Probably. Though, somehow, I feel that sleep may not be enough.
DR ST2 DAY45
Today has been a ārest dayā of sorts. Woke up shortly before 5am with my head still throbbing. Tried going back to sleep, but it felt like I was just closing my eyes for an hour before my alarm rang.
Tried meditating but my headache kept me from feeling any calm nor centered. Felt more like a futile battle trying to find some peace within. After about 20 minutes of this, I decided to simply play Paragon Ultima on loop.
After 2 loops of Paragon Ultima, I went back to bed as the kids were already logged on to their zoom meetings for school. Good thing my wife was understanding. Played another loop of Paragon Ultima while napping.
Had brunch on waking up an hour and a half later. My headache subsided somewhat by then. Given that I had an interview, I decided to play a loop of Love Bomb.
I think the interview went well. Iām scheduled for another round of interviews so hereās to hoping to that.
Took another nap as I felt really tired. Was able to āfunctionā fine, although I felt that my head was starting to hurt again. So I decided to play another loop of Paragon Ultima.
So yeah, ārestā day since I literally did nothing but sleep most of the day. But now as Iām typing this entry, I can feel my head starting to throb again.
Could it be reconciliation?
Oh wellā¦ Que sera seraā¦
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I would think so.
Iām glad you tried Paragon Complete. I find it helps me with reconciliation.
I would encourage you to think about what other modules you have that might help.
Do you have Sanguine?
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I have Sanguine. It calms me down and helps with reconciliation. However, given my current stack, I donāt have āspaceā for that. Actually, I was torn between SanguineU and Love Bomb. But I decided with Love Bomb simply because I felt that I needed to learn more about loving myself rather than feeling calm. In addition, I feel that Love bomb also helps with reconciliation.
DR ST2 DAY46(early update)
I feel like I slept like a log last night. Only woke up once my alarm rang. However, I still felt some dull throbbing in my head. But I was able to sufficiently do my morning meditation.
Given that I had meetings throughout the day, I decided to play a loop of Paragon Ultima to help with the headache. Played a loop of DR ST2 shortly after.
Right now, Iām playing a loop of RICH Ultima. Head feels much better. Hopefully it stays that way.
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Iām glad to hear that!
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DR ST2 DAY46(update)
I just canāt stand blind stupidity. People at work kept on assuming shit, each one talking without even trying to understand whatās going on. When I simply pointed out a simple explanation, everyone just stopped and kept quiet.
Still feeling some minor throbbing in my head throughout the day. And though Iām not happy about todayās stack as I felt that itās a bit dense.
- DR ST2 x2
- RICH Ultima x1
- MogulQ x2
- Love Bomb x1
- Paragon Ultima x2
I normally wouldnāt add Paragon, but Iām afraid my headache would get worse. I really dislike headaches.
So tomorrow, Iāve got 3 interviews, 2 in the very early morning (5 and 6 am), and the last in the afternoon. So yeah, Iāll need to sleep shortly after this entry. Feeling both excited and terrified.
I may be playing BLU tonight. Although LEU is tempting, I wouldnāt want to keep waking up with that urge to move and do shit.
Hoping Iād do well. This company seems promising and, after talking to the recruiter, the job itself is exciting and Iāll get to learn a lot. Wish me luck!
Oh wellā¦ Que sera sera
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I wish you luck and success!
Since youāve been having headaches, Iām going to give you something to think about:
DR ST2 x1
RICH Ultima x1
MogulQ x1
Love Bomb x1
Paragon Ultima x2
or maybe
DR ST2 x1
RICH Ultima x1
Love Bomb x1
Paragon Ultima x2
or perhaps
DR ST2 x1
Love Bomb x1
Paragon Ultima x1Thanks for the suggestions @RVconsultant. Given that Iāve been on ST2 for about 7 weeks now, I just might take a week off before going to ST3.
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DR ST2 DAY47
So I woke up shortly before 4am this morning because I had a 5am interview. Time zone differences suck, but you have to make sacrifices if you want to get somewhere, I guess. Add to the fact that I woke up with a mild headache, I was really nervous. Played a loop of Paragon Ultima and took an Advil. Good thing headache went away for the interviews.
