Day 24 - 239 hours of listening (v3) 19th of September 2019 - Entry 3
I am very very very profoundly grateful for this opportunity. Something happened and in the past it would have triggered me into a cycle of deep fear. But I know that this is the golden opportunity to break this cycle once and for all. To let go of all this struggle and fear.
That’s the only thing I seek right now. Deep peace. I dont want this fear anymore. Never ever again.
I just want to let go.
I did the meditation and wow what can I say? Im crying right now, like literally crying. It was so intense.
And Im happy and at deep peace that I got this opportunity to let this old old fear go once and for all.
You know this kind of fear you encounter again and again and you think you’ll never get rid off?
Thats the kind of fear it was. And I know that I manifested the opportunity to let it go and I am grateful that my wish has been granted.
I know it is my manifestation because I manifested that Ill let go of this fear and then those dreams came and in the meditation I just did it literally said: “´Feel how the light is turning back into every cell in your body.” That was so beautiful. What a blessing. There were other things too but I cant remember them now. If you read this and you wonder whats wrong with me:
Fear was the key issue my whole life. My whole old personality was based on fear. I didnt know anything else but fear and so I didnt notice it isnt normal anymore. Fear was my normal state.
It is not like it just ended today, I was dealing with this for a long time, but today another major wound has been healed.
I dont know if I should share this or if someone reads a text this long at all but for me it was part of the journey.
Edit: So I guess they postponed yesterday’s cryfest.