The Waves with ZP

Journals - Major Programs
#121

This Stark, CFW, Spartan combination is giving me zero tolerance for nonsense. I can see through the lies and figured that if this continues that only a quarter to an eight of my day will be productive, so I told my partner not to talk to me again until he develops some integrity. I left for the gym, and he told me that he needs to come up higher when I returned.

He says that I have a look of superiority and unwavering strength about me today. I can see how this would be the case based on the way that people treated me at the gym today. I went to the local gym and they seemed a little intimidated by me. The atmosphere in my local gym is so different from the other gym that I almost feel like Iā€™m in another world there.

I had a dream that I should work out my arms, so thatā€™s what I focused on today.

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#122

This sounds powerful. I have all these. Will fight the temptation though. Need $$$ haha. Wonder what Stark, CFW, (Emperor or Mogul ) would be like.

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#123

After reading through your amazing journal, it seems your partner knows exactly what to say, almost bordering on manipulation to get his a$$ outta hot water. Not my business, just a pattern Iā€™ve noticed throughout your journal.

Iā€™m probably way off base, as you know his intentions and personality way better than I do.

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#124

@WildCard I appreciate you mentioning this observation. Iā€™m going to have to keep a better eye on it.

For a while there, he would buy me fudge and chocolates and heavy calorie meals to prevent me from losing weight. Always told me how gorgeous I was when I wasnā€™t taking care of myself, and I think that he did this to prevent me from actually looking better. This is why I donā€™t ever take his word for it anymore and I try to go by the responses of other people.

Iā€™ve talked to him about all that and he seems to be supporting me trying to look better and has not tried to sabotaged my progress yet. Iā€™ve had so many experiences with him doing this before that I am now on the lookout and he knows that I wonā€™t let him get away with it anymore.

He does seem to be sensitive to the changes that he sees in me as I execute the subs. I donā€™t always tell him which subs Iā€™m running or any changes I notice. I just let him tell me, but yeah, maybe I should keep an eye on this. lol

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#125

Like I said, I could be way off base and Iā€™m not a trained anything, so he could very well be genuine with these compliments and actions. I certainly hope he is anyway.

And the last thing I want to do is take away from the actual progress and changes that you see for yourself. Ex: You probably are all of these things, but just make sure it comes from you and not an external validation source, as words are easy to say. Especially when someone knows they are walking on thin ice.

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#126

This reminds me of a friend I hypnotized for weight management. She was on the bigger side. I zapped her, she started dropping 1 full lb per day

She didnā€™t tell her bf she had at the time. When he noticed her slimming down, he got majorly upset.

ā€œI like my girls thick! Put the weight back on!ā€

She said ā€œI feel way better nowā€ and he just didnā€™t wanna hear it. He actually gave her an ultimatum. Like ā€œIf you want me, put the weight back on.ā€

She said ā€œWell, since itā€™s MY house that I PAID FOR, how much time do you need to get out?ā€

He tried backtracking. She said too late lol. Go girl

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#127

Could very well beā€¦ Also, make sure that itā€™s not a case of ā€˜I donā€™t think I look good, so anybody who disagrees with me is lying.ā€™
It could be either, I donā€™t know, just throwing a possibility out there.

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#128

Who is this guy? Boyfriend, fiancƩe, husband, something else?

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#129

Wow, thatā€™s really funny. Good for her to take charge to make herself appear the way she wants to look. Did you charge her? Do you have a hypnotizing business?

I think that there is something in my partner that prevents himself and those close to him from wanting to be happy. He thinks that I look much better when I am slim, but he is more comfortable when I am overweight. Insecurity might be a part of it, but I think thereā€™s more to it. I have about 30 pounds I want to get rid of, and I love to workout fortunately.

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#130

Heā€™s kina like a boyfriend/roommate/partner, but we really love each other. Have been together for a long time and we have a lot invested financially into this relationship

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#131

I see. Thank you for explaining.

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#132

A number of us have noticed a negative reaction from our partners when we first start running subs and making whatever improvements we make. It is due to insecurity and the fear that weā€™ll leave or at least the power dynamic of the relationship will change.
It does end though.
It took a couple of years for me to get to the point where the wife stopped challenging my progress, but things are really good now that Iā€™ve gotten there.

