Through the mud into pleasurable freedom of Sexuality

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#64

Saw today again a super fine deluxe Luxus chic.

Then my frame dropped to insecure about myself in a way that let me question where can I be secure with this kind of woman or any kind of woman.

Thats the things I figured out where I can be secure in myself.

I like company
I like to laugh with women
I can give a sincere compliment
I have good intentions
I am interested in what she has to say
I like to figure out who she actually is
I can be fun
I can be sexual
I can be sensual
I can bring her into plesure
She can relax with me
I love connecting
I can give her very pleasureable orgasm
I have love and a good heart.

Then I completely relaxed, so much that my energy dropped down and rearranged itself to a new state I am in.

Now I just know/be worthwhile

I sit now in the train and a fine lady stands 2 meters away from me. I wave at her, take my backpack away from the seat next to me and invite her to sit next to me. She refused with a smile and it feels so naturaly to do that. Nothing in my mind is going down, instead I have joy doing the right things. Feels like I am allready walking successfully

With the new versions/upgrades the work is done during the washout. I allways hoped that it would happen during listening phase, like in the older versions but that’s obviously not the case. It’s so smooth, I love it.

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#65

Tomorrow is my next cycle.

Khan Black st4 & Sanguine custom

I am ready and really excited

Let’s go

#66

And the loop starts now.

:cowboy_hat_face:

#67

I did 3 days ago 3 min of KB&Sanguine and felt some kind of liberation from old patterns, natural sexual, relaxed, no more driven to run behind women, a quick look and that’s it.

Then I wanted more, so I did in the evening another 3 min. Now I felt it.

Today I did 6 min from the start. Immediately I heard myself saying : I liberate me from everything that stands in my way to be sexual. A couple of limiting things got removed and 2 hours later I was going to another city. In the train sat a very sexy girl before me. She knew it that she is super attractive so she paid zero attention to anyone. Somehow I tried to ignore her but it didn’t function, I saw how it draws me to her and I stopped it, I turned slightly and watched the view. Then I start to despise her, I start to call her names (not personally to her) and get arrogant like : you do nothing because you look that way and you can do nothing your worth is nothing.

This was the moment she start to watch me and somehow tried to make herself seen. I sat there and cut her of with my leg, I pointed bot of my legs away from her and making a wall. I could stop it immediately but I told myself to let this shitty behavior from me play out fully.

I felt rejected from the beginning of the train ride, I am so entitled that the most beautiful women have to kiss my feet the moment they see me, they have to notice me and I get pissed of if I don’t get attention,her life is easy, she just needs to say : yes I want and that’s it. I don’t like her attitude, she has no vibe only the security of her beauty, I want to fuck her even if I try to reject her so that she can feel the pain.

When I left the train I startet to laugh, a memorie from childhood came to my mind where the most beautiful girls in my neighborhood took Denis (it’s not his real name) into the celar and kissed him. They didn’t chose me and this was the root cause of all the shit above. I could laugh very good about it and came to the point where I told myself that I can’t hold this feelings longer inside me,it doesn’t matter if they choose someone else to learn kissing,i can choose from now and I do it with pleasure.

Then the whole ball of shit vaporized into air and a newborn feeling of freedom immediately took place in me.

I noticed that many negative patterns also vanished after that and I have a overall good feeling about myself.

Later i talked to a very attractive woman and it was a normal conversation between me and her. It was so refreshing to talk to a women and have my sexual urges so under control that my head I clear and I can lisen and hear what she is saying.

Its not that the sexual energy is dormant more like a warm resting lake and if I choose I can let it flow.

I find Khan Black fantastic and I am doing the next 3 loops only this custom and then mix in Primal

Let’s go

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#68

Did the 3rd loop of Khan Black st4 & Sanguine custom today and I am so collected, no more horny the whole time, more suave, have time to do other things, I am calm, feel alive, I love it.

Later this day I got a nr from a Brazilian girl I met at the trainstation, she looked at me and smiled so I pointed at her with my fingers formed to pistol s and shot at her with a smile,then I walked to her and started talking with her. In the train we allready holded hands for a couple of minutes and then exchanged our phone nr.

This is Magical.

Thank you Subliminalclub

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#69

Yesterday I made progress with 2 women but both didn’t respond to my messages.

So today after waking up I had a Revelation that I can’t let me down because of women, can’t go into depression, can’t dimish my life because of women.

