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Journals - Custom Subliminals
#41

Finally listened to Love Bomb for Humanity, one full loop. I am not a fast integrater so can’t say how it is. But so far none the negative effects I had the last time I listened to it, e.g. urge to masturbation, irritation, resistance to the sub itself.

I feel better psychologically listening to it in the sense that I believe it provides the comfort, the cheer up, the warmth I need.

At first I planned to listen to LBFH solo since I wasn’t sure how it’d work on me but a couple hours after listening to it I had this thought of listen to Emperor, and this time I followed the thought and listened to EZP.

It is too early to be sure but LBFH seems to lift up unnecessary conscious restraints so that if I feel like doing something I just do it. Faintly like “what’s the worst it could happen” mentality.

This lift up so far works only on small/unimportant things, which is expected as I only listened to it once and have not high flow factor.

Haven’t decided yet but probably listen to this stack from now on.

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#42

The new custom arrived. Listened to it once so far can’t say what it is doing.

Here is the thing, I have this strong feeling/intuition that between custom and LBFH, only one of them is allowed at a time. To put it more plainly, I have choose either to listen to custom or LBFH, but not both.

I am guessing it’s due to the modules Fenir and Last Stand, and maybe even Ebon Maneuver in the custom. My simple, black and white thinking is not able to harmonize how a loving and forgiving person (LBFH) is also cold blooded and calculating.

So far this cycle I listened to new custom, LBFH and Emperor once each. I don’t want to experiment further by listening to all each of them once or twice more to see the effects since in that case it would be stacking.

Financially and rationally it doesn’t make sense to drop the custom since it cost a lot of money and modules in it are meant to help my situation.

While LBFH seems to comfort me, Emperor doesn’t help in the anxiety department. If anything, with the external circumstance now worsened, the recon from EZP was worse than I remembered in the previous run. Yet for some reasons I feel like EZP is the best companion to LBFH.

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#43

I agree.

Normally when someone asks whether a particular main store title or module clashes with another title or module, I always say no since SubClub scripts are written in such a way to work very well together.

BUT LBH is written to induce guilt when doing something “unloving”. As in not straight written to feel guilt but results in feeling bad anyway. Could lead to some havoc alright so good catch there.

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#44

Also I think modules like those mentioned in a way imply the world is a hostile place where one another fights each other while LBFH is about making the world positive and loving each other. Hence their objectives are inherently incompatible.

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#45

Made a thread asking how we knew which sub was right for us. A few answers mentioned that’s akin to how a hobby or a lover made us feel. The truth is I don’t know how I feel about them.

Certainly there are hobbies that I enjoy more than others but none of them makes me go “oh yea”. Just like there were relationships I treasured but I never really got the “she’s the one” feeling.

Take Stark as an example, I don’t think it’s fitting for me but it works practically in many ways. Like one of my ex whom I can’t say I was in love with, but she was pretty, smart, and she cared a lot about me.

In fact there isn’t a thing in my life that makes me go “that’s it”. There were moments I thought I found something real but those moments never lasted, just like the things once treasured turned banal.

Anyways, back to subs. In accumulation I ran Stark for around 3 cycles including custom. Little by little it changes me in ways such as better recall ability, e.g. mental images flashed in my mind, able to make association/knowing an answer out of nowhere, e.g. got the rationale behind a seemingly random event.

The flip sides are I couldn’t keep my mouth shut, e.g. shared what I understood to others, had an urge to keep conversation going, and could literally feel the gears in my head turning overtime. All in all for me Stark lacks the “IDGAF” mentality, which I need desperately.

Today is an on day/listening day but I haven’t listened to any subs since I am still deciding if I should go for LBFH or the custom. If only we have a way to know what’s right/best for us with 100% accuracy.

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#46

I agree. I think a Stark custom with Eventide, Total Nonchalance and Godlike Masculinity could round it out.

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#47

In the previous custom I got Lion IV and Iron Frame with Stark and as far as I noticed they didn’t provide me the IDGAF mentality. I assumed Total Nonchalance wouldn’t be enough neither.

Thought about Eventide for the new custom but I have a negative notion towards words such as secrecy or hiding, coupled with the fact that Stark is meant to be lived understand spotlight, the whole thing reminds me of two faced politicians or hypocritical hollywood stars.

I did consider GLM but thought the focus was too narrow, not enough to complement Stark.

Instead for the current custom I pair Stark with Ascension. I don’t have Ascension major title, I chose it as core module simply based on reviews (yours included :relaxed:) and my experience with EZP.

The new custom modules
  1. Stark
  2. Ascension
  3. Unrelenting Wealth and Motivation Energy
  4. Wealth Limit Destroyer
  5. The Way of ROI
  6. Furious Ascent
  7. Fenrir
  8. Last Stand
  9. Ebon Maneuver
  10. Faith Unyielding
  11. The Merger of Worlds
  12. Harmonic Singularity
  13. Stress Dsiplacement
  14. Stop Porn and Masturbation
  15. Omnidimensional
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#48

Woah. Love the custom, man.

