15 - 20 minutes left, so I knew I’d slept for about 5 h 45 minutes (deja vu)
There’s some churning and tilling going on right now, I’d wager.
The soil of my mind being tilled as seeds are being planted more deeply.
The bed of the river getting churned up.
I can feel some bit of floating tumult within.
I am happy.
Ride it out
I am grateful
looks like I’ll get some hangout time with my daughter, who is cool as hell
and there are a bunch of tasks–interesting and uninteresting–that are sitting here looking at me as if I’m a museum exhibit. ('Think he’ll handle us this time?’ ‘We’ll see.’)
June was the perfect time for the Custom subliminals to be released. The inevitable shifting, adaptation, and reconciliation has a little bit more room to breathe in the summertime. In the Fall, busyness will begin to pick up as well as the rebuilding within this pandemic situation.
And then in the Winter is the time for internal focus and quiet growth within. Spring time we’ll see our harvest and results begin to show, and Summer 2021 will be an explosion of the gifts and fruits of what was started now.
Well, everyone has her or his own rhythms and seasons, but this is an impressionistic description.
Not a specific thing to say right now.
But feel like updating my journal.
First, today’s listening:
I ran an overnight play last night. I think earpods stayed in most of the time, but at one point, I woke up and one or both had fallen out. I put them back in and continued the night-traveler’s journey.
Overnight playlist was (all Masked):
AEGIS: Survival Instinct
Mind’s Eye Terminus2
Alchemist (2 loops)
Quantum Limitless (2 loops)
Paths Terminus
That’s a seven-hour playlist. I suspect that headphones came out during Quantum Limitless.
Oh, and I’m listening to Quantum Limitless right now ultrasonic. Keep forgetting that. Actually, I’m not sure if this is the first or second loop of that. haha.
------so there’s the listening stuff-------
Suddenly felt a gust of gratitude blow through me
looked out the window and it looks like the sky over Scottish highlands or something. a lot of grey shifting opacity.
yesterday and today have both had very striking tones to the sky. yesterday: one section of the heavens would be clear and blue, the other incredibly grey. and the combination made the quality of light around me look grey, blue, and gold.
Today’s more uniform.
Still finding my feet with NanoStudio 2. But my heart’s singing with the music I composed earlier this week. Composing for me is very much this Platonic kind of situation. Whatever I made is basically a pointer to some other feeling or sense that is beyond it.
Was more familiar with NanoStudio 1. Truth is I’m feeling that at some point before too long, I’ll stop being tied to the iPad and transition to a more conventional Digital Audio Workstation. Feeling somewhat constricted. I can’t even satisfyingly insert vocals with NanoStudio 2. On the other hand, I enjoy being forced to express myself purely through instrumentals. And NanoStudio will always be my first love.
I think I want to throw up a couple more creations here on my journal.
DIY videos so that I can upload the music to Youtube. haha. Then I get pulled into choosing the right images. (Don’t just want to put a still shot for 3 minutes.)
Meditation time.
I consider Alchemist as my ‘root’ program. This became clear within an hour of having run it for the first time.
It seems that it’s going to inform and shape any other program that I run. I mentioned this somewhere above, but I think of it as my ‘Emperor’ subliminal.
I started Subliminal Club with Ecstasy of Gold as my foundational and primary program. It still is basically, as far as ‘setting my sights’ and setting my focus are concerned. Ecstasy of Gold represents the ‘destination’ I am trying to reach.
As far as my nature, however; as far as the ground beneath my feet, and the vehicle and pathway I will take to travel to that destination, those are Alchemist. There’s nothing to prove in this area. No ‘goal’ to attain. It’s me.
It feels really good to feed and nurture the roots and the core; even as I strive to grow and to integrate additional dimensions and spheres of function.
Today is subliminal free day.
It’s 1:30 pm and rather than cooking, I’ve ordered lunch for myself and my two progeny. Noodles by popular request. I’ll probably cook tonight.
Ever since I attended a middle of the night zoom call last week Friday my sleeping schedule has been more thrown off than it was before. I’m attributing it to that, but I actually don’t know.
When I meditate, I can feel stuff going on below me (or below the level of my conscious attention or egoic awareness, if we’re being precise).
