This is my journal to keep track of my progress.
Leo learn from everything
Push through your insecurities
Develop value
Share the fruits
Enjoy the harvest
Let’s go
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Omg now it gets funny.
My barriers are destroyed 
First loop of my custom was yesterday, today at the trainstation I saw a beautiful women, she is nearly 2 heads taller than me, so I passed her and smiled a little. Then she starts to move her hips.
The train was arriving and she was first in line, waiting for the other passengers to step out, I was maybe 3 meters away from her but suddenly moved through all people in her direction, a halve meter before I reached her she saw me coming and was watching me. I walked strait to her and pushed the guy in front of me to the side and then nearly colapse with her only to brush in the last moment with my chest her elbow in a sensual way - then walking of to another door.
Man this felt soo natural good to say : Yeeaaaa I am touching you because I want to. Don’t need your permission.
For the paranoid people here, you don’t need to teach me where the line is, I just know what is appropriate.
SSX is such a smooth program.
Let’s go
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Now I am in the train and a women who realy turns me on is sitting next to me.
She turns me on so much that I don’t can relax and she goes into halve spastic mode when I asked her to watch my stuff so I can go to the toilet.
So I borrowed a pen from another guest and wrote her a little sweet letter with my Nr on it.
Gona give it to her when she leaves or I leave before her. (this is for sure from my Wanted Black run last 2 weeks)
The attraction is there from both sides
Let’s play
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Did 12 min of SSX custom and 6 min of Daredevil custom.
Had to work through some old burdens that realy hinders me, like : wounds, rejectzion from mother, self worth, then a surge of adventure today, to the point that the thoughts I have make me piss in my pants from laughter.
Gona share the story’s later.
At one point I asked myself what do I have to realy do to get the women I want?
There where a couple of answer
1st: reality is not porn, it’s my part who chooses the women
2nd : what a super feeling it is to choose
3rd : before you approach start humming deeply a beautiful or happy or a sexy melody, then approach and proceed humming for 2 - 4 seconds infornt of the lady, then start to talk
4th : go with the flow and enjoy turning her on like nobody else
Let’s go Tiger
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Omg
The synergy Inescapable Gaze is a wonderful module.
Only with my Gaze I make women stand still, blush, get nervous, wait for me, looking for my attention,turn their head even if they walk arm in arm with the boyfriend.
Then it dawned on me : my attention is the most valuable thing I can give a women.
Sure I dress nice (for the first time in my life) and loose weigh,but the combo of my deep Masculin voice charged with sexual tones and then the gaze of orgasm is incredible.
I still think in terms of raw sexual power it’s too less but at the same time I am sexual charged in a way I can do everything I want and then when there is a women before me it gets just the right amount of sexual energy to be lightly sexy.
Let’s see if this will change over time
Non the less it’s an amazing sub so far
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Just yesterday I had this illumination that it is more important to me to develope myself into a worthy man that can attract, hold, and life with worthy women. I am on a endless journey of self exploration to bring the best out in me and my partner
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Did a 9 min loop of my SsX custom and then it did throw me into some uncomfortable truths about myself.
The only thing I have for women are my egotistical needs and that’s it. Then I waited if it gets worse or better but nothing realy happened. It just stood still for 30 min, then I decided that I want to have something good for women, and slowly a myriad of things started to pop up until I decided that I want something to give without getting something back and then the good stuff appeared realy quickly.
I just love having women around me it makes me feel more alive, hot, adventurous, loving, Masculine, better, happy,erotic,it brings out the good in me
Time to give something back
Let’s go
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Seems like 9 min are the perfect listening time for me.
I saw a beautiful women waiting on the streets, nearly 2 heads bigger than me, I walked by like it’s second nature, made her put her phones down and gave her a sincere compliment about her dress.
She was shocked and flattered at the same time and I wished her a good day.
Afterwards I visited a girl in a shop I like, I gave her also a compliment about her dress, she smiled, then instantly going back into serios business mode and asked coldy: anything else?
I left immediately
After leaving the shop I get a burst of anger like big time, I was so angry that there is no playback. If you compliment a Peruvian girl she let’s you know instandly how much she enjoys what you did and instandly finds something on you to compliment about to keep the mood going.
