Precisely. I realized that decreasing the power even more and finishing up one stage of a major program in one (3 weeks) run (with a washout at the end) may help me understand the new tech even better. But Iām slowly getting inclined towards what @pacman has recently said that is your main focus should be on Integration Phase and running your loop when you feel/know/intuit that āyouāre ready to goā.
Can confirm.
Whenever I am overloaded I feel āstupidā because I have issues building slightly advanced sentences.
Or even clean pronunciation.
Also for some reason I thought you already run Alchemist in the past. Am I mistaken?
Iāve been running it for almost four months now and Iāve created five journals with it in. I promise thatās the last one and I shall finish up that sub within three months.
After one day of processing I ran one loop of LD last evening and itās hitting me now with a slight reconā¦
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Iāll be running one loop of Alchemist in two days only. It seems to me I have to cut down on the Ultima and listen to it only once per week.
It seems to me thatās the case, therefore, I decided to run one loop of LD a week.
It looks like LD is working on some fears I thought I had dealt with utterly. Like a feeling of anxiety when bypassing dogs and strangers (especially groups of teenage boys). I havenāt experienced that for some years but today when I bypassed a dog I started thinking it could attack me from behind and although I didnāt feel any fear my back flinched and once it happened the dog attacked me from behind. I turned around and faced it with no fear and it stopped. It was an interesting experience since my mind remained fearless and calm and only my body reacted to it (the flinch).
Also, today when I was bypassing two teenagers I started thinking how teenagers used to laugh at me once I bypassed them when I was at that age but today I didnāt feel any anxiety and when I bypassed them I heard one of them laughing behind my back when I was like twenty meters further. I felt nothing but my stomach flinched.
I realized what kind of people used to do that to me and I taught of one word only; ācowardsā.
I was planning on doing two processing days after running LD but since I feel āfresherā I decided to run one loop of Alchemist today. Tomorrow Iāll be doing another processing day. Iām listening to Alchemist now, it feels nice!
Do you meditate while listening to Alchemist?
Yes but cannot say itās helped me a lot so far. Thereās an improvement but not massive, maybe since I donāt do that to achieve some deeper states but just to relax.
Another thing I noticed today was my moves were not fluid but stiff and hindered, exactly how they were when I was a boy and my father used to call me āwooden boyā for that reason. It didnāt make me feel uncomfortable though but it seemed a bit weird.
Iām running another loop of Alchemist today, I want to see how it works for me. It feels really good too (like the first loop four hours ago).
Ultima seems to be okay if you give it around 30 hours for processing after running one loop, letās do some more experiments on Q.
Although I ran two loops of Alchemist yesterday and I had a hard time falling asleep and I woke up for 30 minutes in the middle of the night I feel awesome today, my mood is very good and my energy level is high. Great!
Still no signs of overexposure or recon whatsoever. The energy level is still high and I feel solid. I might be close to discovering the formula⦠it depends on what repeating the experiment is going to reveal but so far it looks promising.
Today the results are even more pronounced. I feel the calm of Alchemist and my energies perfectly balanced. Man, I love that peace in me. Iāll be running one loop of LD in the afternoon and then taking a processing day tomorrow.
I lost my interest in porn utterly when I started listening to LD last Thursday. I donāt think about porn almost at all and when I do, itās only because Iām just amazed I donāt crave it anymore. I wanted to try how it would be to watch porn now but I feel some kind of blockage that keeps me away from doing that experiment. Thatās really interesting. And I was kind a addicted to it for over 20-25 years.
What kind of behavior usually occurs when using an alchemist? I think, searching for information on wise stones or alchemy, interest in eternal life, spiritual excellence (I have a religion, and my preaching is the best and my prayers are the best when using alchemist. I saw your back.)
Iām quite religious and have two religions, so Iām very interested in alchemist.
Your behaviour doesnāt change much on Alchemist apart from being more relaxed in your moves and much less prone to anger. Alchemist is about working with your energies and the stillness of the mind. I donāt practice any religion or magic so I cannot tell how it works in that field. It improves your meditation experience however.
This is awesome mate. I donāt have anything against elicit material per se, but when over-consumed it can easily hijack the reward-center of the brain, so that right there is awesome.
A lot of people and gurus and so on talk about diverting their āsexual energiesā towards a greater goal. Do have anything like that in mind?
Nope, I like sex.
Instead of taking a processing day I decided to run two loops of Alchemist to do a test. I feel I have enough energy to manage with it with ease. Gonna see tomorrow how it goes.
Okay, Iām running another loop today, itās the third and last one.
Today I ran two loops of Alchemist and will be having a processing day on the morrow.
I ran one loop of LD yesterday and two loops of Alchemist today which mean I havenāt taken a processing day since last Tuesday. I still feel solid and my energy level is good. Iāll be running two loops of Alchemist tomorrow and see what to do next.