You doing good my man, keep going 
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OK here is the real thing I am working on
I came on this earth and expirienced traumas since a 2 year old baby.
My energy centers where allways non functioning and cold, except my heart, through the years I could heal so many things it’s absurdly crazy.
Now I am on the point where every center is full functioning and warm, producing healthy energy.
Exept my stomach (sakral) is still cold, except I have sexual contact with a women or Masturbation.
So I am slowly forcing myself to do the sexual subs and then heal whatever comes up.
Topics that appear are
Shame
Guilt
Fear of dying from starvation
Abandonment
Left alone
Unfair treatment
Anger
Unforgivness
Stuck in the past
I would say that I am ready to enjoy the company of women if I do the blind eye, but I lisen to subs and then I stop me pursuing women, then heal my stuff because I don’t want to meet women with this burden of mine. So the sexual subs bring the remaining shit to the surface and then I heal it.
I say in a month I have cracked the last part and then I stop restricting myself and finally be the fucking sexy tiger I want to be
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Thank you Lion
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Thank you Tobyone
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It’s great seeing you progress. Wenn du es in der Schweiz schaffst, kannst du es überall schaffen.
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Yesterday was the first loop of the new Primal & Diamond custom.
The social calibration is phenomenal, Normaly I talk much, but now I only say the right things.
I feel soo good in my stomach, there is Lust for live, abundance, joy and carefreeness
I feel animalisticly good, like I Am the best choice and I am bringing a unique experience to the women and people in general, I have the power to draw people into my reality.
This will be good
Let’s go
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Omg the social Mastery aspect of New Primal is Genious. Never felt so calm, collected, internal powerfull in my life.
I searched for this for so long and now it’s getting better and better
THANK YOU @SaintSovereign @Fire
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I’m strongly considering combining DRRed Stage 3 with the New Primal. I love the rebellion scripting in DrRed, and my mind is very focused on getting to the natural state, free of artifical self-imposed limits. I feel like they’re going to work well together.
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Funny how I am super natural and sexual if I find a women beautiful, there I can fully be myself be relaxed, charged with fun, pleasure, eroticism and joy, and how I nearly freak out internaly when I find a women hot.
And when I find a women suuuuper over the top hot then I am calm and know she is mine and I am not more occupied with her looks, instead I meet her as a person and want to know her inner life.
Maybe the hot ones are internaly the most nervous, must be that, they are freaking out the whole time and shield themselves
Or is it me
Gona find out what it is
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Thank you GoldenBird.
I had enough healing the last 7 years
I think I am going to make a new custom with Primal, Khan Black st 3 and maybe another program, but this after I have run a couple of circles of the actual custom I am running
I need the foundation of Primal first, before I include KB ST3 in a custom
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Uff now Lovebomb is kicking in
I don’t need to proof something, it’s unnecessary, since days this is knocking on my head, every day. Today it broke through
This is a new state that feels like freedom,
I sit at a table and had the experience that I don’t need to proof anything to anyone and that I love myself, then I turn and see the girl next to me is crying heavily, the moment I started to feel love for myself was the moment she had tears rolling down for maybe 15 min.
Interesting
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You’re really observing yourself with a good eye my friend,
This makes me proud and makes me want to also be extremely honest with myself
Way to go! This is a better journal than any “I sleep with 10 women a night come read my sex adventures” any day
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Thank you @Yazooneh
Yeea honesty is important.
The moment you know that you can heal and handle your deepest wounds and darkness is the moment your free.
Then you can be completely honest to yourself and others, also digging shit up to erase it so that life gets better becomes second nature.
Let’s go
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My egotistical needs and wants are vanished. I walk a new way where only the connection counts as valuable . That’s the most valuable thing there is between me and people.
A sexy body is nice to look at but that’s it. It counts who she is, does she as a human turn me on.
I know all the dark and hidden stuff women do and are, more than they know themselves or are willing to explore. I know my dark stuff and I am the master over it, so I believe I can handle her well.
Now I want to expirience life with women ready to play on any level.
How do I bring out the most beautiful parts in women???
Ahhhh yes I have to go first into my beautiful parts, hold them high as my standard until its second nature for me, then I can demand the same from women.
Gona polish the diamond first
I am doing this for myself
Let’s go
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2 hours healing session done
Adios Abandonment
Adiós stuck in mistreatment
Hallo love
Hallo peace
Hallo joy
Hallo life
Like a truck I am progressing
Bravo Leo
Let’s go
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2nd loop of Primal custom today and I am relaxed like never before in social interaction.
That’s a complete game changer
Need to adapt to this state first
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Now it’s evening and I expected to have a boost in animalistic raw power but for some reason I am not interested in women. I talk with them but the sex factor is not there anymore.
Normaly I shout in joy and have fun with people or let’s say because people don’t have much fun I provide it.
This also disappeared completely
Its like my normal (or not so normal) behavior is moved down to the lowest level and I am still trying to drive the spaceship but it does move very slow and in control.
Thats new for me
Also I healed my fears and I function slower, more with control than with reactions.
I have to learn this new mode, otherwise I look like a confused clown.
Its like I came down from hyperspeed to slow cruising.
OK slow cruising it is
I accept
Let’s cruise
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Yesterday after the 2nd loop of Primal I lost interest in women and had the overall feeling it’s doing nothing until today.
2 hours ago a surge of power and confidence rushing through me like crazy
Holy moly I have to go out right now and it’s 10pm
Lets go
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