There are more to come and more to go

Since this relevation I have my joy back.
This topics with women relay robbed my joy since I can remember but now I feel happy and alive inside.

I want more positive changes from Khan Black

This is so good

Let’s go

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#71

Just cool stuff you experience here.

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#72

Yeeaaaaaa it gets better and better with any loop I play

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#73

Was absent for the last 9 days.

In these days I slowly broke the chains so to speak.

Its still very new to me but my energy flows freely and I am feeling so sexual like never before.

No suppression, no shame, no shit, just alive energy that is alive, warm, hot, sexual and infectious for women.

I see it now how I am stared at from very very attractive women.

Omg this is unbelievable and it’s so much energy that I have to control my whole state to stay calm.

I could burst out in Lust
I could burst out in pleasure

But I let the energy inside and use it for healing techniques. The boost is incredible like 10 fold.

Now I need to adapt to this wonderful new way of life.

Slow Leo Slow

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#74

It’s great how observant you are and making progress.

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#75

Thank you @Metamorphosis

Slowly I see my sexual energy as precious and the whole world got it wrong what Sexuality is.

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#76

Yesterday was my last listening day after the loop I get ready and moved out.
I had my phone in my backpack and suddenly I heard water bubbles out of my backpack,i first thought it was funny but then I thought :wait a minute, I know these sounds. I open my backpack and somehow my phone played a loop of Alchemist st 1.

Is this a coincidence??

So I heard maybe 30 second and for the next 2 hours I felt a Energetic purging like never before. Then I tough : let’s play a minute of it for the end, because I did a whole cycle of my Khan Black St4 & Sanguine custom so it won’t cause any interference.

Its the older version without the NSE script
But it’s unbelievable strong, I purge on so many levels since yesterday and I love it.

This is exactly what I needed for making my life more positive

I still ask myself how is it possible that my phone miraculously played Alchemist st1.
I know that I paused on 9 min on Khan Black and the folder for Alchemist is only accessible if I go 3 folders back then select normal versions and then Alchemist and then st 1 and then play.

A unsolved riddle :sweat_smile:

Thank you Subliminalclub

Let’s go

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#77

In this cycle I allways thought it’s a smooth ride, at times too smooth and only a little bit challenging but in combination with another title it’s like a boost of the other titel.

Non the less I had 3 weeks nonstop energy and a good mood with nearly all the time warm energy moving trough my body.

In 5 days I am gona do the same custom and my Primal&Diamond custom

I am pleasantly waiting to Start the new menu

Let’s go

#78

Day 2 on washout

Little burts of aggression that lead all to the same conclusion : I have to take things in my hands from now on.

Finish are the days of waiting, now starts the time of making.

Let’s go

#79

Ohhh fuck the aggression is strong on the washout.

I had to flee from the people I was with because I didn’t want to unleash this irritating, all cursing aggression /hate on other people.

It got so bad that I didn’t understand what people are telling me in the conversation.

Let’s see how long it lasts , I go home now

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#80

Hang in there, dude!

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#81

I’ve been there man. Stay strong and know it’ll pass :slightly_smiling_face: :muscle:

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#82

Yesterday after leaving the people I was with I start to get to the point where I thought : wait a minute, this is nothing, I handled 100 times more difficult things.
So I was walking under people and let the aggression come out even more, then I took control over this agression/hate and start to beat some value into it.

Nobody has to suffer because of my state, it’s just nor right.

Nobody has to die because of my state, it’s just not right.

Then I put in some Darkpsy for 1 hour and realesed through the music the whole dark stuff.

Worked perfectly

Then I called my best friend and had a conversation.

Today I woke up in a good mood, I saw the sun is shining into my apartment so I open the windows and layd naked in the spot.
I knew the neighbors could see me but I laughed and though: I don’t care what other people think of me, I care that I get sun and if they have a problem then be my guest and enjoy your problem, it’s not in my nature to worry about the opinions of others, unless I care for them and bring them in my circle, there I want the best treatment from my side to my close ones.

Ahhhhh the day begins, ready to rock

Thank you @RVconsultant @Realitysmith for your words. I appreciate your encouragement

Let’s go then, the world is waiting for me to be explored

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#83

Today is fantastic.

My female neighbor lifted her shirt in front of me and and startet to caress her stomach, then she wanted to talk with me but she spelled the words wrong and then immediately turned around and walked away.

I am sexual attractive

Omg let’s go

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#84

Day 4 on washout

Thank you life

Leeeeeeeets go

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