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#49

Have you already ordered it?

If so, bon voyage!

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#50

Yea and received it a couple of days ago.

Thanks :hugs:

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#51

Listened to Limit Destroyer ZP and my new custom, both full loop. Felt good during meditation/listening.

In accumulation I ran LD for around 4 cycles including custom. When I was running it as a major title it helped nofap. Yet when it was in custom the result was vague in the sense that I could “see” it was working on something but there wasn’t concrete manifestation.

This time as a major title it cracked a limiting belief/feeling I had about LBFH not being compatible with my custom. The answer LD revealed to me was “wise as serpents and innocent as doves”.

It was as if LD knew that deep down I wanted to listen to LBFH but ended up using LD as a compromise due to the limiting belief.

I am now consciously restraining myself from listening to LBFH even though I really want to as the subs quota for the day was used up. I am gonna listen to it with my custom the next on day.

Yet the dilemma is if I should keep LDZP in my stack as it worked so well🧐 in this case I have three subs to listen to and this greatly dilutes exposure to my custom.

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#52

Read the support article of Zero Point Stack Rotation and now all I can think of is I need to stop listening to my custom (all subs really) for at least 12 days to make sure I have a proper foundation for my custom.

The thing is the article isn’t applicable to my case since 1. I was listening to custom solo and 2. I had only two cores in the previous custom. 3. One of the cores is in my current custom.

I am talking about subs but this mentality also applies to many things in my life - want to have a clean slate to start with. When I perceive flaws/imperfections or room for such issues in somethings the best way to deal with it is wipe everything out/clean, and start anew.

This is why I self sabotage my life/feel like being stuck so much since what I want is to start with a clean slate, and without that I feel like carrying on defectively.

I am not talking physically about moving to another country or mentally dropping everything and being a monk/hermit. I am talking about having my own existence, my own being starting anew.

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#53

Prior to the origins of the ZP products here, I used to refer to this, in my personal philosophy, as ‘The Zero Point Fallacy’.

The notion that when we begin a new project or a new chapter or even a new subject, we are somehow starting from zero, tabula rasa; a blank slate.

When teaching or training, I would tell people, “While the precise labels or concepts you’re hearing may feel new to you, do not make the mistake of assuming that this means you have no prior relationship with the underlying phenomena.”

I said this as a form of encouragement.

Our labels and our analytical concepts and categories always lag far behind our experiential knowings and engagements, and are also much narrower than them.

Our mental dictionaries and encyclopedias are always rushing to catch up with all that we have actually touched, felt, and understood through experience; and they never will catch up.

#feature-not-bug

Anyway, gradually, this is morphing, in my awareness, into something different.

I now think that there are two polar orientations; they could be called Zero Point Mind and Competent Familiarity Mind (or, Knowing Mind).

Rather than being objectively true or untrue, they are more akin to settings or configurations that we can bring to bear when one of them is warranted or when they are strategically beneficial or expedient.

Like lens or filter settings.

Zero Mind is useful when we need to clear a space for the new, or for adaptation, adjustment, or innovation.

Knowing Mind is beneficial when we are attempting to garner a sense of control or stability; of firm boundaries.

I now think that rather than being absolutely right or absolutely wrong, they are more like attitudinal skills; ontological capacities to be cultivated, exercised, and developed.

Sheesh.

The point of all of this is that I think the Clean Slate is a potential skill that you can develop. It’s neither true nor untrue. You can train yourself to apply it.

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#54

I am gonna be real to you. I understand every word you were saying and I got it as a concept but I don’t “know” it.

It’s like a maths formula taught, one knows what it means and applies it mechanically. But it is only years later one day one suddenly really “sees”/“gets” the formula, and finally able to apply it creatively, freely, playfully.

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#55

Yep. That sounds like my everyday.

If I were putting it more concisely I’d say, ‘Sometimes when it looks like you need to change the whole world, you actually only need to change your mind.’

The clean slate has more to do with how I am looking at things in the moment.

Okay.

Anyway, that’s enough of that.

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#56

Ran one full loop of custom and LD.

I am writing this with detachment, i.e. not necessary diminishing myself, I have been thinking of what there is in me to be worthy of being loved.

Had a meeting with professionals as family representative to help solving a family matter. The assistant/secretary of one of them kept staring at me (in fact the female professional did the same) and tried to have a conversation with me before and after the meeting. I was uncomfortable not because of the attention alone but because I knew what the women were thinking.

They thought I was a cute middle class bachelor who was confident and polite. An above average catch in short. But I am none of those things. The meeting was paid by someone else, I was anxious and wished I wasn’t involved in the matter at all, the only reason I was selected was exactly because I had nothing better to do while everyone else was busy being useful.

