Currently feeling like shit. Probably recon but I’m quite annoyed today.
Got one more day of subs which is 4x DR Stage 3 and 2x Love Bomb (which will probably make me feel better)
Anyway,
Emperor is definitely pushing.
I’ve wanted to take pictures of myself in my tracksuit I designed and get that out into the world but asking my boyfriend for anything is a nightmare because it ALWAYS gets delayed into the next day or the day after that. I asked him next week.
I’ve also wanted to film my piece and again, same thing. Emperor is telling me to do it by myself and I’m so close to doing it alone, I probably will. Normally I would do this kind of stuff alone anyway but my boyfriend is good at taking videos and photography as it’s part of his job/career hence why I asked but I’m sick of relying on him. It’s so freaking annoying.
I’ve done all my workouts and committed to that (even today when I did not want to after 5 hours sleep), I’ve gone over a piece that’s not mine but I want to film, I’ve relearn 1 and a half of my older pieces to post on to social media which will be done by the latest for tomorrow, I’ve edited some older pieces that I forgot about and I’m sending them out now.
I’ve definitely wasted time and played CoD and all that shit too in my down time but I’m most definitely willing to work. I have time for no-one.
I’ve been learning and putting Chris Voss’ stuff and putting it into practice. Not for negotiations (one them possibly but I’m thinking about it) but it works like a charm. People are so interested in themselves and it makes me know so much about them. I had a full on interview with someone yesterday getting to know them more just by mirrors and labelling.
I’m scared of employing it the for things where I have to make deals with people or get them to see my own way of thinking in their own world though as I feel stupid and always look for the ‘perfect’ way to do things. I’m still trying to get past that however. I’ve already put it into action and stopped wanting it to be perfect from affecting me but due to me thinking I’m an idiot I’m not going 100% committed into using the tactics even though they’d help me so much.
For example I want to use them to get more members for my company and as I’ll be building an online company I want to get that in, I’m just delaying myself.
Anyway, at the end of the day, I’m willing to put the work in and get shit done, that’s what matters. Emperor is helping for sure. This is the push I needed/wanted - even if it’s making me irritable at little things - that’s what a custom is for, right?