It’s like I’m hanging up in the Epi- and Mesopelagic and I can feel things shifting around in the levels below. (No, I didn’t know these terms before finding this image.)
Throughout my life, I’ve dealt with having many, many thoughts and ideas and not so much action. So, I’m working to attend to that.
A number of projects to which to attend. Need to focus.
I’m aware that it’s time for a particular type of reframing to occur.
So I’m working on it.
A Monday full of Zoom meetings.
First a staff meeting from 10 to 12:30. Then individual consultation from 12:45 to 1:45. And now two more of those from 2:15 to 4:15. Hard to think about doing anything else after that last one is done. But that’s when I feel like my day has truly begun.
Grateful that I woke up in time to do a PATHS Terminus meditation from 8:50 AM to 9:50 AM. That’s great.
During the meetings just now, I played 3 loops of Quantum Limitless on masked. Now, I’m playing loops of Alchemist on Ultrasonic. Will switch over to masked shortly.
Not a big fan of so many meetings But also feel very grateful. and a bit hungry.
Am thinking about enthusiasm and motivation vis-a-vis certain important action ‘domains’.
I tend to do well once I’ve worked out procedures, practices, protocols that I can kind of lock into a routine.
This is a very interesting picture you posted.
It made me think of how life-forms are different depending on how deep you go.
It also made me think about how the differences in life-form in various depths of the ocean is a similar to the evolution of life-forms across the depth of time. The bottom of the ocean, with its less developed life-forms, is similar to the earth in its early beginnings with primitive life-forms.
It’s amazing how life on earth has evolved through the Earth’s billions of years of existence. However, we have been always talking about the evolution of the physical traits of the life-forms, but we know little about the evolution of the consciousness of life-forms,especially human consciousness.
It seems like you are time-travelling in a certain way in your meditation. You appear to be becoming aware of the inner depths of your consciousness which hark back to the billions of years of evolution.
Interesting, in recent weeks, I had been very much thinking a lot about the evolution of human consciousness and how we all started out from one-cell organisms - and I don’t mean starting out as embryos in our mother’s wombs. We all started out as one-cell organisms at the beginning of the creation of the earth and it took us billions of years to be where we are today. Given that physically, we started out from one-cell organisms, then in terms of consciousness, we can trace our consciousness to that single-cell organism.
Also, funnily one thing that has interested me recently is the social behaviour of animals and their sense of awareness and I have been reading up about a lot of this on the Internet. Great Apes as well as elephants and some marine animals have that sense of awareness like humans. Even chickens have some sort of intelligence.
Thinking about it now, I get a feeling on one-ness with nature in fact through the past, present and the future.It’s like those one-celled creatures are our ancestors, and in case people say that humans evolving from one-cell are ridiculous, we all started out as embryos in the womb…
It is possible DNA is even older than 6 billion years old. The entire purpose of any lifeform is to propagate the survival of DNA, even in the case of a destruction of a planet. The simplest way to think of it is, life is a competition of a diversity of DNA “Species”, on a cosmic scale.
Really, rich, stimulating, evocative observations and insights. Thanks @King.
I constantly reflect on the history of consciousness as well. Our approach to the study of the past is based on analysis of material remnants, but consciousness leaves no such remnants. Yet, it’s so evident that consciousness must always have been part of the picture.
Another interesting point:
Another perspective on this is that complex forms of mentation and consciousness arose out of the interactions between such single-celled organisms. We are made up of many, many, many such organisms. One human being is like a metropolis.
There’s so much to reflect on when it comes to this. Look forward to sharing more concepts with you.
Yes, in this case our consciousness is like a spiderweb that has nodes in every other organism across time and space.
What do you think of the visual similarity between our neural connections and the network of galaxies in our universe ?
Well, the brain’s certainly complex. That’s for sure. Some say it’s the most complex thing in the Cosmos (barring the Cosmos itself).
I just rest with all of these things as possibilities and realities around me. But I don’t really consciously think about it in detail all that much.
Hmm…well, that’s not quite true.
I have had this thought: what if the Cosmos itself is conscious? What if we are cells in its ‘brain’? What if that’s one way of thinking about ‘god’?
Sometimes this seems real to me.
Either way, still got to live your life.