Interviews went well. Feeling really hopeful about how it went down.
Work, on the other hand, is a different thing. Maybe because of the early morning wake up, or maybe because of the excitement I felt after the interviews, but I had a really hard time thinking about work. I took long naps before and after the last interview. Barely managed to do any really office work.
Took my wife on a ādateā. Meaning, we had the kids sleep early and I prepared margaritas for both of us. We ended up watching a few episodes of Wandavision (EP1 to 4). Maybe because of the alcohol, but she really got frisky. But also because of the alcohol, sheās fast asleep now. Lolā¦
Anyway, I just might take a week off from subs (at most maybe Paragon and Love Bomb for the time being). Maybe because of too much reconciliation. I think I may need to regroup and everything.
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I have been wanting to mention this to you. And perhaps I have before in ways that were very gentle. I am wondering if your headaches, maybe any fatigue, and possible some apathy might be from reconiliation.
I think this might help. Also I would encourage more sleep. I find 9 hours a night to be really helpful!
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I believe you have. I may just have been too stubborn to actually listen. In any case, I will be doing just that for the time being.
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DR ST2 DAY 48
Woke up to a headache. Although itās a rest day, I decided to play a loop of Paragon Ultima. Helped greatly as I was able to function throughout the day. Although the kids were misbehaving and rather hyperactive, I was able to do most of what was needed for today.
Been feeling rather thankful for whatās been going on in my life lately. I donāt know where or how I have gotten to feel this way. But somehow, I feel rather optimistic that things are beginning to get better.
But still, some flashes of anger pop up. Maybe itās just reconciliation. Maybe itās just irritation. I donāt know. But Iām still hopeful and grateful.
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Wondering if thatās Love Bomb coming out to play. I sometimes experience a light-hearted sense of gratitude on the prototype one. Not ordered the Store version yet as R.I.C.H. will be happening firstā¦later this week.
Maybe it is. Or maybe itās both. I donāt know. Somehow I feel that something, somewhere down the line, something big is going to manifest into my life. Maybe itās why Iām starting to feel like this. Maybe itās āpreparingā me for whatās to come. Maybe this is also why thereās so much reconciliation happening too.
Contradictions within contradictions wrecks havoc in the brain, I guess. The hopefulness and gratefulness Iām feeling right now, is a direct contradiction to what I was before. Always pragmatic, always trying to see things as what they are.
Thereās a lot of āI donāt knowsā right now. And maybe itās whatās consuming me. Because of my āneedā to know and āneedā to be in control. And yet, I feel that I must let go.
So yeah. Going back. RICH feels to be āmanifestingā something big. And Love bomb feels to be helping it.
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Iāve been feeling this lately from BILLionaire since Iāve been stacking it during sleep with silence bits along with Regen, or stacking it with silence and RebirthU.
The stack with the most dreams so far was BILLionaire+Silence+Iron Throne Ultima+silence+Mindās EyeQ
Definitely feeling like something is shifting. Love it
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What Iām noticing is your posts recently are less āstandardizedā than even a week ago.
I think that might mean DR is shaking up patterns in your subconscious, which might make you feel a bit unstable, but Iāve found in myself the rewards are quite good.
What do you think?
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I guess Iām feeling more āintrospectiveā lately. Maybe it is DR working. I donāt know.
Not sure if itās purely DR or maybe the stack as a whole. Note that DR is more about going inside myself and making whatās inside better. However, RICH, MogulQ, and (to some extent) Love bomb are more attuned to external manifestation. I think that itās a clash of forces. One attempting to draw me inward, while another is trying to get me out of my shell.
DR ST2 DAY49
Nothing much really. Anger and frustration popping up every now and then. But I somehow feel more ācontrolledā of the situation. When negative feelings seem to boil up, I somehow find a way to divert it.
Iāll be taking a week off of subs. I feel that I need to regroup and collect myself.
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