Obviously not here
So in my anger I told them all to go guck themself and instead of letting the Anger cool down I let it burn more. Somhow I have the feeling that it will brig me something good. It did. After 20 min sitting angry on a bench it dawned on me that I expect too much from women, so I get to the point where I gave up expectations and instandly my stomach turned left and right and I saw and felt that ugly Energetic slime crawling up - time to release it. So I released the slime and when the last bit was out I heard myself saying : you don’t need this anymore, feel good now.
Now I am very relaxed and optimistic like never before.
That was so neccesary, I feel like now the path is open for something beautiful and true
LET’S GO
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Today before the loop I commanded the sub (or myself) to bring out all the reasons and Energy that stands in my way to healthy and fulfilling connections with women and sex.
Same with Lovebomb, I comand that I want to feel a unparalleled love for myself and others
Guess what
It works like magic because it is
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Ohhh is that good.
For the first time I saw women and the beauty they have.
I danced befor them in the supermarket slightly physically but massively inside.
Now I can tell them what i find beautiful or sexy without expecting anything in return. I just don’t need it anymore, it allready gives me so much back.This feels soooo goooood and sincere like I could never image.
Until today I did everything out of a need.
But now I beautify her in ways I could never imagine, there is no more walls or distance between me and women,just pure genuine connection
God is that beautiful
My spirit is dancing
Thank you Subliminalclub
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5 days ago I saw one of the most beautiful women I saw in my life. She is 50 years + has nearly all hair grey with little strings of white and black in it, but the most beautiful thing is the willingness of love and Sensuality I sense from here. She is like a ripe fruit but 3x sweeter as the other ones.
I saw her and looked her in her eyes and nearly melted.
Today I was in Bern and normally I go at 11 pm to catch the last train, I was sitting at 7 at the river and a nagging feeling arises to go home, I ignored it completely until 7:35 then I packed my stuff to go home. It made no sence to me because I am fitt and enjoy it,i don’t want to go home.
Anyway I was going into a restaurant that is on the main train station in Bern. I needed to pee and have only 10 minutes before my train drives off. The restaurant has a ground floor and a top floor, I was walking the stairs up and the first thing I see is this women who sits on a table alone and eating. I smiled at her and she dropped her head with a smile. In the toilet I get a fear attack(nothing serious) and instantly I tell myself, it dos not validate me if I fuck up but I want her to feel good with me. Washed my hands startet to smile and walked over to her table and interrupted her with: hey I want to tell you something, I rarely do this but I find you beautiful, very beautiful, not in a way I wana fuck you, more in a way I want to give you that compliment sincerely.
She melted on the spot, putting both of her hand to her heart, started to move her body and then grabbed my hand and start to massage my hand and thanking my from hear heart.
I asked if she is single next and she said yes.
I told her that I want to live in Bern and I am searching for apartments and I want to see her and spent time with her.
she changed her face into real bitternes for a moment and I felt her pain. She told me that she is right now in a divorce. I knew it wasn’t the time to ask for more or her number so I gave her my hand and wished her all the strength she need to go trough this hard time.
(When I remembered her from 5 days ago, she was very serious and had later tears in her eyes,thats why I didn’t approach her.)
I told her to take her phone out, I am gonna give her my Nr. and she can call me when she is ready.
She nearly jumped up in hear seat and took my Nr.
Then I said her good bye and left.
I still feel hear warmth in my heart and my whole body
It was so profoundly true what I have said to her that I didn’t even expect to gain something, I just wanted her to realy feel beautiful and now I am bathing in the warmest appreciation since a long long time.
SsX is genius
Thank you Subliminalclub
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I am doing a SSX, Lovebomb,BDLM custom and a Daredevil, True Social, True Sell custom. I started with 1 min loops but only 1 custom per listening day, then 10 days later, 3 min loops and the last 4 loops I am doing 9 min.
SSX does something so subtle I have not noticed it at first, but the longer I lisen to this custom the more I like the effect it has.it brings out my true self and then start to enhance it.