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#133

I didnā€™t charge her. This was when I first started hypnotizing people. Iā€™d spent 12 years in ā€œlearningā€ mode prior to this, from 2000-2012. in 2012, I decided I needed to get busy DOING. So I posted on FB that I just took a hypnosis class and needed some free volunteers so I could prove I can do this.

She was my first real taker. I technically do still have a hypnotizing business, just not done it a lot lately. I still do on occasion if the right kind of client comes along.

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#134

The healing components CFW was giving me sadness and small bursts of depression here and there. A man I had never seen at the local gym before made intense eye contact and said ā€œhiā€ to me. I said ā€œhiā€ and left. No ā€œhow you doing?ā€ or anything like that. lol This is like the old me, before ZP. Now I can see that I could have done so much better, but I was feeling so down at that time.

I really am glad for the work that CFW was doing, but I donā€™t like to feel sad, so I changed things up. I ran CFW, Stark and Chosen.

Chosen gave me all this sexual energy again. I did feel the healing warmth from CFW in the middle of the night. I woke up feeling so good, just full of positivity and looking forward to enjoying my day.

Random strangers actually approached me with this mix today.
My voice is feminine and I speak very nicely, but the main component is of authority and confidence.
My body language is also strong on authority.
There was a guy who was going to approach me. I told him with my body language to stay away, and he did.
There was another guy near by who seemed very unfriendly. He noticed what I did to the other guy, and I think that he respected me for it. He then approached me just to be helpful and left.
Iā€™ve felt the aura ramp up every now and then.

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#135

I love how fast ZP seems to work as compared to Q/Q2.

Though Iā€™ve yet to fully feel the productivity from MogulZP+LimitlessZP like I did on AscMogulQ/LimitlessQ stack.

Next time Iā€™ll add AscensionZP to that.

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#136

Maybe it has to do with ZP being more focused on the subject, so it might take a longer time of running the programs to get productivity results.

ZP reminds me of ultimas, they always worked so fast for me.

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#138

I really hope they can improve on the productivity drive for the final ZP version to get it as strong as Q.

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#139

I ran Heartsong last night. I know Iā€™ve been jumping around during this cycle, and I donā€™t like doing that, but something happened yesterday that made me want to run Heartsong again, and it was released in ZP form. It seemed like the perfect timing for me.

Itā€™s really obvious that the ZP version is more powerful. I was able to see clearly that there is someone who Iā€™m not close to who has Heartsong potential. My interactions with this person have been complicated by my own doing, and I felt deep sadness about my behavior through Heartsong. I even cried. Iā€™ve felt so many emotions about this situation all day. Heartsong revealed to me some of the reasons behind my behavior. The guy is a ten, goes for tens, and attracts tens, and I feel that I donā€™t deserve that. I began to tell myself that I do deserve a ten and that I donā€™t need to settle for someone who I am not really attracted to. Iā€™ve had oneitis and Iā€™ve realized that it doesnā€™t have to be that way. I can meet someone great, even in the most unlikely places. I have to put in the effort and at the very least smile at the guy who has the Heartsong potential. If he doesnā€™t smile back because of the way Iā€™ve treated him, then at least I went out of my comfort zone and will grow regardless of his response.

I also felt like I was in love, just out of nowhere. This was scary for me, I mean, I donā€™t want to fall in love with someone. Then I realized that itā€™s a good feeling, and I can just be in love with life. I felt so much happiness after that.

There was a song that came on Youtube called Surefire by Wilderado. I had never heard this song before. This song really captured what Iā€™ve felt for most of the day.

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#140

I love the self-awareness youā€™re bringing to this. If you work on that one part there, I think the rest will fall into place. Sounds like youā€™re already on that path, so I donā€™t have any useful advice other than perhaps stack HS with something thatā€™s healing-specific. Rebirth/Regen/DR1, etc.

It does seem as if you are making great strides to realizing your own inner Beauty/Goddess/(Whatever word fits in there best)

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#141

This is so powerful and true. I hadnā€™t realized this, probably because of all the emotions I feel when Iā€™m on Heartsong, but youā€™re right. I donā€™t think I ever noticed this kind of growth in all my time using subs. :slight_smile:

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