I knew this because similar things happened many times before. People for whatever reasons saw me as something I wasn’t and behaved accordingly. It went from being smart and capable, confident and driven, to being a player and an egotist. I remember an ironic moment when I was feeling really low a guy told me he thought I was always high spirited and he liked me about that.

From a young age I inducted from experiences that one got to have something to be liked, admired, loved. Of course people didn’t outright say it but as a sensitive kid I could tell from the (change of) attitudes, the smiles, the looks of others based on what (they assumed) you were.

Love, admiration, popularity etc. They are subjected to many factors and they never last. I remember there was a period where girls came after me and guys were all jealous. But I was too aware of the reason behind to enjoy myself, if anything I was very self conscious. I figured out myself that the girls did it because being with me was a trend. They were in a way fomo and saw me as a thing with high social currency.

Hence once again I avoided LBFH as I literally couldn’t fathom where the love came from when there was nothing to build upon. You don’t see a beggar or a drug addict with self love because there is nothing in them to be loved. Some say they love them but at the end of the day it is compassion and pity. On the other hand if LBFH made me lovable, I know it would be akin to a mirage.

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#57

You do, though.

I mean, all of your observations are on point.

But you do have beggars and drug addicts with self-love.

and that’s the other thing.

self-love is based on nothing.

but that’s because there’s nothing for it to be based on.

we’re not talking about critical evaluation and estimates of competitive value. That’s different. We’re talking about straight-up love.

That’s never earned. It just is.

It’s like sunlight. It doesn’t work based on worthiness or merit. If you can handle the sunlight and you open up to it, then you’re going to get it.

Love is kind of the same. It’s less about if you’re worthy of it, and more about your capacity to handle it.

Looks so wonderful from the outside, and feels like all we need. But it can be damned overwhelming from the inside.

And until we develop a tolerance for being loved, we’ll literally close it out and reject it.

“This light’s too freaking bright!”

The secret is: it feels good to radiate our love and to have it received. We feel like the Sun when we do that. And when we meet someone who is willing and able to receive our love with naturalness and joy, it’s very natural for us to give it to them.

They don’t need to pass a performance test or earn it.

Do you think all of the people you love are really so perfect?

Crazy stuff, right?

We need to expand our capacity to receive love, to receive happiness, to receive prosperity and welath, to receive joy, to receive inspiration…

All of these “goods” actually scare the hell out of us. Not because we don’t deserve them. They just throw us the hell off. Like clean cold water rushing quickly around your legs. There’s an initial “WTF!” and you may even jump right out of the water for a while.

The sheer tender aliveness of it.

You deserve it.

Now just learn to tolerate it.

:joy: :joy: :rofl:

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#58

It others who’re seeing what you implanted in your subconscious.

The program in your subconscious is now your new reality. You feel uneasy, because the old identity is fighting for it’s life, it’s trying to remain in your conscious, while the new you, the one that is arising and taking it’s place seeks to become dominant.

From personal experience, I have concluded that this often takes one moon cycle — for one persona to be exchanged for another. But this is often shallow and the old us can still takeover if we are not consistent. A few cycles with a program, or using something for a year will give it lots of permanency.

The past affects us, because all is recorded and the vibrations of all that we though, and felt, are still reverberating in our future. Until, of course, we transmute those into more positive and beneficial ones.

Here a subliminal program can be a helpful tool.

But for those who like to arrive somewhere, it is important to keep walking until the you have at once arrived at your destination.

Honestly, this could not be further from the truth.

Events just aligned for you.

These new circumstances are part of your real-ity, because of the changes in your subconscious mind.

Better get used to it.

It may be uncomfortable at first — I find Zero Point to be incredibly fast changing, better to ease into it and give it time lest ye be overwhelmed.

Personally, I would have preferred for Zero Point to have degrees of strength because at first, especially in the initial month, or cycle, the changes can be tremendously overwhelming and it may seriously cause distress and discomfort.

Zero Point will take you towards the objectives so in essence it’s better to let go, and enjoy the ride.

Be sure to be in good shape and healthy, the discomfort will flee and you will have transformed. All that was once “new”, will have become your “normal”.

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#59

@Malkuth explained beautifully about self-love. Now to the other point you said:

Allow women their fantasies. Let them create whatever picture they want of you and love it. Because we men do the same about women too.

Let them have their fun. The most fun they will have is in their mind anyways. Play with their ideas about you. We are all part of the play of life so lets squeeze the enjoyment out of it.

Don’t pull yourself down. I know you want to live in reality but allow some levity and levitate in your day to day.

After all, we are in the realm of the subconscious mind when we use subliminals. And a lot more things are possible here.

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#60

Its true that when I loved someone I never thought about it rationally or consciously. That just happened naturally with a warmness in my heart and I wished the other person would feel the same. It just didn’t cross my mind that the same could be applied to me.

It feels nice to read the words “tender” and “you deserve it”. :hugs:

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