I am allways minimal sexual but when the time comes to be sexual it’s Sooooo smooth that I wonder how is it possible what seductive tones come out of my mouth. I wish/want/comand the sub to instill in me the most dark-sexy-warm voice I can develop and every day it turns more into it
Today is the last day of this cycle and I want the same 2 customs plus Primal for the next cycle. When I move to another city I Wil go for the overkill and include my Wanted Black, Lovebomb, Inner Circle custom
Harem of Beauty
Let’s go
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Yesterday I was in the train going home after this encounter with this beautiful women. I had to change the train one last time until I was home. Next to me was a girl with a beer in her hand, a cigarette in her mouth and a suitcase. I found her unattractive because she was drunk but it seems like she could easily drink until the next day. When the doors open up, we step out and I gave her fire for her cigarette, she was very surprised and said thank you. I was walking away, still enjoying the encounter had a couple of hours ago. I rolled a cigarette and waited before for the train, the girl appeared next to me, seems like we go in the same direction again. She was walking up and down before the train and then turned to me and said thank you again. I startet to talk with her and she asked if I want to sit with her in the train.
I don’t spend time with drunk people, but since 10 days I do unusual things (must be limit Destroyer, did 2 loops this circle) we talked and she said she only need to smoke a joint and then she’s happy. I told her she can have some because I go home and she can enjoy her evening. She invited me to drink with her and I refused, told her I don’t drink Alkohol. She told me a Coca cola is also OK. I accepted because I give her something and now I receive something - I take that.
I could nearly vomit just standing next to her but I thought - learn to recive.
We stopped on the only bar I avoided for 1 1/2 years in the little city we both live in.
I wanted to go home right on the spot but then I told myself : wait, this is perfect, expirience what you don’t want, try to fuck her but say no word, wait until she is too drunk then go in and lure her home, expirience how it is what other people (zombies) do so that you know how worthy it is what you normally do.
So I never intend to fuck her but I somehow needed to know how this shit feels.
The next 2 hours I was sitting next to her and offered her joints. I felt so ugly, sneaky, unnatural, false and stupid the whole time I was there, luckily she worked there and had so many other people to talk to.
After 2 hours I stood up, couldn’t do it anymore, I said a good bye and walked home.
Then the good stuff startet pouring in.
Never in my life I decive a women because of sex, from now on I let them instandly know what I am about and what I want, my directness is precious and honorable, it’s ok to tell what I want.
That was a good experience too, I learned aaaaaallllooooooootttttt
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Had sex for over 2 hours with the most alive and sensual women I have ever met, on day 3 of my washout
Thank you Subliminalclub
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My problem with Sexuality was allways that I came to early and I mean 1-2 pumps and : Speedy Gonzales
And this for the last 20 years in Switzerland.
Then round 2 again : senior Gonzales
Round 3 Mr tamales gonzales
Round 4 -10 min.
On the positive side, this made me very good in every other aspect of sex
In this last cycle I expirienced that I need unbelievable Gorgeous women and then this problem vanishes completely or women who are so alive and joyous with Sexuality that I transform into a beast of pleasure.
Now I am gona learn how to bring out this aliveness in women to the point they explode in pleasure the whole time.
Primal Diamond custom upgrade on the way
Mission Start- Let’s go
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Didn’t even come. She was out of power and needed a break, it was like in the movie : 40 years old Virgin
In this 2 hours + whenever I wanted to relax a little I just lay down on my back and she on top, still inside her, and start to relax together, holding hands, massaging her, she massaging me, she kiss my body, I kiss her and so on and so fort.
Its no porn
Its connection amplified, it’s sensual it’s, slow, it’s pleasure, it’s wild, it’s animalistic it’s a symphony between 2 souls.
This was great
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All the above post where from my SSX, Lovebomb, BDLM custom for 1 cycle.
Now this cycle I am doing that same custom and Hero : origins plus my upgraded Primal Diamond custom.
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Did my first 4 min loop of Primal & Diamond custom.
What I expirience until this now is a relaxed state around people. Also I feel abundant of opportunities and joy in my stomach slightly
Some breaking of unuseful patterns, a Primal feeling of controlled Lust,a animal that is rising in me and now I am sitting at the beach and have doubts and insecuritys about smoking hot women, it’s like I submit to them, also I don’t think I can do it, despite the fact I allready did it
Time to shatter this shit
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Love seeing your results and self-analysis. Keeping going, bro 
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